Rue Bennett:
Um... When I'm, uh, when I'm clean, you know, when I'm present, uh, like a part of this world, I don't just think about relapsing. It's, uh, it's darker than that. And, uh, you can say that sobriety is my, uh, greatest weapon, but... to tell you the truth, drugs are probably the only reason I haven't killed myself.
Ali:
Oh. Now we're talkin'. Now you're being real. Now you're being honest. Because this whole bullshit about being a functioning drug addict, about finding balance, that ain't true. That's a lie.
Rue Bennett:
It's not a lie.
Ali:
It's a lie, whether you know it or not, but more importantly, I don't give a fuck to hear it.
Rue Bennett:
[scoffs]
Yeah, whatever, man.
Ali:
Whatever, man?
[Rue chuckles]
Ali:
Whatever, man. Listen, young blood.
[laughs]
Ali:
I was shooting dope before your mama's egg dropped. I've lived a whole motherfuckin' life to get to this diner to sit across from your arrogant ass, so don't you ever whatever me. You're 17. You don't know shit. You think you're hard? I'm harder. You think you're tough? I'm tougher. You got clean and want to kill yourself? Same motherfuckin' story here. You want to know why? I'll tell you why. 'Cause you don't know how to live life. You don't have the tools. You're too busy running around, trying to bullshit everybody into thinking you're hard, and you don't give a fuck, when in reality, you give so much of a fuck, you can't even bear to be alive. So guess what? New rule. No more wasting my motherfuckin' time. You wanna use? Use. But the least you can do is be honest. Own that shit.
