I give up. I surrender.

Eusebio 2022-03-23 09:03:01

I have foreseen my future. I will go home. rotted in that house. I gave up, this time completely. I love myself too much to allow myself to fail. I want to raise the white flag to life completely and permanently. Yes, in order to avoid failure, I rejected every beginning and possibility. I don't want to feel this powerless feeling anymore. Never again. I don't want to live in a fighting stance all the time, life shouldn't be like this. I'm tired. I hate this atmosphere of life. I give up. I surrender. I want to reduce my range of motion and reduce it. Protect your senses. As long as life puts a little pressure on me, I instantly disappear. I won't let it hurt me. Life shouldn't be so painful. So I gave up. If this is the nature of life, then I cannot accept it at all. I don't love this kind of life. I just want to live. Even explanations like the nature of life, neurosis, are useless. Whenever I discover a new theory, I say "Oh, so it's so, so it's neurosis at work", "Oh so it's so, look everyone is the same, life is like this, you are overly sensitive and over-interpreted. When you are ready to pack up and start again, reality will tell me that even if you know all the truth, it will be useless, your tolerance for pain is very low, and you should become a so-called complete failure. . become the object of contempt. You go there to find the answer. Find answers where you fear the most. I just want to keep myself out of harm's way. Pain feels so painful. I can't stand it. I wonder if their so-called happy life really exists. Life is really good, can you just change your view? I gave up. The so-called excellent person in your mouth. I don't want to be strong, I want to be soft. Babies or parasites. Say what you want, I just want to spend the rest of my life on the couch doing nothing. You have no idea how much I love peace and harmony. But the relationship with life is not like this, I thought that as long as I stand firm, life will not take me. But in the end it showed me with reality that it could uproot me at any time no matter what. OK. All right. I give up. I surrender. You are awesome. If you believe in struggle, dream, and life, then go ahead and fight with life. Do your best. This is your hero. If you believe in this set. Your body, knowledge, food, clothes, skin, dreams... Okay. you are interested. This is good. I gave up. I gave up everything except that I was still envious of travel. If life wants to crush me, I have taken the initiative to lie down.

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  • Alan Bennett: [narrating] It's like a fairy story, a parable, in which the guilty is gulled into devising a sentence for someone innocent. Only to find it is their own doom they have pronounced.

  • Jehovah's Witnesses: [at the front door] Good afternoon. Does Jesus Christ dwell in this house?

    Alan Bennett: No. Try the van...