One day I was 38 years old

Aletha 2022-02-04 08:15:34

One summer when I was 7 years old, I sat in the back seat of my dad's car and went to my grandparents' house 7 miles away. I asked him: "Dad, why did you take the small road to go back to grandma's house today?"
"What kind of small road, isn't it all this way?"
"No, sometimes we take the big road, there are big poplar trees on the side of the road, and sometimes we take the road. There are watermelon fields along the road, but there are no big poplar trees."
"What? Big poplar trees and watermelon fields, aren't they all on this road? There is no such thing as a small road at all!"
A mysterious thing was revealed Now, I have been walking for 7 years with two different styles of homecoming, which I came up with in different moods!

After dinner today, I was going to watch a movie, but the DVD player didn't work. Brother Fa Cai suggested watching a documentary, and I said to him, "My mood is for watching a movie, not a documentary."
He then showed that "crazy woman is here" look, and I knew that the 7-year-old I was back. . There are always things in this world that are hard to explain to others. I had to ignore my uncertain mood and watch a documentary with him.


It's a documentary called "Into the Abyss", directed by Herzog, a friend of mine who studied documentary at NYU, like I recommended him, Wikipedia says , Herzog is considered the greatest contemporary director.

The film is about a murder case in Texas, where the principal was sentenced to death. Herzog himself took a camera and went to the prison to interview Mike, a young inmate who was about to be executed, and his accomplice Jason. Then he followed the police to the scene, and found the family members of the victims and criminals, and asked them to tell their own stories.

The real life of the people involved in the homicide may be more surreal than the homicide itself, which I never imagined. Death row inmate Mike doesn't seem to have a grudge or a lunatic, he's just a little weird. With eight days to go, he looked too relaxed, even a little happy. He was handcuffed and sent to the reception room. He stretched out his hand from the door of the reception room and asked the police to remove the handcuffs. He vigorously wiped the glass window with a tissue. He stared at the camera, eager to be interviewed. He was so excited that he had no guilt at all for his crime, nor did he avoid the fact that he was going to die. How would he deal with this cruel thing? Just don't want it.

The camera returns to the murder scene, a quiet and beautiful house in a middle-class noble residential area. The two principals took a fancy to the hostess' sports car. They knocked on the door, pretended to borrow the phone, and then went back from the garage to the house, which wasn't locked at all. They shot her straight out and dumped the body in the lake. When they came back, they planned to pick up the car, but because they didn’t have the password, they couldn’t enter the community, so they waited until the hostess’s son came back, pretended to ask for help, tricked the two young people to the lake, got the password, and killed them with guns. Police arrested two people after a shootout four days later.

The film invited a lot of people to speak. The policeman in charge of solving the case calmly and depressingly described the injuries that the victim's relatives could not heal. Regarding the death penalty, people including the family members of the victims have spoken of their confusion about whether the death penalty can solve the problem. Tormented by guilt, prison guards who executed executions eventually gave up their pensions and quit their jobs.

The two young men who killed and the two young men who were murdered were very good-looking. One of the prisoners, Jason, got married in prison with a girl who had never met but was just chatting on the phone. Jason's father, who was also a prisoner, was sentenced to 40 years in a prison across from the prison where he was serving his sentence. Jason's father appeared in court during the trial. He regretted not giving his son a healthy family since he was a child. His tears moved the jury and left Jason's life. He was sentenced to 40 years. On Thanksgiving, he had a meal with his father, and his younger brother, who was also in prison.

Seeing this, I have already begun to sigh, what kind of family is this! A man who was in prison all his life gave birth to a child who never had a father, and then his child followed in his footsteps and went to prison for the rest of his life. And got married in prison, ready to continue to have a bunch of children.

Jason's wife, who only met Jason after his imprisonment, the film does not explain the specific process of understanding. It's just that the wife is excited to tell the story of their love, and they only shake hands through the window of the prison reception room before they get married. After they got married, they met and hugged once, without a ring. Jason's wife found out that she was pregnant a week after getting married. She responded to the director's question with a smile, saying that it would be better to keep it a mystery.

At this point, I have completely forgotten that this is a documentary, and its surreal feeling completely fascinated me. This seemingly totally hands-off record is better than all the documentaries I've ever seen about death row inmates. Perhaps a good documentary is to restore the most bizarre and dramatic parts of life.

From the mood of watching a movie, I forced myself to watch a documentary, but I saw a stronger magic realism than the movie. The day I turned 38.

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Into the Abyss quotes

  • Fred Allen: Hold still and watch the birds. Once you get up into your life like that, and once you feel good about your life, you do start watching what the birds do. What the doves are doing. Like the hummingbirds. Why are there so many of them.