Petite Sean, with a pair of bright eyes, has always been a dynamic member of Act up, which is different from the rational and conservative of the president. Every time Sean stands up from the back row of the lecture hall to speak, he will receive a burst of finger snaps. , that was the voice of approval in the venue. In the planning of a parade, he proposed to organize a cheerleading team, and immediately danced with Max. Although President Tipo said it was a bit like a clown, later practice proved that "the effect is good".
In the last parade in the film, there were Tippo, Max, and Sean's boyfriend Nthan, but Sean was absent. He watched Act Up's protest in front of the TV, but there was no result. He pressed the shutdown button in a lonely way, and he should be sad in his heart. "I can't wait for the victory to end." Not long after Tipo came, they had a fierce conflict at the recent weekly meeting. Tippo imagined from the perspective of wishing the parade a success. He hoped to invite seriously ill members of the hospital to participate in the parade in wheelchairs. Not yet terminally ill, but Sean is almost there, his body is close to the limit, he is immediately irritated by Tipo's suggestion "You think we are not sick enough! Hypocrite!" Angrily left! Tipo appears at the small window in the doorway, walks in, and Sean asks warily what he's coming to see him. It was before the parade, shouldn't the chairman be too busy to take care of the rest? Sean does know Tipo better than I do as a viewer. Tipo played with the game console by the bed twice, annoyed me, the audience, and sure enough, he started chatting about the parade, worried that the parade would fail, "please get out now!" Sean got pissed off again. When asked why he was angry "for no reason", Sean said "I don't know!" In fact, he knew that it was Tipo who wanted to invite him to the parade in a wheelchair, and he didn't want him to speak! Before leaving, Tipo asked the nurse about his infection. There was concern and more hypocrisy. After all, the degree of the disease is different, and it is not necessarily the same. He should care a little more about the outcome of the march.
Sean ended his life at the age of 26 in the small apartment he rented with tape over his eyes. His fresh life came to an abrupt end, he looked very small lying there, his mother endured the grief, did not cry, and calmly helped him change clothes, and Max, the first friend who came, helped him. Act Up's friends came one after another, walked to him one by one, and said goodbye to him solemnly. Mom made coffee for everyone, Sophie was hungry and asked for something to eat from her mother, and some people wrote half of it. In the obituary, my mother said to add "brave", and then they discussed the ashes, part of which was sprinkled as a weapon of resistance on inaction pharmaceutical company government representatives, and the other part was left to mother. "5/5," Tippo suggested, "8/2," Mom said. It seems like a joke, it's not funny, but life and life will go on, and my mother feels supported "It's good to have you guys!"
Yes, everyone is very lonely at the end of life. Sean has Nathen to accompany him to the end of his life. When life is over, Sean is lying on Nuoda's bed when he is lonely. It is physical loneliness and spiritual loneliness. For Mom and Nathen.
Nathen, it's especially emotional. An uninfected gay man who joins Act Up to differentiate himself from most, his love for Sean may be questioned by viewers. When he was 19 years old, Nathen dedicated his first time to an AIDS boyfriend. At that time, a picture of an AIDS patient with a sick face before his death in a magazine frightened him. He never had contact with his boyfriend again within 5 years and met again. , her boyfriend lost weight and looked sick. They reunited after a long absence. They were very happy and loved to the fullest, but they didn't dare to ask him about his physical condition. The boyfriend only said that he moved back to live with his parents. Nathen called her boyfriend's parents a year later. The phone learned that he was hospitalized. Even if he didn't ask what was wrong, it was not that he didn't understand. The other party's father was angry. He hung up the phone and never contacted him again. Time and time again, he was one step away from the truth, but he stopped at the boundary, allowing himself to enjoy the pleasure and escape the pain. But this incident has been buried in Nathen's heart, tormented him. Sean asked, why didn't he ask why he didn't see him, the ending was either dead or alive, why bother to have an unclear ending, and he couldn't forgive himself in his heart, this is the cowardice of most people in the world.
After that, Sean felt a bit of emotional estrangement, and he felt their borders, between being an AIDS patient and being just gay. But Nathen said, let me move in and take care of you, I want to do that. I want to make up for the mistakes of the past. Nathen really accompanied him to the end of his life. Sean was vulnerable at the time, saying "missing you", and Nathen gave him what he wanted, but his attitude was alienating fear. In the last parade, Nathen went to participate. That night, Sean was gasping for breath and was on the verge of death, but to face it alone, Nathen chose to go to the parade. After the parade, the blood-red Seine River was a symbol of the deaths of countless patients in the history of the AIDS fight. . Later, Nathen and his mother took Sean to their apartment. That night he slept next to Sean, shrouded in great fear. He woke up in the middle of the night to give him an injection, and then woke up and touched his arm, it was already cold. People have gone.... Weeping bitterly. You see, no matter which choice is made, it is the same pain to face each other across the border or to accompany across the border. That night, when Tipbo came, Nathen asked him to stay, and they had a blast, not for pleasure, but for comfort, and finally in the other's arms to the point of pain and tears.
In Nathen's words, the past is abstract, and Sean quickly becomes a part of the abstract past, the extinguished fire.
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