I pamper myself

Alvina 2022-11-18 09:00:40

I used to think, what’s the point of traveling, what’s the point of reading books and watching movies, what’s the point of taking pictures, and what’s the point of taking these classes, (except for the meaning of falling in love, which I’ve always been sure of), if I can’t output, what’s the point of these inputs? The meaning, to put it more bluntly, is that if the time and money you spend are not immediately rewarded, and if you can't get the recognition and attention of others, why do you do it?

Probably after thinking about the postgraduate entrance examination, I thought about it countless times if I didn't pass the entrance examination, it would be very embarrassing, the job is not easy to find, and maybe I will live like a loser.

However, I am very unhappy now, why do I live, why do I do what I like, and why make life meaningful, isn't it just to be happy? The definition of loser should be based on the premise of comparing with certain templates, and these templates are either from the people around them, or they are universal definitions of success or 'good life'. But ah, to define success, in addition to money and disposable time, there are diseases, interests, social circles, family, work, personality, etc., it is so complicated, it is difficult to compare. And everyone has a bunch of bad things behind them, who has the spare time to pay attention to you for the rest of their lives. It's better to take care of yourself, do what you want to do and do what you can do right now. Life will not get better, it will have its ups and downs, and emotions will be the same, but don’t be numb and escape, feel bravely, and choose to take on the solution. No matter what, being happy + speaking with conscience + not breaking the law + living if you can live is the only criterion.

Come on, this hurdle will pass.

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  • Brad Sloan: [narrating] Her friend, Maya was equally captivating, equally compelling. I suddenly felt a deep grief... for all the women I would never love and all the lives I would never live. I imaging running away with them both and starting again and what that might look like.

  • Troy Sloan: When we were walking around today and you embarrassing me, I kept thinking, like, you know, if I go to this school, everybody here's gonna remember this and I'm never gonna live this down. But... you know, they're not gonna remember. Because, everybody's just thinking about themselves. You know? Nobody cares. Like, the only person that's thinking about you, is me, so... the only person's opinion that you should really care about is mine.

    Brad Sloan: Yeah. What's your opinion?

    Troy Sloan: Well, I love you.

    Brad Sloan: Thank you.