Hello everyone, I'm Alaska with glasses and a microphone.
Today, I want to talk to you about a new drama that has already made enough gimmicks before its broadcast——
not what i want
I can't feel anything from the name.
But if I tell you, this show is directed by Jonathan Entwistle, the director of "Fuck the World", joined by the production team of "Stranger Things", and the stars are from "The Clown Returns."
Will you be instantly interested in it?
The story takes place in a remote town in Pennsylvania, USA. A 17-year-old girl, Xiaoxi, has moved here for more than two years.
In the eyes of most people, Xiaoxi's high school life was ordinary.
She has a very low presence at school, has a close friend Dina, and has little contact with others.
Xiaoxi's mother is a waiter in a restaurant. She barely makes enough money to support her family. Her younger brother is well-behaved and obedient. She seems to be one of the most ordinary families in the town.
But behind this kind of life, Xiaoxi's heart is actually full of depression.
Dina recently had a boyfriend, and this boy named Lewis is the kind of megalomaniac that Xiaoxi hates the most.
The best friend who used to talk about everything with her is now showing her love to her boyfriend in her spare time. Of course, Xiaoxi is not happy.
But what made Xiaoxi even more painful was that almost a year ago, her father committed suicide in the basement of his home without warning and without leaving any last words.
For a long time, Xiaoxi's mother was busy with work, her younger brother was still young, and her father was the only person in the family who could have a good chat with Xiaoxi.
But it was not until his father died suddenly that Xiaoxi realized that the real pain in his heart had never been told to himself.
Contacting the natural estrangement of her best friend recently, Xiaoxi sent her own questions to her mother:
But unfortunately, her abnormal mood, her mother did not take it to heart.
But everything is not too bad. Just when Xiaoxi is getting anxious, the boy Stanley breaks into her life.
In Stanley's eyes, Xiaoxi is the most eccentric person in this town who matches him.
Unlike Xiaoxi, Stanley lives enthusiastically and boldly.
He saw that Xiaoxi was not good at communicating with people, so he relaxed her with unrestrained conversations again and again, and invited her to the homecoming dance together.
The appearance of Stanley made Xiaoxi no longer fall into her own emotions all day long.
But when she entered the basement again, Xiaoxi still couldn't help but silently complained about her father's departure in her heart.
And such mood swings, for Xiaoxi, are more terrifying than floods and beasts.
It turns out that Xiaoxi has been hiding a secret, she can manipulate objects with her mind.
It sounds cool, but Xiaoxi is just terrified.
She didn't know where this power came from or how to control it.
In this way, although Xiaoxi has super powers, she can't use it in a critical moment, and she can't even protect her younger brother who was bullied by the school bully.
But sometimes she just feels angry or sad, but the power suddenly explodes, destroying all kinds of objects around her.
In this way, Xiaoxi lives in fear every day, stepping on the emotional warning line every minute and every second.
At this moment, a party once again became her emotional catalyst.
On this day, Dina apologized to Xiaoxi for her carelessness during this time. She should not ignore Xiaoxi for love.
The two went to their classmate's birthday party together, but Dina's boyfriend suddenly quarreled with Dina.
Looking at the sad Dina, Xiaoxi finally couldn't help expressing her feelings.
This is another secret that stirs Xiaoxi's emotions, she has always liked Dina.
But after a kiss, Dina suddenly sobered up, she wanted everything back to normal.
Looking at Dina, Xiaoxi said embarrassedly that she just drank too much, but when she said this, she understood that she was on the verge of losing control.
Soon, Xiaoxi rushed into the woods, her thoughts finally exploded, and the surrounding area was razed to the ground.
And this scene happened to be seen by Stanley.
The secrets that have always been exposed are like this, and Xiaoxi is at a loss as to what to do, but life does not leave her room for breathing.
On this day, several people were sentenced to detention to clean the school. While talking, Xiaoxi was provoked by the stabbed Jenny, and hurried into the library to calm down.
Suddenly, the lights began to flicker, but Xiaoxi, who had calmed down, realized that it was not because of herself.
In a trance, a black shadow flashed by and quickly disappeared behind the bookshelf.
At this moment, Xiaoxi was completely unable to control her fear, and her thoughts broke out again.
When Stanley arrived, there was only a mess left, and even if Dina helped them steal the surveillance video, no other people were found.
Who the hell was eyeing Xiaoxi? What are you following her for?
Before Xiaoxi could figure it out, more troubles followed.
