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The humiliated Mary disappeared, and the mother said to Zack, "Mary is gone, she will never come back." Mary's father died of a serious illness, and the priest offered his last prayers for him: "You must forgive all People." Disappearance and death take everything away, but when people disappear, there are still others looking for them, and when people die, there are rituals, but what about a donkey? It was unchained, it was camel-backed with smuggled perfume, socks and gold coins, it crossed hillsides in the dark, it was shot at the border, and when Glad and his companions finally escaped in the sound of gunfire, the dark There was only a donkey on the hillside, only a substance that did not belong to it, only a pair of eyes flashing with horror, only the pain of being shot in the body by a bullet.
But it has never shouted for a lifetime, and never speaks. It is a silent and speechless person. Even in pain and helplessness, it can only see the sheep around it, hear the beautiful bells, and do not speak. The donkey slowly sat on the ground, slowly lay down, slowly closed its eyes, and slowly died - when it finally came to the end of its life, did it become peaceful and peaceful instead? Is there a sense of belonging in the absence of torture? When Glad tried to take the donkey, the woman who had lost her husband said to them, "It's my only one, and it's a saint." It was given meaning, had the beginning of personification, and even became a saint. Divine, and when it finally dies, the flock that surrounds it also seems to have completed a ritual, as in the world of shepherds, it has reached a certain redemptive meaning.
Defined as a saint, toward a redemptive death, the donkey has some kind of symbolic meaning, and it all seems to be back to the beginning, when the donkey was young, it was carefree, and children were stroked with soft hands It, gave it milk, and then named it "Bhatsa" - in the religious sense, it means baptized. After naming it, I did baptize it and give it "the salt of wisdom", so when it has a name, there is a ceremony With care, the donkey Batsa has a personality. The ritual of the beginning of life, in fact, has the same meaning for the children, Zack brought the donkey home, he and Mary named it, baptized it and played with it, and in their childhood life , A pure feeling was also cultivated, they sat on the swing together, played with Batsa, and engraved the names of the two on the bench, and a heart surrounded the two.
Although, in their carefree childhood, there are still people who are sick, and people who despise them, but a donkey and a heart-shaped pattern have become a testimony, or the joy of childhood has witnessed the saintly beginning of the donkey . But it all ended in Zack's departure. He got into the car and said goodbye to Mary, "See you next year." But there was no goodbye next year. In the "year after year" resume, everything passed. Year after year, it's actually an ill-fated note, in this repeated day, Zack and Mary slowly grew up, and the donkey was no longer the children's playmate, it really became a donkey: A donkey that pulls goods, a donkey that is whipped, and a donkey that exists as a tool: iron palms are nailed to the feet, and goods are placed on the body, and the meaning of life as a tool is fulfilled in the process of ploughing the fields and moving the goods.
What has happened year after year? The grinding of the years also seems to be speechless. For children, they lose their childhood, and for donkeys, it loses a kind of personality meaning of life. It was used to haul goods for the peasants, roped on its body, and dragged a cart full of various things along the road; it was chained by Glader and carried bread for each household; when it was tired, He was caught on the road by Arnold and made money for him; when he fled, he was seen by the circus owner again, making him "the greatest wise man" and letting him perform arithmetic and multiplication in front of the audience; when Arnold stumbled and died, It became a mortgaged estate and was sold to a miser who slapped it hard with his whip and threatened, "When it rains, I'll tell you to kill it." It was beaten, Driven, trafficked, tortured, but at least one master is still there, even if it suffers the injustice of fate, it just strips away its personality and divinity, and returns to the nature of a donkey, but when Grad makes it again The tools of smuggling, when the sound of gunfire finally scare them away, Batsa actually became an abandoned life, and a bullet finally ended its life, it seemed more like a relief, seeing the flock, What I heard was the bell, and it seemed that I had returned to my childhood, back to the pure time.
In fact, the donkey Batsa, as a kind of existence, has actually witnessed the greed, violence, and indifference of human beings. Those eyes are always filled with sadness and terror: it has seen Grad tie up the newspaper in order to let himself go on the road. on his own tail, and then lit the newspaper with a match, so he could only run in pain; it was used as Arnold's riding tool, and the people who rode on it were heard talking about sin, "Is a man's negligence a crime? To take responsibility?" It has seen Arnold, drunk and accidentally acquired an inheritance, fall from himself, a silent death when his head hits the ground; it has seen Mary run away crying after a night at the miser's place Returning home: It has seen people quarrel, heard women cry, received applause from people, and was beaten with whips. It does not speak, but it has endured and witnessed the suffering of the world.
The fate of Bassat's "year after year" is unfortunate, humble, and ill-fated. As a donkey, it has the spirit of human resistance, with heavy cargo on it, it is finally running fast Let the car overturn, then run away from them; on Arnold's way to make money, it sees Mary's father and leaves Arnold; when it becomes "the greatest wise man", it sees Arnold in the auditorium with a wine bottle Then he began to flee and began to disrupt the order... A struggle, a resistance, but often ineffective, because in front of it were chains, whips, ruthless hands, and the shackles of everything. But Batsa's fate has never belonged to the donkey. What it heard and saw, what it experienced and watched, actually confirmed a sample of human beings, and this sample was Mary.
