I will leave in the end, disappointed and disappointed

Rupert 2022-03-21 09:02:58

The second time I watched this movie, I felt that the rating could be higher. The first time I watched it a few years ago, I didn't expect to give it a particularly high score, but this time I gave it five stars decisively. Time brings people not only aging, but also thinking. When you think about it, you don't seem to be so afraid of getting old.

But looking back, we find that this is far from the truth - how afraid of aging we are! We are too afraid of aging! As a woman, I personally find this fear even more profound. When I was a teenager, when I looked at myself with collagen on my face in the mirror, I might not think that my face would be wrinkled like my mother; Oneself, there may be a hint of joy towards maturity; when you are in your thirties, you will be more or less anxious when you see yourself in the mirror who is starting to grow old! ——These feelings may be very personal or very common. After all, on the cusp of great changes in the times, we have witnessed more possibilities for women in this century, and at the same time, we have deeply felt that women are individuals in a limited space. limitations. After watching this movie, I realized more clearly that every era, every individual, every age stage is subject to various constraints, the point is whether we can jump out of the established thinking mode of self-centeredness and The mainstream value system with the society as the template, to grow.

Val will leave, and while Maria won't admit it, neither will we. For Maria, Val symbolizes her youth and desire. It was the youth full of vitality and courage that she could not return, and it was the strong and ethereal desire that she could not ask for. "The deceased is like a man, and he does not give up day and night." When I was a child, I thought I knew the mystery. Now it seems that I really don't understand what it means at that time: the dead are like this, and I don't give up day and night. Time passes, regardless of human will, the youth we once thought will eventually leave us, and when youth passes away, what else can we do? To grow old in fear, or to grow old in peace? As a middle-aged woman, I deeply realize my fear of aging. In recent years, I have become less fond of looking in the mirror, because I have become more and more unable to accept my gradually increasing crow's feet and gradually dim eyes. Anxiety arises spontaneously - unwillingness. Acknowledging that the youth is gone and no longer young; unwilling to see a more complex world and a more out-of-control self; unwilling to accept that life and career tend to be dull; unwilling to face up to the fading passion and inner desire... However, , like Val will eventually go away, our youth will eventually pass away, and there is nothing we can do about it. The question is, then what?

Just like in the movie, the disappearance of Val makes people feel lost and unforgettable. In real life, Val will also disappear, because this seemingly intimate but unequal relationship is not destined to last. In life, many relationships are unresolved and end without a problem. I thought something was going to happen, but nothing happened, and life went on. Not all relationships will last. When a relationship is out of balance for a long time and never finds a balance, the relationship will end sooner or later. Maria and Val's relationship is clearly out of balance, first as an employment and then as a friend. This employment relationship is balanced by Maria's strength as a boss and Val's accommodation as an assistant. Their employment relationship could have continued, but the problem is that they still have a close friendship. Their friendship has always relied on Val's thoughtfulness and accommodating as a fulcrum, while Maria's ego and willfulness thwarted the otherwise balanced fulcrum. From the three mountain climbing experiences of the two in the movie, we can see that the fulcrum of their close relationship gradually disappeared. Val desperately needs Maria's approval and respect for herself, which Maria has never realized. She stubbornly clings to a very self-concept and expression, which hurts Val deeply, so Val is gone. This unequal and unhealthy relationship will end sooner or later, and Val has long seen this, because Maria has been unwilling to face herself and accept others.

I would like to insert a short paragraph here of my understanding of a few images - Sils Maria, Val Fex and Maloja Snake. Sils Maria is the origin (the famous spot, the name of the place where the two are, the playwright Wilhelm's home), because Julie The heroine played by Abinoche is called Maria, so I guess it may symbolize the body or origin of Maria; Val Fex is not far from the Fix Valley (also a famous scenic spot, said to be the highest inhabited valley) One), because the heroine played by Xiao K is called Val, so I guess it should symbolize Maria's desire or where to go (my gossip is actually trying to smack this CP, so I think Val is Maria's heart and mind. Where to go); Maloja Snake is a little more complicated, and everyone's understanding may be different. I tend to think it is the place to go, because the playwright Wilhelm chose to commit suicide at the mountain pass where Maloja Snake appeared. There is one more line to string together: the second time up the mountain, they start from home (Sils Maria, where they came from), and on the way down, Maria said that she would take a shortcut she knew, which would lead to Val Fex (where she wanted to go) , ended up going to Maloja (the real home). On a whim, I think Maloja Snake can symbolize many things. Here, I think it can also symbolize Maria's inner demon (sorry, the brain hole is a bit big), and it can also symbolize the force majeure of the future (the third climb, Maria sees The Serpent of Maloja that arrives is majestic and menacing, what should come will always come, and the cloud will come; what should go will always go, and Val is gone). Oh yes, Val (Valentine) means lover in English.

