Original post: http://tieba.baidu.com/p/1797449208
I just finished watching the monster yesterday, and I said that I have a lot to say, but it is difficult to express it systematically. After deliberating for a long time, I still want to talk about the protagonist.
First of all, I personally have nothing to like or dislike about the main character. It may be because the things that the characters encounter are so far away from the plot around me that it is difficult for me to project intense emotions to them except for understanding and not understanding.
Tianma and John, I suddenly realized in the later period that the two exist symmetrically. There are four people who can see the doomsday scene in the play: the general who saved John, the vampire of Bavaria, Pegasus, and John. What they have in common is loneliness. Their social ties have all been severed for some reason, and this isolated nature makes them feel attached to each other (I spit the word...) but there is a difference. The first two were cut off by Johnson, and the latter two were voluntarily abandoned.
Maybe you said that Tianma didn't give up voluntarily, so let's start with Tianma's only childhood memory (the night before shooting John). Tianma played with everyone when he was a child, but because he was too dedicated to hide and seek, he was left alone in the woods. Hide-and-seek itself is a metaphor for relationships. Children play hide and seek when they are 3 or 4 years old, psychologically speaking, it is to gradually overcome the psychological dependence on their parents and the psychological anxiety of loneliness. The three steps of "separation", "searching" and "reunion" are repeating the emotional and social situations that life must constantly face. What about Tianma? His inability to "reunite" is his unspoken secret. Everyone sees that Tianma is a good person, but there is a point in psychology that when you give others a kindness that others cannot reciprocate, you are alienating others. Pegasus is like that. His concern for his patients and all the people he encounters cannot be reciprocated by others, and the key is that he also refuses repayment from others. This kind of person can be seen at a glance, but after getting along for a long time, it will make friends feel very depressed. The Pegasus in the play is not much better. His friends were all acquainted or recovered during his escape, and in the environment where he had been working, he did not seem to have and never yearned for friendship. From here, I can even make a bold guess: He made a decision to save John against the will of the dean, and a big reason is that the dean hinted that he would marry his daughter... Our madman is afraid of marriage... …
As Pegasus forced himself to get used to a life of flight, he slowly discovered that he didn't hate it. Saying goodbye to the newly established friendship again and again during the escape corresponds to the "separation" in hide-and-seek, and this separation, like hide-and-seek when he was a child, not only does not disgust Tianma, but makes him addicted with confusion. That's why Tenma dreams of a game of hide-and-seek the night he's about to shoot John.
"Is it really going to end this game? Is the chapter that never reunites something that makes me happy or sad?"
He couldn't stop. Because he really likes this kind of escape, and this is what John gave him, or cultivated him.
John knew it was a game, and they both enjoyed it. John gambled his life on Pegasus to be just like him.
So Tianma finally understood. He is lonely, and is actively chasing loneliness. He is the same as John. They all chase the darkness, long for the light but fear the light. So even if the charges against him are lifted, even with Dieter and Ana who have been expecting him home, and a steady chance, he can't go back. He didn't want to go back either. Anything that saves lives, MSF, is an excuse. His inability and unwillingness to establish a normal long-term relationship with this society is the reason.
Another argument is that Tenma never went back to watch it after he left Japan. How can a person who is so kind that he has the heart to hurt anyone, how could he have the heart to let his parents grow old alone in his hometown? Because, because, the desire to cut off social contact exceeds this kind of compassion. Tianma can only accept that he is good to others, but he cannot accept that others are good to him, so I am afraid that even the kindness of his parents' breeding and cultivation is unwilling to face it because he feels that it is difficult to repay. Every time Tianma becomes hysterical or weeps bitterly, it is because he owes someone else's kindness. Regarding the tragic experience of Anna and John, in the later days of Tianma (that is, after seeing his own nature), he did not say tears, and was not even a bit surprised.
The old vampire of Bavaria was specially mentioned in the last episode: I really want to see Dr. Pegasus when I have time. I thought it was funny at first, you said that an old man wants to see a brain surgeon so much, do you want to have a problem with your own brain? But in the end, I understood that this old man expressed a kind of puzzlement in disguise: if John's destruction caused the doctor's social relations to be completely cut off, then why did the doctor not return to this place after John stopped working? What about social relations? Thinking about it, it is really incredible. Tianma saved the life of the richest man, and the richest man hired a lawyer with a high salary. On the surface, the two seem to cherish each other, but in the end they never communicated with each other again. Was it that Tenma was afraid that he could see his own heart?
In the process of exploring John's past, Dr. Tianma is also exploring the deepest darkness in his heart. Just like the beginning of the film, he is isolated from the crowd to search, and finally finds that he and John are in the same place.
The symmetry between Tianma and John is manifested in many places: John focuses on killing people and digging out the dark secrets in other people's hearts to transfer the pain of loneliness; Tianma focuses on saving and digging out the bright spots in others' hearts to transfer the pain of being unable to integrate into the society; John Both Tianma and Tianma longed for others to enter their world. They wanted to death, they wanted to go crazy, but they were arrogant and disdain to ask for it. Both of them play with social rules, one is to save people and the other is to kill people, but in fact, both of them have similar despair to human society, the kind of perfectionism that must find the meaning of existence or be destroyed. personality. I feel that Tianma's obsessive-compulsive disorder has a stronger and more distorted meaning. I personally think that this is actually not a reflection of a character like Tianma, but a kind of personality projection on post-war Japan - convicted by the international community, trying to integrate but unable to integrate , who seems to be integrated but is actually self-isolating, who seems to be always afraid of cowards (the country is too small and has a strong sense of crisis), but in order to accomplish what he must do, he can shoot and kill with ruthlessness and calmness. As for the world that disappoints me like this, I try to use the kindest and gentlest to atone for the most desperate and coldest sin in my heart.
In the end, John's escape was a relief to Pegasus. Why did Tianma have to find John's mother and ask the matter clearly? In the end, is John's persecution really an illusion? I think in the end, Pegasus has become John, and John has become Pegasus. John is not stupid! Waking up means being sentenced! So he just waited for the doctor to come and give him the answer and then left. Why doesn't the doctor know what John's plan is? Give him an answer and let him go. They tacitly pursued the last question about their own life-in the end, in front of the doctor, John no longer needed to cover up with a calm and gentle face, because...
the two of them were real soul mates. Like (in Japanese mind) Japan and Germany. Despair comes from too deep longing and hope. You can understand my joys and sorrows, and this little warmth of life arises here.
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