Once a naive child, once a carefree girl, once his name was engraved on the bench, but after "year after year", my father's family fortune was gone, and he quit his job, "Nothing is ours anymore. ." Even the love with Zack has long been blurred, still sitting on the bench, Zack said: "I only love you alone." And Mary said: "I don't know whether I love you or not." Then get up and leave. Regarding family property and survival, the contradiction between the two families made their love meaningless, and after this silent love came, Mary embarked on a road of no return. Glad's hand once reached out to Mary's hand secretly, and once came around her shoulder, but Mary refused at that time, but when Glad and several young people surrounded Arnold, saying that he was a murderer, Mary ran away. Come over and call Glad a "coward" and slap him, and Glad slaps him twice, so the world that Mary built collapsed in violence, and that's when Mary began to give in, and she leaned against her. Grad's shoulders left the scene.
In the past, she had either escaped or resisted, but when her father fell, when her family property disappeared, when her dignity declined, she could only submit to violence, and even regarded this submission as a kind of love. After being slapped in the face, She was with Grad, the leather coat, the radio, the chain, all in the woods, and off-camera, they must be hugging each other; she followed Grad, danced with her, when the mother came Pulling her home, she told her mother that she was in love with him and would do whatever he asked her to do, but when she ran into the house and wanted Glad to help her, Glad ignored her and hugged her instead Another woman dances, and then Glad smashes all the bottles and mirrors, dominating the violent world.
She wanted to leave Glad, and on that rainy night she finally found the miser who bought Battha, the miser bakes her clothes, feeds her, and ends up giving her a lot of money, when Mary reaches out and takes the money in her hand When the miser's hand finally reached out to her, Mary asked him: "Do you have faith?" The miser said: "I believe in what I have, I love money, I hate death, and life is just a market. Mary finally returned all the money to him: "I just want a friend, a friend who helps me run away." Grad conquered her with violence, miser bought her with money, and even if Mary surrendered, she wanted to retain the last trace of dignity, But everything is not as she imagined, her father finally lost the last penny, and when she met Zack, what she told him was: "I don't love you anymore, commitment is just a game, not reality." Then got up from that bench and left Zack.
When they were young, they carved each other's names on the bench. When they grew up, she told him that she didn't know if she loved him but still leaned on him. When everything was lost, she finally said goodbye to him firmly and left the bench. But when a person faced the donkey Batsa, she said with tears: "I will love him." She could only tell herself like this, to prove the inextinguishable love in her heart, but she no longer had the courage to fulfill her promise. There was no chance to hug her lover, so during that trip to the cabin, she was raped by Grad and others. When father and Zack rushed away, they saw Mary naked in the corner through the glass window, she No longer resisting, she has been abused, she has lost her last dignity and, like Batsa, has been transformed from human to tool: a tool of trade, a tool of eroticism, and finally a victim, a sacrifice for society as a whole.
In the end, she disappeared. Mother said she would never come back. In fact, coming back is nothing more than another kind of depravity, another kind of injury, so disappearing is actually dying, dying with humiliation, dying with sacrifice, and dying with love die. The intertextual structure of fate has formed between Mary and Battha, but in fact, they are also in a kind of implied relationship in reality. For Mary, "year after year" is the loss of everything that exists. But also lost was Butsa, so when Butsa overturned a carload of weeds to the ground, she finally escaped the shackles, and she walked into the familiar place, where Zack once lived, The "House For Sale" sign was still there, and Batsa seemed to be looking for memory for protection, but at this time it finally saw Mary, who seemed to have found the feeling she had felt when she stroked it. Mary took care of Batsa, but Glad had to lead Batsa to deliver the goods. Mary had no choice but to let Batsa go nowhere. When Batsa changed hands to Arnold, that time Arnold brought it back, and Mary again When I saw Battha once, she still touched and cared, but in the face of her uncontrollable fate, Battha finally left her. At the miser, she ran back home like this, surrounded by a chained man. Bassat, she didn't even look again.
Each has many ill experiences, each has a humble life, and each cannot escape the fate of being dominated. Whether it is Batsa or Mary, they are both tools and victims. In the final death, even the donkey of Batsa is better than Mary, who chose to disappear forever after losing all her dignity, she is the sacrificial sacrifice of the sinful world, together with the death of the last father, the loss and sorrow of the mother, constitute a The destruction of the family; but Battha found a sense of belonging among the flock, it lay peacefully on the ground, it heard the sweet sound of bells, like returning, closing his eyes and returning. After the initial naming and baptism of life, as a "saint", I have witnessed the indifference and greed, resentment and violence of human beings. Isn't it that I have reached another level of faith?
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