The number of words for short comments is limited, so I have to make up the number of long comments. The first kiss scene of the two heroines in the film, I think is the biggest highlight of the whole film.
Before the kiss, the atmosphere of the conversation between the two was already very ambiguous. To sort it out: Tallie came to visit Abigail (she came prepared this time to express her feelings), and after the greeting, Tallie sat in the chair and looked at Abigail who was busy making tea for her, silent for a long time. Abigail felt strange, stopped what he was doing, and turned around to ask her what was wrong. After hesitating for a while, Tallie plucked up the courage and said, "Every morning I wake up, I think I'll never leave you." This sentence is almost a confession. After listening to this, Abigail lowered his head and pursed his lips. He wanted to say something but didn't say it. , turned back and continued busy (she has always been restrained). The first time Tallie smiled, was the kind of smile she saw when she saw someone she liked being teased by her; then Tallie said that she wrote a poem under the influence of Abigail, read the title of the poem, and it was heartfelt when she heard it, Continue to confess. Abigail took up the topic naturally, lamenting that he thought his talent could change the world, but he didn't expect it to be so ordinary. Hearing this sentence, Tallie seemed to get some kind of inspiration. She expressed the same feeling, and excitedly expressed her vision for a successful and happy life, and then asked "Do you know what I want to ask?", Abigail shook his head blankly, Tallie stood Getting up and approaching her, he asked eagerly but cautiously: "Is it possible that this moment of happiness has not yet come to us (we have never experienced such a feeling of happiness)?", Abigail replied "I think there has been" , and changed his mouth to say "may have been." Tallie seemed dissatisfied with the answer, and asked "Really?", and then began to ask "So what do you think about us (the relationship between)?" ) to give the answer she actually pondered many times: "l imagine that l love how our encircling feelings leave nothing out for us to want or seek So undividedly longing for each other, searching for each other)", Tallie smiled a second time, this time with a knowing, smug smile.
It is not difficult to see from this conversation that Tallie and Abigail have never experienced the kind of strong mutual attraction and tension between people before they met each other, including with their husbands, especially Tallie. The reason Abigail says "I think I have" is because she and her husband did have a "relatively" happy time, but it's more likely that a turn of events has eclipsed everything after getting to know Tallie (she has The pleasure of having sex with her husband was lacking, although there was one after that, I think she was more like to comfort her husband). Not to mention Tallie, her relationship with her husband is not good, and Abigail can be said to be the only bright color in her life. For the two of them, getting to know each other was the beginning of the kind of happy moment they had hoped for, and Tallie's implication was that, and she wondered if Abigail felt the same way. So after hearing Abigail's answer, she simply pointed out the question and asked it twice. Tallie's intentions have all been revealed at this time, and Abigail's answer is warm and straightforward enough. At the end, he used the sentence "Maybe I think too much" to relieve himself. Tallie added another sentence: "In my opinion, some people are not good at Expressing it doesn't mean they can't feel it." - At this point, the two people's hearts have been exposed, and they are sure of each other that once the final word is finalized, the strings of tension have been stretched like a full moon after several conversations, and they are ready to go.
It was Tallie who took the initiative to kiss at first, but when she approached and Abigail just had time to close her eyes slightly to feel it, Tallie backed away, probably a little shy, she lowered her head and giggled. Abigail changed his usual restraint, squatted down slightly (she was taller than Tallie), looked her in the eyes, and asked her, "Why don't you continue to do what you want?" (this scene is too There is love!), Tallie gritted her teeth, tried to restrain herself, turned her head and was about to answer, but Abigail raised her chin slightly with her fingers and took the initiative to approach, Tallie stepped back first, defending and attacking, Abigail took advantage of the situation to grab the opponent , so the two had their first greedy and restrained kiss. Tallie stopped again when her breath was getting thicker and each other wanted to ask for more, but it was obvious from the masseter muscles on her face that she was still struggling to restrain herself, and she had to pull away from it as a last resort. Abigail squatted down again, this time looking into Tallie's eyes a little puzzled. Tallie smiled and said, "I'm afraid I'll spread the cold to you." Abigail: "You smell like biscuits." Both She couldn't help laughing, Tallie rubbed Abigail's forehead with the tip of her nose, her lips were close, both provocative and soothing, and she said softly "I have to go home", as if she had made up her mind (the masseter muscles protruded again), she went out. Just look at her hands that have nowhere to go: they pressed Abigail's hand first, then rubbed it on her skirt (because she was just nervous and sweated?), and lifted it up as if to straighten her collar (Abigail kept on kissing while kissing). Pulling Tallie's collar to bring her closer to him), and finally touching his hot cheek, he went out the wrong way at first; After slowing down, I have been savoring and reminiscing.
