"I couldn't bear the inferiority and fear of my brother. In order to protect myself, I regarded these as my brother's. Longing"
"I'm very afraid of you, I don't know what you will do once the pressure is too high, how dare I quarrel with you"
"Because I can't resist my brother's ability at all, so I have been careful and try not to Let the older brother build up the pressure"
"It seems like a humiliating past"
I have a younger brother who is seven years younger than me.
When I was young, I often did wrong things, and my mother's education was basically made up of strong means. Although I never hit me for no reason, it was inevitable that I would be beaten if I did something wrong. I never hated my mother, so I thought it was right to be beaten if I did something wrong, so in my cognition, hitting and scolding you was for your own good, and it was deeply imprinted in my mind.
My mother was very busy. After my brother was born, she basically had no time to take care of him, so my brother was brought up by me. He was very cute when he was young, but when he was four years old, he began to have his own ideas and no longer I am obedient to me and will refute me. I am also very proud. Like my mother, I educate my younger brother with an absolutely tough attitude and position. As long as I do something wrong, I will show justice and teach my younger brother. , there is no shortage of scolding, if my brother does not approve of my education, I will be like my mother, and I will carry out the education of fist and foot. So my younger brother was afraid of me and admired me very much. In my childhood, I always took pride in my younger brother listening to my own words. He looks forward to me very much, because I play games very well and study well. I can do a lot of things that he can't do. He often follows me behind my ass. He does whatever I do, looks at me, imitates me, and learns Me, I'm content with that. But when I gradually had my own friends, I began to be more willing to play with my friends. After I was no longer willing to play with my brother, the excitement of my brother clinging to me gradually became a burden. When my mother criticized me for playing with the computer, it would cause my brother to suffer. When I kept looking at him and affected his eyes, the pleasure of my brother clinging to me gradually turned into annoyance. I started to beat and scold him from time to time. He did nothing wrong, and I was just young, no I am sensible, but the fact is that I often hurt my brother, both mentally and physically.
Sometimes my mother wrongs me because she is too busy and under a lot of pressure. Sometimes I can understand her impatience. She is really good for me, but she doesn't know how to educate her children. I think that's right and learn from her. When my mother is wronged and scolded and beaten, if my brother does something that makes me uncomfortable, I always find it hard to restrain myself, venting to my brother because of trivial things , at first he was scared, and he often secretly complained to his mother. But when I found out, what awaited him was a vicious circle, and I fought back angrily. Of course, I love my brother very much, but I have been using my own methods, selfish love, for self-satisfaction. Slowly, my younger brother became more and more obedient to me and no longer had any resistance. He was seven years old at that time. I never wanted to bully him on purpose, but I always got along with him from an absolutely strong standpoint. Although I would play around, I would compromise, but when I was in a bad mood, when I was scolded by my mother, I treated my brother It is a fact that he is habitually angry, sometimes bullying him and sometimes loving him as a strong man. It now appears that he was following my word, probably just not wanting to irritate me because I was so emotional.
In the next few years, until he grew up and gradually entered adolescence, my younger brother always behaved to me as he did when he was a child, admiring, respecting and disobeying his parents, but he was obedient to me. My parents also had high expectations for me, but when I was in junior high school, I started to learn badly. Gradually, my parents cared more and more about my younger brother, until I left home and came back after two years of messing around outside. . He has grown up.
"During this period, my mother gave birth to my little brother. The younger brother was very good to him. He would never scold him. He would teach him patiently. He would never be violent to the little brother. Will let the little brother. He is a very good brother. And I am by no means a bad brother, it's just that we are completely different."
When I came home for
the first time, my brother became almost as tall as me, and I could feel it. to a strangeness.
For the first time, I felt that my brother looked at me strangely. He became excellent, with excellent grades. Before the grade exam, my parents had high expectations for him. Because my disappointment disappointed my parents, I got the Expectations get bigger. When I was educating my younger brother very much as before, my younger brother no longer obeyed, he started to resist, sometimes, I could see contempt in his eyes, when I did nothing and lived at home When I went out to play with my Hu Peng Gou friends, I could feel contempt in his eyes instead of admiration and admiration. For such a contrast and the anger that the fact that I was incompetent brought me, I scolded him again. When he was not convinced, I beat him until he was convinced. My younger brother never fights back. Even though he grows up, but I am strong, he is still no match for me. If he fights with me, he will be beaten badly. He just cried, and he didn't cry like he was a child, sad. but angry tears. After a few lessons, he no longer defied me blatantly, but gradually alienated me and liked to play by himself. He doesn't want to pay attention to me, but he doesn't show that he hates me so much. It's just that occasionally I can feel his deep disgust for me. Before I could, I didn't take it seriously. I always felt that my brother was just growing up, puberty, and the other way around.
When I have experienced a series of failures, after growing up, until I succeed in my career, I am no longer a person without it. My younger brother's attitude towards me has changed a bit. There is no more contempt in his eyes. It's just that my younger brother is also very big. We communicate less and less, but when we are together, we are still very happy. And I sometimes order him as it should be, and he never compromises. When I want to blame him, I will find that I am wrong, I am too selfish, and I also slowly recall my childhood Although what he did was unintentional, I felt that I was sorry for him, so I began to slowly yield to my younger brother, no longer being polite to him as it should have been.
Only then did I realize that since childhood, he has been letting his brother in. And I take it for granted, and it makes me feel very distressed.
Now that my brother has gone to the United States, we still often play games together, but apart from games and some interests, I can't find a common language with him. In fact, I have long discovered that I don't know him at all. My younger brother is a very profound child. He has made choices since he was a child. His logic is very strong, and he is a rational person. It's just that I didn't fully understand him until now, until today I watched the eighth episode of Psionic Hundred and saw what Lil said to passers-by;
"I used to look forward to superpowers, and I also looked forward Brother, but that's a big misunderstanding."
"I can't stand the inferiority complex and fear I have for my brother. In order to protect myself, I take these as my vision for my brother"
"I'm very afraid of you, I don't know that once the pressure is on If you are too big, what will you do? How dare I quarrel with you?"
"Because I can't resist my brother's ability at all, so I have been careful and try not to let my brother accumulate pressure"
"It seems like a humiliation now. past"
I got it all.
Of course my brother and I were not exactly the same, but when I brought these words into my memories, I understood them all.
My brother's tolerance and longing suddenly stopped admiring me, but turned into disgust. I got it all.
It's not because I've become useless, or how perfect I am.
Just because he doesn't need to fear me anymore.
I still have a better relationship with my brother now, but I admire him more and more.
He has been under such great pressure since he was four years old, maybe it is not so bloody, he does not need to live carefully.
But the fact that he has lived carefully in my shadow since he was a child, maybe I'm not really that bad, but at least he must have had the experience of enduring humiliation.
I am the type of person that my younger brother hates the most, but I am his elder brother, blood is unchangeable, and he does not alienate me.
But whether I am still hated by my younger brother, I don't know, whether he hates me, I don't know either.
I only know that he doesn't need to be afraid of me anymore, but he still keeps in touch with me, joking, whether to forgive me or not, I don't know, but I know that he didn't forgive me, he is all mine Good brother, and I am equally sorry for him.
I am no longer the same as before, and he is no longer the weak he used to be.
Although I am strong on the outside, I am fragile on the inside.
Although he is fragile on the outside, he is strong on the inside.
This is me and my brother.
In the end, what I want to express is that Psionic Hundred is really good-looking, no less than One Punch Man. From the perspective of plot and production so far, this anime is extremely complete. 9 points of praise
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