In fact, the plot of the film itself is not clearly arranged, so I ate a big bucket of popcorn in the first half.
The reason for the real recommendation is that it is very in line with the mood at the time. Like the heroine (shameless) struggling with pain and self-doubt, when I saw Tris say "I forgive myself" in the simulation, I actually felt in my heart. He breathed a sigh of relief, as if he had been diving for a long time, and finally he was able to surface to breathe.
I forgive myself. Even if the whole world doesn't forgive me, I'm still willing to accept the scarred and tearful me struggling, I'm still willing to shake hands with every self that I have denied in the past, and tell myself, no matter what you do Whatever is wrong, I have forgiven you, I am willing to accept you completely, no longer laugh at your weakness and incompleteness, but simply love you completely and accompany you, even if the world abandons you. Because life is lonely, I can only accompany me in the end, so I must try to learn to love myself in loneliness.
It is precisely because Tris can't live with his own shame that he resists so much after swallowing the truth potion, because he rejects his own imperfections and hurts, and he can't forgive himself for shooting his controlled partner and indirectly causing his parents to die. The fact of sacrifice leads to constant awakening from nightmares every night. Despite her perfect lover, the perfect love from the outside will not heal our new wounds, much less fill the gigantic voids that only our own or supernatural powers can repair. In fact, some people don't understand and feel that everything is not her fault, why does she treat herself so hard? But for many people who are self-doubting, this is indeed the case. It is obviously a simple solution to the outside world, but it is a knot in their own heart that cannot be solved. However, when Tris accepted the simulation test of amity, he finally released his clenched fist to the terrifying self, completely accepted his own shortcomings, and forgiven himself for everything, and was finally relieved.
It seems that in the long dry season, I have been looking for water sources of love from the outside world, and finally found that my love for myself actually comes from myself.
This reminds me of a hero named Blue Beetle in the Young Justice League, because aliens can only connect scarab to their own spine, and can only share a body with scarab to compete for sovereignty. The extremely defensive nature of scarab itself caused it to want to destroy it when it encountered incomprehensible personnel, so that Blue Beetle became the culprit of destroying the world and enslaving human beings in the parallel world. Looking at this story, does it seem like we are looking at ourselves? Just like Lin Youjia's words, everyone has a trapped beast in their hearts. In other words, it is a child who has been hurt by various experiences and has to protect himself with strength. He is so eager for someone to break this deadlock one day, eager to be understood and cherished, but because of his old age Scar and repeatedly being hurt or hurting others, falling into a vicious cycle.
It's so desperate to think about it, but it's a matter of course, even if you refuse to accept yourself, what qualifications do you have to yearn for the love of others?
Writing here, I have fallen into self-doubt for several years. The judgment from a significant one often destroys my self-image for being right in an instant, and I have resented for it. It is said that the evaluation of others at the age of 0-12 can most affect a person's self-awareness, so he once complained that it was because of his parents' problems that he cultivated his awkward personality. But resentment is useless, it can only drag emotions into an even more helpless black hole. As an adult, the only way to change and help yourself get out of depression and build a good self-image is to start with yourself.
I've been doing this kind of homework recently. Think carefully about some of my past that I dare not face, some moments, some fragments, some words and things I regret saying and doing, carefully recalling the self at that time, and then let the current self stand in front of that me, Hold her hand, apologize to her for denying her all the time, and tell her that I know she has a lot of flaws and a lot of powerlessness, but I will love her forever and hold her. It sounds really simple, but when I did this homework for the first time, I was trembling all over and burst into tears. Only when I dared to look up at her face in the dark, did I dare to say to her, I love her without reservation.
Because, people have to face their own weakness, it is really tearing pain. Just like a tumor growing under the skin, you can try to cover it up, but it always hurts. And to cure it, you can only take it out with your own hands.
Look, human beings are such awkward creatures, who obviously have to face a long period of loneliness, are so eager to understand themselves from constellation, religion, and psychology, but have always rejected their less noble side. As everyone knows, emotions are not right or wrong, many things, but we are judging ourselves.
After being completely controlled by scarab, Blue Beetle broke away from the shackles of the reach family with the help of Shaozheng, but did not completely obliterate the existence of scarab's consciousness, but became friends who fought side by side with it, accepting and trusting each other.
Finally, I would like to quote a sentence from "You Are the Answer to Everything": The self in the body has the power to cope with life.
May you accept your vulnerability and inability, and love yourself.
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