I just have to leave

Alex 2022-12-27 21:28:00

"I tell you with melancholy, / but full of tenderness,-- / of the sleeping geese, / and a goose is watching."
In the not yet known "Fellini" "Before, Fellini was a "slut." Even after he became famous, he was still a hopeless "Limini idiot in Rimini" in the eyes of the young people. Because many years ago, in Fellini's hometown of Rimini, they shared a time of confusion.
This is a story about "leaving". I suddenly thought of writing a review of this movie, and I felt more and more that I was leaving Weihai. Expectation and reluctance are mixed, like the bitter and sharp seawater in the mouth, I want to spit it out, but I can't get rid of the embarrassing taste that remains. Like Fellini's Rimini, Weihai is an inconspicuous town on the east coast of the country. It also has a long coast, idle young people, and humble but persistent dreamers. Like these swingers, we stopped by the sea at high tide, as if something was escaping along the ridge of the wave swiftly. We just stand pointlessly on the beach and watch them go further and further away. I too, like Morad in the film, shuffled around at night, sitting on a bench worrying about my future empty-handed. "What if I leave too?"
you would say - that's just leaving, not not being able to come back.
But always have to face the unavoidable right and wrong, and everything will be fermented by time after I leave. Some turned into wine, some turned into vinegar, and some were directly broken or lost in some corner. The swingers barked wildly, sang side by side on the street, and jumped from the trestle to the beach, where the footprints were confused and vain. At the Carnival in Rimini, the swingers danced wildly, holding puppets and playing hoarse trumpets, as if there was no tomorrow. Tomorrow will come at last, the carnival is only one day a year, and tomorrow at dawn, someone will leave again. They just want to prolong the temporary and undecided state that they are used to, in order to gain more time to think about what they want to do in the future, and they are afraid of losing the once simple happy time after they really make up their minds. The decision time is pushed back, pushed back.
Swingers don't want to grow up, but they're past the age of children. In the eyes of those around them, they are out of place weirdos. The bell rang and the game was over, but these obsessed stubborn masters stubbornly didn't want to go away. Because of this, I also delayed my departure: I went to graduate school because I heard that there are no libraries in most companies, and I don’t know where to hide; I stepped out of the school gate because I was afraid that the guests would be full of dust, the noise would be loud, and the aircraft would be entangled. The heart is troubled by the sophistication, and has no quiet time of its own. I also know that this life loses a lot. "Those who went to live wrong, just lost it themselves, and passed it down like a sealed letter, not knowing its content."
Really should leave. As Borado said in the film, "There will never be anything in this town, its nights are so dark and winters are so cold. How can an artist satisfy his spirit? How can he live in peace In? Time passed, he woke up one morning and - yesterday you were a child, now you are no longer young - that's all over and in two months I'll go to Milan, Genoa, anywhere Place..."
Yeah, go anywhere. Like Morad, on a precipitous morning, the town left here decisively while it was still sleeping.

Since it's a so-called film review, you can't always talk about yourself, talk about this movie and Fellini in those years.
Someone remembers him saying "dream is the only reality", that's for later. Before "The Swinger", Fellini had not yet been liberated from Rossellini's generous wings. He knew that he lived in a fantasy world, and he "liked this state and hated anything that interfered with my imagination"—— But if it's the Rossellini and neorealism he reveres that interferes with his fantasies, the emotional Fellini has to be caught off guard.
In the Mussolini era, the thrilling experience of escaping from death in Libya during World War II made him leave the desk where he wrote the script and walked to the street, and also made him meet Rossellini. He was involved in the production of "Rome, the Undefended City," and he was seen as the new star of neorealism -- too bad, even Fellini himself -- and he reined in his dreams and fantasies , plunge into reality. Riding on Rossellini's fame, he was nominated for two Oscars, and the small success made him even think it was a movie.
He doesn't belong here. He's a prince in a fantasy world, and he's stuck here, only temporarily lost - but after all, to find the right direction and return to the wilderness where he can freely explore, one has to go a lot longer.
Fellini also said, "I believe that I'm going to make a movie because I can't do anything else, and I feel that things take shape in a natural, spontaneous way that contributes to this inevitability." Picked up the guide tube, but his debut "Acrobatic Light" was a complete failure. He was in debt for more than ten years for this, the production company went bankrupt, and the critics were also scolded. The second film, The White Chief, was still not well received by critics, who derided him for "having no cinematic ability". ——That’s right, Fellini, who was in our impression of running freely in a dream, also had such a hard time on the road. It was at this difficult moment that he made this movie - "The Swinger". He finally stopped clinging to neorealism, and stopped worrying about the status quo of society and people's conditions. Those ghosts of memories that have long been archived and appeased were released. Whenever he was disappointed, these ghosts came up through the layers of sea waves. They came from the sad and sweet place name - Rimini. Fellini accepted their attack sincerely: "These innocent ghosts will silently ask me embarrassing silent questions, which I cannot answer with somersaults and lies. No deception."
Fellini said more than once that he could not see Rimini as an object, Rimini was a part of the world in his tangled memory. He birthed a film out of his own body to receive the harsh eyes of the audience. "No one was going to release 'The Swinger'. We were desperately going around begging for a place to stay. I remember a few horrific test films where the attendees looked at me contemptuously after the test and then took the The grief of the flooding of the Po River plain shakes hands with producer Peguera."
But in the end it was the first film that made him successful, and Swingers was a turning point in Fellini's career. "The fact that Swinger won the Silver Lion in Venice has kept my filmmaking career going. After the setbacks of Acrobatic Light and The White Chief, if Swinger also fails, I believe me The director's dream is about to wake up. At that time, I will have to go back to writing scripts for others. The number of films I make will probably stay at two and one-half films. Maybe someday others will still be Give me one more chance, maybe not." ——After this film, Fellini shot "The Great Road", "Night of Cabiria", "Sweet Life" one after another, one by one. Succeeded, and from then on we had a "Fellini-style film".

Every creator will have a hurdle in his heart, and he can't get over it - just like Mr. Ozu can't get past Naruse's "Floating Cloud", and Mr. Truffaut can't get past Renoir's "Rules of the Game". Fellini, a painful hatch product, is in front of all those who come after. Scorsese said that "The Swingers" influenced his "Mean Streets" and all the films that followed, and that his Fellini started with "The Swingers" and ended with "Eight and a Half."
Sergio Leone had written a script similar to "The Swingers" in his early years, but after watching Fellini's "The Swingers," he burned his own script without hesitation. He didn't think he could make such a movie, and for Fellini, he didn't dare to take the risk. What we do know is that Leone later remade Akira Kurosawa's "The Stick of the Heart", because he believed that movies like "The Stick of the Heart" were not unsurpassable, and Leone's remake version was the famous "Red Dead Redemption".

Fellini's sluts live everywhere in the world. In Shanxi they are called Xiaowu, in Taiwan they are called Fengguiren, in Beijing they are called Mahou, in Japan they are called Xinzhi, in New York they are called Johnny Boy . They wandered around all day, doing nothing, but they were finally destined to leave this familiar place. They don't hate the small town they live in, but they're going to get out after all.
We are also Fellini's swingers - Weihai's swingers. The waves of Rimini may have swept across the seashore of Weihai, and the sea breeze may have brought the breath of Fellini's hometown. Next year, we swingers will have to get out of here. We've spent six wonderful years here, and I can't find anywhere else freer or cleaner than here in my memory.
When I'm on the departing train, if a little railroad worker comes up and asks me like in the movie, "Are you really going to leave? Don't you like this place?"
I can only tell him--"I You just have to leave."

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