Tony has been lonely all his life. When he was born, his father took him to wander around, and he didn't care about him. He cooks by himself, studies by himself, builds his own castle on the beach, and never expects to bring him joy with others. Painting alone, working alone. It wasn't until he met her that Tony began to pursue her, and after telling how lonely and empty he was before meeting her, she accepted him. However, after marriage, he is still afraid of losing her and returning to the lonely days before. She started buying clothes frantically, seeing that all the clothes were going to be bought, she couldn't control herself. But I don't know that even if I get married, I am lonely, and I have to buy clothes to cover up my loneliness. until she died in a car accident. Tony was heartbroken and unwilling to accept the reality, he advertised for a female assistant, requiring her to work in the clothes of his wife. "Wear them as uniforms!"—he said. A few months later, she left and his father died. He has no relatives or friends. He's back to square one..... Where does anyone like being alone? Does Tony like it? Does his wife like it? Does his father like it? Just fear of disappointment. Tony is afraid of losing her and going back to his lonely life. His wife was afraid of losing her nice clothes, otherwise how would she spend her lonely time. His father was afraid of losing music, otherwise how would he deal with loneliness? No one wants to be alone, but even making friends, getting married, and starting a family. But it's all an illusion. Alone at night, who is not alone? There are many contacts on the phone, but there is no one to talk to. If you encounter small things, you will send them to the circle of friends, for fear of being forgotten by everyone. When the heart is in pain, I choose to swallow it by myself. Even if I talk to my best friend, I have to relive the loneliness. Everyone is afraid of being alone, so they make friends widely. "I'm not alone, you see, I have a lot of friends!" - but thought so. Fear of being alone, so partying like crazy. I'm afraid of being alone, so I post a circle of friends and like each other. Afraid of being alone, we always eat together, study together, and play games together. Afraid of being alone, start falling in love. Afraid of being alone, listening to the quiet night. But is one really that bad? A person can eat whatever he/she wants, don't worry about whether he/she likes it or not. A person, to travel, to see their own scenery. Alone, listening to classical, listening to jazz. Pop in the morning, French chanson in the afternoon, jazz in the evening, Chopin in the late night. Isn't this beauty that belongs only to one person, a gift from loneliness? You are afraid to talk about being alone, you are afraid of being alone, you are afraid of being without company. But have you really felt it, staying alone, thinking alone, entertaining alone, and living alone? Loneliness is there, and you always have to meet it. Rather than being afraid, it's better to enjoy? But have you really felt it, staying alone, thinking alone, entertaining alone, and living alone? Loneliness is there, and you always have to meet it. Rather than being afraid, it's better to enjoy? But have you really felt it, staying alone, thinking alone, entertaining alone, and living alone? Loneliness is there, and you always have to meet it. Rather than being afraid, it's better to enjoy?
I would like to write this article to commemorate my feeling of rereading Haruki Murakami three years later. I used to be afraid of it, and now I decided to try to enjoy it! Being able to face loneliness is a hurdle that is difficult to pass when growing up.
2019/1/12
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