Astonishment and joy. Astonishment and joy. Astonishment and joy. These three sentences come in the form of a voiceover as Abigail reads the diary. The tone of the three times, the second time was more determined than the first time, and the third time was more like a cry of joy (it is estimated that she remembered it again when she wrote the diary~), these three repetitions even more highlighted the emotional back-and-forth. , lingering.
Emotions that I once pondered in my heart but could not find a definition for have now evolved into this sudden intimacy. At a loss, she had to find a chair to sit, stretch out her body, smile, gasp, and soar in an almost sacrificial way, opening her body and mind to meet and feel this divine trembling and ecstasy (voice-over at this time). Astonishment and joy sounded for the third time, combined with her breathing and body language, I even think her body and spirit reached the peak of joy. At this time, the soundtrack joined the ethereal and distant female voice singing, like a chant. And I I believe that the extremes of passion and lust are divine). Next, she let her mind and body continue to immerse herself in this trance and ecstasy throughout the day. It was getting late, and she was still leaning back in the chair lazily, still immersed in the aftermath of this surprise and joy, fiddling with the wool in her hands one after another, absent-mindedly. She didn't notice when her husband came home, and when he scolded her for not doing anything all day, she woke up like a dream and ran to work.
Virginia Woolf's book "Mrs Dalloway" has a very subtle description of this sudden joy: "This feeling is only temporary, but it is enough. It is an unexpected revelation. , like a blush on your face, you want to contain it, but it has spread, you can't do anything about it, you have to hurry to hide in a remote corner, where you tremble secretly, feel the world is approaching you, this The world is constantly expanding because of some strange meaning, some kind of ecstatic pressure, breaking through the thin skin and gushing out, stitching up the cracks and the pain with extraordinary soothing ability! Then, at that moment, she saw A mirage, a match burning in a saffron flower, an inner meaning is almost revealed. But the approaching world retreats, and the strength weakens with it. It's over—this The time is over." - The director is very good at capturing and amplifying this subtle emotion, I just watched it, and it really is a female director.
How many times in one's life will there be such a glorious moment? Even if it appears, I am afraid that only very delicate people can capture it! This moment, although short in time, is eternal in the sense. For "no experience is too small, even a small development is like a great destiny, and this destiny itself is like a strange vast fabric, every thread is drawn by an infinite tender hand, Lined next to another line, thousands of lines balance each other." The latitude and longitude of this magical destiny is a gift from God, and it requires a keen mind to complete it.
How fortunate to be able to be visited by this sacred moment, and how fortunate to have the ability to perceive the profound meaning in it! Since then, they have opened up a new world for each other to contend with reality, this world is beautiful, mysterious and hidden. Just like the bell of enlightenment suddenly came from the vast kingdom of heaven, the cave is vast, it is a blessing to hear it once, and it is a blessing to listen to it every day. For them, "If you can go to Huangquan at this moment, then this moment is the happiest moment."
From this moment on, they are each other's only warmth and light. Perhaps compared with this cold and cruel reality, it is not warm enough or bright enough, but mutual comfort is enough. Tallie wrote to Abigail: "You are my city of joy." And even though she was mercilessly terminated, she had sown an imaginary seed in Abigail's heart, took root, sprouted, and became a towering tree.
I started to cry from the soundtrack and couldn't stop it, I don't know why I can't stop thinking about this scene. I kept replaying this scene on a loop in my head, and I felt like I was dizzy all day. In fact, I have never had a kiss or other physical contact with the same sex. Of course, it is not necessarily a skin-to-skin kiss to produce this kind of ecstasy. Sometimes a look, a word, a sentence can make people feel like a tsunami in their hearts. orientation, this feeling is the same.
Who has never had a feeling that I don't know how to put into words, and who has never had an emotion that makes oneself toss and turn but has nowhere to put it? Is human language too scarce, or am I too clumsy to define? do not care! Finished writing, I went to sleep, see the good dream! Good night!
2021.3.4 23:38
I pay attention to these kinds of films because I have been given gifts that I didn't ask for. Although I have different orientations, I am sensitive by nature and can deeply empathize with this transgender emotion between girls (I have seen and heard the scheming and tricks of adults, I have admired and admired people, and I have been deeply disappointed in people. , but those sincere and beautiful moments will condense into islands in the long river of time). However, at that time, I naively thought that the ideal ending of emotions should be to reciprocate, so while being grateful, I often felt guilty for not being able to reciprocate; but now I have understood that some emotions do not necessarily have a two-way response. They have existed, and may have a place and meaning. So relieved, good luck!
Written on a day in 2021 when the mood suddenly becomes clear
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