I can't go back to my hometown

Felipe 2022-03-22 09:02:17

The first reason I wanted to watch this movie was because the entire stage was unfolding in Changchun, but it was precisely because I was from Changchun that the entire viewing process was very dragging.

The first half of the film gives people the feeling of "Outstanding Citizen", almost entirely from the perspective of a Westerner, in order to deliberately emphasize the dramatic conflict and somewhat demonize the folk customs of the Northeast. It was uncomfortable at first, but just looking at it gradually made me laugh a little bit dumbly. Because from the thoughts and details, it is this sense of time and space dislocation and the confusion of the identity of the wanderer. And this is the most fundamental difference from "Outstanding Citizen". This film is forced to leave his hometown, while "Jie" is actively looking for a distant place.

I firmly believe that the fundamental contradiction of this film is the game between the hometown and the distance. Everyone has a constant question in their hearts, which is better. So the waiter will ask again and again, which is better, China or the United States? Yu Ping said that China is good, but she wanted to let Bao Er grow up and go to the United States to study. The only time bili broke down and cried was when he recalled being overwhelmed and misunderstood when he suddenly moved out of his hometown. From this developed layers of conflict. From the core of telling her not to tell her, to whether the emotions should be externalized and set up as a real person, from living in the moment or slapping a swollen face and being a fat person, to passing by as if parallel time and space . It seems that there are many things that I want to discuss, but fortunately, the theme is still clear. Although everyone is adrift, they are still united in their hometown at critical moments. This kind of emotional bond makes people unable to bear too much criticism.

It's a pity that the film is still a little immature, and many expressions are too deliberate, lacking a trace of smooth and silent nature. The performances of the Northeasterners are also uneven, sometimes they are in the play, sometimes they are in the play, and the slightly improved sense of bringing in is invisible.

It was originally a film with ordinary feeling, but I may still be trapped in the background of Changchun. The most touching scene was bili's crying scene looking for earrings. Which is better, I don't know, for me it's a different place to live. Bili who said this was in a period of low career, caught up with grandma's diagnosis, and was forced to drift. It is embarrassing to have such doubts. As for us who "actively" come out to work hard, it seems that we have lived in Changchun for more than ten years, but whenever someone asks me about the strategy for coming to Changchun to eat, drink and have fun, I am speechless. Because my memories in this city are only from home and school, the childhood fun is either gone or gone forever. The Internet cafes that I have been to have long been submerged by the times, and the playgrounds where I have played football have long been different. As a child, I was too simple, and now even if I have the opportunity to go home, I can only spend a few days with my parents and catch up with my relatives. There are very few opportunities to arrange yourself, because the good classmates are scattered everywhere.

The film uses the somewhat old-looking arch bridge in the Asia Pacific Plaza as a memory point. In my opinion, it is also a building that is only a few years old, and it is also far from the Changying Community on Hongqi Street, which is also a helpless move. 30-year-old bili, 30-year-old me, childhood should be similar, my childhood, my grandfather was paralyzed in bed, pointing to the green onion that fell on the ground, reminding me in Shandong dialect that there are "worms"; it was his family Opposite the two dragons playing beads at the entrance of Dalong Park; in that place called creatures, the roasted quail and fruit "egg" skins that only stay in the concept; or the lilac flowers that floated secretly by the spotless car factory street in summer night delicious. Of course, none of these exist anymore. What remains unchanged is the kowtow again and again in front of the tombstone in Chaoyanggou, as well as the ever-changing sacrificial rules.

So, as an authentic Changchun person, like bili, he will find a touch of exoticism in the magical reality scene preset by each director. Especially red and white. The older I get, the more out of place I feel. My own thank you banquet, although I agreed to the wishes of the big bottle and I did not have any ceremony, but it was still accompanied by a smiling face for a day. It was almost the stupidest day in my life. However, some people will definitely say why they are not enthusiastic. At grandma's funeral, the strange goddess used unreasonable and complicated rules to play people like fools. My parents and I expressed our opinion that if I can make the decision, I will definitely avoid the so-called "grand burial", but strictly speaking, as an outsider The mother still cried and fell in the mourning hall. And every time I go home to eat, it is the mutual forced instillation of values, so I can always hear who has broken down with whom, and who has reconciled with whom. In a modern society where individuals are becoming more and more independent, the ideological education and the unified construction of values ​​in the clan system can only be forced to usher in souls that are sometimes strong and sometimes weak. In the large group, they are brushing good morning and happy birthday day after day.

This kind of tearing extends into a delicate relationship between an individual and the family of origin. No matter how happy the family of origin is, there is an urge to make the child want to escape, perhaps because of instinct, or because of desire. The hostess's mother said the truth in one sentence. She wanted that feeling that everything was in control, so she couldn't stay in America because she thought it was our home. So I understood the hidden worries of our parents, as well as my own too simple and rude assumptions, living together is not as simple as imagined.

"What you can't go back to is your hometown, and what you can't reach is a distant place." I always remember this sentence, because it accurately pierced the life of those who came out to work hard by the times. At the end of the film, it tries to give an answer with a little positive energy, which can be considered courageous. After all, it is also gracefully blessed with French filters, and it is also necessary to take the responsibility of ending the dream. It's just that the speaker has no intention and the listener has intention. As an audience, I thought too much, and in the night when I couldn't calm down, I felt a bit of melancholy without authorization.

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The Farewell quotes

  • Jian: Chinese people have saying, when people get cancer they die. It's not cancer that kills them, it's the fear.

  • Jian: I don''t like, you know, put all my emotion on display. Like I''m in the zoo. But in here, if you don''t cry, you don''t put a show, they think that you don''t love your family. You know, in here, they even hire some professional criers. Just to show how sad they are. It''s just so ridiculous. I hate that.