One has two mes, one awake in the dark and one asleep in the light. I am a fire and a dead branch, and one part of me consumes another part of me. —— Gibran
Alex has pure eyes, and he speaks and does things very straightforwardly, but when he reaches the top, his eyes sparkle again.
After watching the last scene of him exercising silently in the car, for the first time ever, I didn't feel very burning and exciting.
I just feel that this person is so lonely.
The suffocation that loneliness brings is very strong.
It's just that the way he fights against the lonely world is very exciting and exciting, but in essence, he is still an introvert outside the group of people who are silent, shy and even avoid relationships.
Alex's best mountaineering friend has known him for many years, and still faces the camera and says that he doesn't understand Alex, he doesn't understand him.
And at the most important moment, his girlfriend can only choose to drive away from him to ensure that he can climb the mountain without distractions. When asked whether he needed happiness or mountaineering, he chose mountaineering without hesitation.
His mother was in the middle of her son's life and death, ignorant that Alex never told his mother before a single hike.
Every time a close relationship broke down, Alex chose to go for a free climb, the kind of climb beyond life and death, allowing him to regain his still strong essence.
He seems to be preparing for this world that he can leave at any moment, keeping his distance from all relationships.
Let's take a step back and examine such a reclusive hero. Go back to childhood and recall how Alex got this far.
He had a very silent and introverted father who hardly talked to him, and a stern and harsh mother who never agreed with him. His parents never showed affection and never hugged. Alex grew up in this family extremely shy, but very bold. His shyness is that he can't face relationships with people, and he has a hard time dealing with distances. Everything shown in the documentary shows that he is an avoidant attachment personality who has been avoiding true intimacy throughout his life. His boldness is because he has no relationship support, he is fearless, and all his decisions and confidence come from his narcissism. He is in a monadic relationship through and through.
Watching the interview with Alex, he said: He first started free climbing because he was too shy to find a climbing partner.
Only when climbing he did not have to face complex relationships and unrecognized loneliness, and gradually he began to use climbing to communicate with the world to gain his survival and identity.
You see, he didn't want to be a lone great hero in the first place. He just wanted to escape these complicated relationships at first.
It is said that people who play extreme sports have a different heart rate than most people. Most racers, rock climbers, skiers, etc., have a higher heart rate than ordinary people. That is to say, they are less likely to feel their heartbeats than ordinary people, and it is difficult for ordinary people's heartbeats to exist in them. After all, what better feeling in a heartbeat than a life on the line?
Many people will criticize Alex's girlfriend after watching the documentary. In my opinion, on the contrary, she may be the only opportunity for him to return to a normal life. A normal and stable relationship plays an important role in the treatment of Alex's personality disorder and is a bridge that can lead him back to the mortal world. However, Alex is obviously more willing to climb the rock wall between the mountains and become his own lonely god.
The film also appropriately shows the discussion between mediocrity and hero. Do you want to be a lonely god whose life is hanging by a thread but is very powerful in your heart, or do you want to be a happy mediocre with weakness and happiness. people. You are pursuing the highest point in your life that you can reach with ups and downs, and you are also pursuing a stable and high level of life in your life.
In this situation, most women will sacrifice their chances to become happy mediocrities, while most men will abandon happiness because of ambition and narcissism and become gods in their own minds. I've seen a lot of people who travel alone, and I've seen a lot of extreme players, most of whom have difficulty building long-term intimacy, and the breakdown of the relationship accelerates their pursuit of extremes, almost in an endless loop.
The same goes for Alex, just a choice for all of us, not as extreme as Alex, who is all-or-nothing. So the shadow cast by the loneliness in the face will be heavier.
The narcissism that forced him to succeed after he was in a desperate situation made him feel that he was an omnipotent god. That feeling was indeed fascinated, but it also made him far away from the mundane life. Facing the magnificence and gigantic nature of El Capitan, the insignificance of human beings does not seem to be worth mentioning after the camera is opened. Yes, he is really great. He sacrificed his own happiness and the possibility of peace to write again for the limits of human history. A splendid scene.
We are human beings who do not desire to leave something behind.
But if you had a friend or relative who could be Alex, would you?
No, I don't want to, I want him to not have to face that mountain pass in the first place, I want him to get a loving embrace right from the start.
The highest mountain, whoever loves it, climbs it.
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