How lucky are we to be born in a beautiful and broken world
You knew a long time ago that God's creation of man is not always fair. For example, people cannot choose their gender, and some people are born different from others. You also understand that the world can be a lot harder for some people to survive than for the average person, especially when the psychological gender does not match the biological gender.
In this world, there is an unwritten rule that must be strictly followed by men, women and children, that is, a man is born a man, a woman is born a woman, a man cannot become a woman, and a woman cannot become a man of. This is the so-called "truth" that cannot be questioned through the ages. And this stereotyped gender image has never been suspected or felt abnormal since ancient times.
You may not know this. When you were a little boy, you felt that you were different from others. You were afraid to go to the toilet with the same sex, and you were afraid to take a bath with them. Even when you were playing, you couldn’t let go. open. You always feel like you should be a girl and be with girls. So you are always alone, with no friends around you and no one who understands you.
According to this kind of plot logic, you may have a miserable life or choose to commit suicide. The kind that has been staged countless times in countless dog blood stories. Earning tears is easy, but it also feels cheap. But that's not your life, after all, it's not a tragic story.
You are unfortunate, but you are also lucky. When God closes a door for you, he will surely open a window for you. You were born in a warm family with a loving father and a stubborn younger brother. Although you are a single parent family, you both love each other very much. What's more, Dad knew from a long time ago that you were different. Unlike other parents, he was very open-minded, very accepting of you, and worked hard to help you right the wrongs God made. Like Dad said, you're lucky enough to go to one of the best ballet schools in the country and have such a good doctor doing sex reassignment surgery for you.
So in the camera, we are fortunate to see you today, you who are like flowers in the Mood for Love. You've been practicing ballet, dancing day and night, and it seems like that's your love and your future. In the sun-drenched hall, you dance to the music, sometimes Tchaikovsky and then Chopin. Even if you stand with so many young and invincible beautiful girls, you are always the one with the most moving smile.
The teacher's favorite student is undoubtedly you. Although you started late, you are most willing to work hard. Even after school, you still stay in the dance classroom alone, and let the teacher continue to give you supplementary lessons to learn ballet. Over and over again, jumping wrong and doing it again, until the blood on your feet continues, the teacher hugs you distressedly and says, "Don't be too harsh on yourself, take a rest."
You love ballet and see it as life. It's almost to the point of "no madness, no life". Maybe subconsciously, you think that you will be like an ugly duckling and one day become a holy and beautiful white swan, right? Or just like the princess who was enchanted by the devil in "Swan Lake", only on the night of the full moon can she transform into her original face and meet the true love of her life when she dances gracefully? As long as you persist and don't give up, you can become a butterfly just around the corner.
Elegant dance steps carry the wish of transformation, that is your youth.
You are so beautiful and so good, everyone takes it for granted that you should have a boyfriend, like everyone else, have the most memorable relationship at the best age. Even the doctor who performed the operation for you advised you, "Don't wrong yourself, you can enjoy the love you have now, and you won't be alone in the future, waiting for the long-term bus at the station." But you are so self-respecting as a perfectionist, you are firm Answer, "I don't want to get involved in love until you switch genders." You want to save your best self to the best person. In fact, you have someone you like in your heart. The handsome boy who occasionally met in the elevator, he hinted to you, and you know it, but you still choose to be reserved. Those are sweet thoughts that are unique to young girls, and they cannot be easily said. They are only suitable for release at midnight.
It's been a long time since you came to this new school. You are an introvert, but you have no friends. The girls are unbridled and crazy, but you are polite and alone, as if you are someone from another world. Standing with so many classmates, you are just looking good. Gradually, you were isolated by everyone, and there were even some rumors about you. Some people said that you were actually a man disguised as a woman, and you had no intention of taking a bath with a girl.
I thought these rumors would pass naturally without heeding it. But the girls still find you and tease you maliciously over and over again. For example, at a female classmate's birthday party, she forced you to reveal your private parts in public and questioned whether you chose to be a boy or a girl. You were at a loss, so you had to do what they wanted, and all you got was endless contempt and ridicule. It is always difficult for a group of people to understand a person's situation. In this world, there is too little kindness to empathize with.
Maybe after that incident, you no longer believe that there is understanding and kindness in the crowd, coupled with the sensitivity and stubbornness of adolescence, you become self-defeating overnight, not only making frequent mistakes in dancing, but also eating casually. , do not love their own body. The consequence of not following a doctor's order is an indefinite postponement of gender reassignment surgery. And the accidental fainting before the end of the dance class will make you lose the opportunity to perform on stage.
As a result, you can only look at the girls in the spotlight who are not as hardworking as you, and weep secretly in the crowd offstage. Before waiting for the perfect bloom, he fell off the stage of life; before the moment of amazing transformation, he was reduced to a cocooned joke amid many malice. It was also in that darkest moment that you grew up overnight when you were young. But no matter what setbacks and obstacles you encounter, you are destined to complete a transformation, sooner or later, it's just a matter of time. Otherwise, the grievances and grievances you have suffered from the blood you have suffered before, all the efforts and accumulations you have made, will be meaningless. As a person who knows your future destiny and is unswerving in the transformation of your life, you have always had this awakening and determination.
When the elegance of the soles of the feet is not enough to withstand the gravity of the world, then fulfill yourself and let your life go. In a resolute way of self-mutilation, you have personally helped yourself to complete the gender transition, and you have personally corrected God's mistakes. Those who love you shed tears of love, and those who hurt you can shut up too.
In the end, you were successfully discharged from the hospital and completed a difficult transformation. You walked on the road with a new look, your long hair fluttered in the wind, and you smiled so comfortably, as if the whole world had fallen in love with you. This is the end of the movie for you, but I don't think it's over yet. Because not far ahead, you will gain more love and respect. Those you have lost will be repaid to you in another way; those who have hurt you will eventually realize your shallowness and ignorance; those you have been looking forward to for a long time will surely meet you at a certain intersection. meet.
As the saying goes, "It's all God's good intentions." I'm sure of that.
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