When I first met the predecessor of the movie, I saw the experimental short film "Circular Suicide" on station B. The bloody suicide of the title was like a tomato exploded, losing the heavy meaning of life itself and reducing it to the destruction of a pile of flesh. At that time, I was excited and resonated with myself when I saw that clip. Yes, suicide is so simple, but it's just a pile of rotten meat. In the short film, the suggestive lines that keep appearing, "Are you connected with yourself?" gave me a sense of detachment. This question from a third party, even because of the arrangement in the video, It also makes me feel threatened and humiliated, and my heart is self-substituting, what is your business? But I remembered this short film and hoped to find the director's shooting intention.
According to what I have checked, this is a work conceived by Sonoko Wen, influenced by the suicide boom caused by the Japanese cult, and it is more fully shown in the movie "Kiko's Dining Table". Here, I finally found the time to start exploring, What would be the unfinished things in Suicide Loop?
During the entire movie watching, I seemed to be in a state of defense, suppressing my induced suicidal desires and forbidding myself to examine my own self-playing behavior. I no longer felt humiliated, but began to be overwhelmed by anxiety. . I was angry at Noriko's escape, but at the same time felt a sense of relief from the weight of my ego because of her abandonment. The unbearable lightness of life has turned into an unbearable weight in an instant. You can only escape from the past through acting, but those memories and connections seem to be chasing after you like a swarm of bees. You can only run away endlessly. Looking back, shocked. But Yuka erased everything at the end and returned to existence itself. The loss of the elder sister and the return of the role, but the younger sister decided to abandon everything that can define her and re-create a new self. Can she really escape?
Compared with "Circular Suicide", Noriko's dining table is much gentler and more maddening. In the short film of circular suicide, the sudden suicide of the police is a direct sensory stimulation, as if hearing a gunshot in his sleep, shocked and dazed. , only the lingering warmth of terror remains. This picture is probably too suggestive, and suicide is contagious. This is the consensus of the psychological community, and this kind of image should not be widely spread.
When I saw some film critics mention some related concepts of this self-disappearance technique, I thought that this is also a way to obliterate my own existence. I don’t want to be in the past, can people start over and escape alone, or is it The inescapable betrayal, the sin of carrying the cross, is the price you pay for betraying yourself.
Writing this, I wanted to pull it back and wake myself up. This is the fragile mind targeted by cults. Who can easily escape this spiritual web, and I fell into it just by watching movies, knowing that no matter what happened, No third party is qualified to evaluate my life, but they use spiritual spying to tap the cracks in my heart and penetrate all-pervasive. So, I feel shocking to myself. Is the upsurge of suicide so lured? In the depths of the modern Internet society, how can people with fragile minds escape the black hands of these minds? Are you connected to yourself? Will I not get stinged when I connect?
I have no answer, I can only record the experience of watching the movie.
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