After Val left, I kept looking forward to her coming back. Maybe I was just like Maria. In fact, only when Val really disappears, can Maria get rid of her dependence and sustenance on Val and face up to her own problems. Only by not running away can we truly grow and life can continue. Maria had been obsessively indulging in her own world before, living a very self-contained life, completely unable to look at problems from the perspective of others. When I was chatting with Val about other people's gossip, Val said that they were living in the real world, which was actually implying that Maria was living in her own world, and she bluntly used her own single point of view to separate her own world from the world she did not agree with. , refuse to identify, refuse to tolerate, refuse to grow. After Val leaves, when Maria meets director Claus, actress Joann and her lover Chris again, the paparazzi gossip about Joann and Chris, and director Cluas escorts Joann into the car. At this time, Maria was forgotten by everyone, she was a little stunned, it took a long time to react, and then she hurriedly got into the car. At this time, she may realize that she is no longer the center of the world. At the end, Maria suggested to Joanna if she could stay for a few seconds before leaving, so that Helena in the play could stay in the audience's heart for a while, Joann directly came back and said, "It doesn'f feel right for me.. .It's time to move on. (I don't think so...it's time to move on)" At this point, Maria said to my surprise, "You're right. I think I'm lost in my memory. ..(you're right, I seem to be lost in my own memory...)" From this point on, Maria looked forward. Before that, Maria had a mid-life crisis as a 40-year-old actress, and she, like the character she's about to play, was devestated by age. After that, or rather, after she had a chat with another young director, she had a new understanding of age, she didn't have to live with aging or escape aging, she could actually be outside of time ) - Well, this is growth!

After watching the movie, I still have no idea, and I want to brush it three times. Director Claus is right, in the play, Sigrid and Helena are actually one person. At forty, Sigrid really turned into Helena, the poor woman Maria described as a failure, eclipsed in front of 18-year-old Sigrid and brutally photographed on the beach. Outside the play, Maria and Val are not the same person, why is Maria so obsessed with Val, because that is what she used to be. Val is actually a projection of Maria's younger self, she loves her because she was who she was, and now that part is gone, and she longs to find it back in Val. There's a saying that goes well, "Tell me who you love, and I'll tell you who you are." Sometimes, loving someone doesn't have to be To truly love that person, more often than not, we love ourselves—a part of ourselves we long to get back, because only then are we whole. A lyric of Elvis Presley fits the occasion, "You have made my life complete, and I love you so." This perfectly explains why the other party is perfect in our eyes when we are in love, but after marriage the other party is perfect in our eyes. There's something wrong in our eyes - because it's not the person we love, but the self projected on that person. That's when the problem arises: If we love only the part of each other who is like us and deny or try to transform the part of them that is not like us, such a marriage will not be happy. It is said that middle-aged couples are a hurdle. Whether we can move forward depends on whether we can learn to see the complete other half and the complete self (there are advantages and disadvantages, strengths and weaknesses, strengths and weaknesses, sometimes cute and sometimes hateful.) , sometimes wise and sometimes stupid...) Berkeley said, "To be is to be perceived. (To be is to be perceived." does not exist. That's why, no matter what Val says, Maria has to question and deny, because she doesn't perceive it. That quote from Val when he was climbing was especially good, "At 20, you saw Sigirid's ambition and you saw her violence,

Youth (Val) will eventually leave, and we (Maria) may be disappointed. However, the unfinished meaning needs to be taken slowly.

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Clouds of Sils Maria quotes

  • Maria Enders: Jo-Ann?

    Jo-Ann Ellis: What's up?

    Maria Enders: I wanted to ask you. You know the scene at the beginning of Act 3 when you tell me you want to leave and I get on my knees and I beg you to stay? You're on the phone ordering pepperoncini pizza for your coworkers in accounting. You leave without looking at me. As if I didn't exist. If you could pause for a second. Helena's distress would last longer when she's left alone in her office. Well, the way you're playing it, the audience follows you out but instantly forgets about her. So...

    Jo-Ann Ellis: So? So what?

    Maria Enders: When, when I played Sigrid I held it longer. I thought it was more powerful. Erotically. I mean, it really played well.

    Jo-Ann Ellis: No one gives a fuck about Helena at that point, do they? I'm sorry, it's pretty clear to me that this woman is all washed up. I mean, your character, Maria, not you. And when Sigrid leaves Helena's office, Helena's a wreck, and we get it. You know, it's time to move on. I think they want what comes next.

    Maria Enders: If you just held it a few seconds longer.

    Jo-Ann Ellis: It doesn't really feel right for me, Maria.

    Maria Enders: You're right. Yeah. I - I - I think I'm - I'm lost in my memories. You think you've forgotten your old habits, but their all - they all come back. Have to break them.

    Jo-Ann Ellis: I guess you do!

  • Piers Roaldson: [Piers proposes new movie mutant role for Maria] I'm trying to consider genetics from a more human point of view.

    Maria Enders: When I was reading it, I imagined someone much younger. Maybe me younger, actually, but you were seeing me in movies that were made years ago. I - I've changed.

    Piers Roaldson: She has no age. Or else, she's every age at once. Like all of us.

    Maria Enders: Can I be frank? Maybe it's because I'm working with her, but as I was reading it, I - I kept thinking about Jo-Ann.

    Piers Roaldson: Yeah, well personally, I never think about Jo-Ann Ellis.

    Maria Enders: You're wrong. She's smart. And talented. She's modern, just like your character.

    Piers Roaldson: My character isn't modern. Not in that way, anyway. She's, outside of time.

    Maria Enders: Outside of time. I don't understand. It's too abstract for me. It's all right.

    Piers Roaldson: I - I don't like this era.

    Maria Enders: You're wrong. It's yours!

    Piers Roaldson: Amen! I didn't choose it.

    Maria Enders: [laughs]

    Piers Roaldson: And if my era is Jo-Ann Ellis and viral Internet scandals I think I'm entitled to feel unrelated, aren't I. I mean, it's nothing against her, I guess I just assumed you'd understand.