The incident in the library ended when the police came over. Only then did Dina understand that Xiaoxi definitely didn't tell herself the truth about what happened that day.
This kind of deception is an insurmountable hurdle for her in a short period of time.
Immediately afterwards, Xiaoxi, who was in a rage, saw that Stanley was still pestering himself to explore the secret of superpowers, and ran away from him in a fit of anger.
Being alone again, Xiaoxi was about to collapse. She ran to her basement, wanting to find out the cause of her father's death as soon as possible and reconcile with herself.
And this time, the mother, who had been avoiding the matter, finally decided to tell the truth.
At that time, Xiaoxi's father joined the Marine Corps. When the final period of service was about to end, an explosion occurred in the team.
No one knows how it happened, and Xiaoxi's dad is the only survivor.
After the incident, Dad was in a strange state when he came home again.
He gradually became paranoid, feeling like he was being followed every day, and at the same time feeling that no one understood him.
And these symptoms are exactly the same as Xiaoxi now.
Looking back now, my mother understands that there has always been some kind of power in Dad's body, but in the end, Dad lost to it in the fight, so he chose to commit suicide.
Perhaps, Xiaoxi's superpower was inherited from his father; or perhaps the explosion in the army was the result of his father's loss of control.
But now, nothing can be verified .
Xiaoxi didn't choose to tell her mother about her superpowers. After learning about her father's past, she completely adjusted her mentality.
Originally, Xiaoxi just wanted to avoid problems, but now she wants to conquer herself.
Soon, Xiaoxi and Stanley explained their thoughts. They may not be suitable to be lovers, but they can always be friends who keep secrets from each other.
At the same time, Xiaoxi also sincerely apologized to Dina, and the two unraveled the knot on the day of the kiss.
At that time, Dina's subconscious reaction was just out of shock, but she didn't want to reject or hurt Xiaoxi.
So far, everything seems to be developing in a good direction, however, the accident happened at this moment.
Dina's ex-boyfriend Lewis suddenly appears, holding up the diary he stole from Xiaoxi.
In front of the whole school, he exposed all Xiaoxi's private thoughts.
Including Xiaoxi has always liked Dina and had kissed her; including Xiaoxi's thoughts about her father and various disappointments in her life.
And just when he was about to say that Xiaoxi has super powers, Xiaoxi finally broke out, but this time, she was completely out of control.
The crowd fled in all directions, and Xiaoxi was also panicked and scared. She struggled and ran into the woods, and even wanted to go to the end of the world.
At this time, a man in black appeared behind her:
Overall, it's not hard to see the shadow of "Fuck the World" and "Stranger Things" in the first season of "Not My Wish".
The relationship between Xiaoxi and Stanley is, to some extent, the sympathy between weirdos.
And Xiaoxi's explosive power generated by thoughts is also very similar to the superpower of "Little 11" in "Stranger Things".
However, the prominent personality and mutual redemption of the frustrated teenagers in "Fuck the World" are not reflected here for the time being.
The warm blood of the teenagers in "Stranger Things" and the horror and darkness of the visionary world are also different from the daily campus life in "Not My Wish".
In detail, "Not What I Wanted" is closer to reality, and the whole play is devoted to Xiaoxi's youthful thoughts.
The setting of superpower girls gives this youth drama a certain sense of coolness.
In the play, Stanley once teased her as a "superhero" after learning about Xiaoxi's abilities.
But as far as the current plot is concerned, Xiaoxi is more like the superhero before he grew up and became enlightened.
If you can accept her being overwhelmed at this time, and are happy to watch the psychological growth of these teenagers in adolescence, then "Not My Wish" may be to your appetite.
In addition, there is a particularly powerful segment at the end of the play, which is obviously a tribute to "Witch Carrie".
But Xiaoxi's life is at best a depression, and she did not collapse and suffer bullying like Carrie.
This also made Xiaoxi's out-of-control actions in the end greatly reduced in terms of explosiveness, but left more suspense.
Is Lewis' death really just because of Xiaoxi's superpowers, or is someone helping to fuel the flames?
Who is following Xiaoxi? How did they discover Xiaoxi, and what was their purpose?
I have to say that "Not What I Wanted" is really good at playing, and the most attractive gimmick at the end makes it difficult to let go of this wave of suspense even if people are dissatisfied with the previous plot.
What else can we do?
I can only wish that the second season of "Not What I Wanted" is exciting enough, and don't let everything in the early stage be just a large trailer of more than two hours.
That's all for today, goodbye.
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