This movie came at just the right time at this stage of my life. In the past, because I was too protected by my family and I was too young, it was difficult to have the opportunity to resonate with excellent works. The last time it resonated strongly was with Toy Story 3. When Play 3 was released, it was just in time for my senior year to graduate. Although at that time everyone tacitly felt that they were about to enter the adult society and enter a new stage. But for me it was saying goodbye to my childhood... When Andy said goodbye to Woody, it was the first time I cried in the cinema. Well, no doubt ridiculed.
I'm 32 years old, almost 33, and a few weeks pregnant, and this is the second time I've cried at the cinema.
At first I was very resistant to having children, because I was afraid that I would not be good enough, and I didn't know what kind of soul I would inject into a child when he arrived. In short, everything is at a loss, doubting whether he has the ability to raise a child.
It's not just about having kids that I'm at a loss, it's my career as well. When my friend has achieved a level in the same field that others around me cannot match, my husband asked me, what is your career plan? I was very flustered and guilty, for fear that he would see that I was not very motivated in my career. I'm afraid he will look down on me because I don't want to achieve anything in my career. When it's all said and done I cry and say I just want to be ordinary in my post.
The days went on like this, and every day I was very ordinary with a guilty conscience. Fear of being discovered by her husband and looked down upon. Afraid of being discovered by her mother and disappointing her.
It's not that I don't want to be good, I just feel that there is no meaning, and that many things in life are meaningless. I don't know if I'm being too sober or too Buddhist, since I've been like this since I was a child. When other people are chasing stars, or discussing which boy looks good, I just think, it's not yours, so what's so exciting. When the teacher announced the start of the holiday and the whole class cheered, I thought, is the holiday really that good? On the contrary, the older I am now, the richer my life experiences have been, and the more I feel about life. I even joked with my friends that I feel like I'm starting to feel a little more human now. I am now slowly starting to pay attention to many little things in life, the little things that make me feel good. I have also thought about many things and become more and more fond of life.
This year, coming across this film at this time, made me think new about pregnancy and normality.
Watching those little new beings experience all kinds of personalities and find the spark in their lives before the great, I feel like my kids are looking for that too. Whatever character he finds, it's him. I also feel that if he is considerate and kind, it is better, and if he is sensitive, suspicious, timid, I have to learn to understand him, tolerate him, and give him a sense of security.
As for mediocrity, I actually feel very complicated after watching the movie. I feel very empty and sad, but it is full of beauty in life. I had started noticing the good in life before I watched the movie, and that was something that resonated with me. And let us accept our mediocrity and ordinaryness with peace of mind is something I didn't expect. Thank you Pixar for finding a place to put my ordinary. So that I don't have to be secretive and feel at ease, but enjoy the ordinary openly and aboveboard.
I also thank my parents, my parents, my husband, and my husband, who have no demands on me. They have always protected me very well, and they still have a childlike innocence. Love you guys.
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