I guard my autonomy so carefully

Carroll 2022-06-16 09:05:37

The film shows the life of legendary American poet Emily Dickinson

At the beginning of the film, the teacher asked the graduating female students to choose between "God" and herself. Unlike all her classmates, Emily chose herself alone, but also chose loneliness. The fighter is sharp-edged: "I haven't been awakened at all, so how can I repent?" As soon as she appeared on the stage, it heralded her rebelliousness and independence in this life.

Emily's father is the most powerful lawyer in town, and her aunt is a poet, but whether it's listening to a concert at the theater or talking about poetry at home, Emily doesn't echo the views of her elders. She sincerely admired the artistic talent of opera actresses, and argued fiercely with her father and aunt about women's performance on stage; she also made no secret of her artistic ideas when discussing poetry with her aunt; in the face of editorial prejudice, "I am afraid that women cannot create "Works of permanent value", she countered that "it is impossible for everyone to be Milton", apparently the editor was established by Milton's aesthetic standards and lacked the ability of self-appreciation; she refused to edit her manuscript, even if it was punctuation symbol.

Emily went to the church with her family to pray for blessings. Everyone in the family was asked by the pastor to kneel down to pray, but she refused to kneel. She maintained her independence against the majesty of the pastor and the condemnation of her father: "I My soul belongs to me.” She told the priest that if she had to go to hell, she could endure it, and since there was a God, she would rather sit and ask God to forgive her for her impiety. Her father was angry at her rudeness, and she resisted: "I won't be religious because of compulsion. I know that your spiritual support is more complete. I seem to be a little stubbornly resisting, but my soul belongs to me." And the father emphasized: "Your soul belongs to God, and you are ignoring the danger."

Emily refuses to go to church again: "God knows what I'm thinking? He doesn't need me to sit on the pews and remind him." Father reminds her: "I hope your words don't sound so flippant, your soul is not Reckless." Emily answered definitively: "Yes, Dad, that's why I guard my autonomy so carefully. "

Emily, already rebellious, strengthens her autonomy further when she meets Veroline Boufan, a girl who is "not afraid of death but of heaven". Bufan, who is wise and beautiful, is a lovely girl, but she refuses to go to church, saying that church history is as boring as heaven. "She thought churchgoers were 'poor tortured souls'.

Like Emily, Bufan believes that all women and men have the same right to an education. Because they are well educated, neither Emily nor Bufan can tolerate the superficiality of men, and they even despise men for defending their own stupidity in front of independent women: "Superficial things always arise naturally, and if this is intentional, there are some Hypocrisy, we may be superficial but not stupid."

"Men are fearless, they can go to war, but they are afraid that a woman will not be educated and will not be able to get used to her independence." When Bufan finds out her dance partner hadn't heard of Wuthering Heights, she denounces a work he hadn't seen, as disappointing as going to Sin City and Sin City, because neither place is Philadelphia, he became silent, and there was a silent "blasphemy" in the air.

In any era, the tendency to follow the trend is a huge traction force and a huge destructive force to life. Sadly, many people are unaware of their blind drift. Like the blank eyes of the girls who are on the "needs of redemption" side at the beginning of the movie, it's not so much a choice but an obedience.

Once faith becomes a tool rather than an inner self-consciousness, people pray for profit or for some purpose. "I was told that I should repent of my sins, or I'll be chased by demons," Bufan said. She asked at the time, "Is this a spiritual bus stop?" She described the other person's reaction." Suddenly quiet, like enduring in front of the commemorative cup, shocked and deaf."

Emily believes that the person who can save his soul is not God but himself, an independent mind constructed by knowledge, and those who do not have their own independent mind are lost souls: "For those lost souls there is no tomorrow, for those who are lost, there is no tomorrow. Today is enough for lost souls."

She once said to Mr Wadsworth: "It's easy to be aloof when nobody wants what you're paying for, and I think it's the same for posterity, but posterity is as unfree as God. It's a misery, unless, after death fame is only for those who were not worthy of being remembered while alive, and have been tormented by success." But she herself hoped to be the one who was remembered after death, because of her soul Not lost.

The war broke out, Emily's younger brother Austin had a fierce conflict with his father about going to the front. The father did not allow his only son to go to the battlefield, but Austin did not want to escape what a man and a citizen should bear. responsibility. In the end Austin succumbed to his father's authority. More than 100,000 people died in that war, including 51,112 casualties in Gettysburg, 31,086 in Spurchurrvinia, and 23,134 in Antietam.

It was an era when men died in battle, but in Emily's view, the meaning of life is not how to be rewarded by the outside world, but the inner conscience. Every individual who is loyal to his own life autonomy is a winner. . Fighting for outward glory is not as heroic as the "cavalry" who fights within, she praises those souls who fight for inner freedom.

In the end we'll all be the things we fear the most

Emily guarded her autonomy alone, and her colleagues left her one by one. With tears in her eyes, she saw her good friend Bufan, who had rejected the world, walked into marriage "at the right time" because of "facts and experience".

Bufan justified his compromise: "Too serious life is the shortest way to destruction. In the end we'll all be what we fear the most , then I'll reject the world, and I won't keep that promise, then You are making the biggest mistake of your life, denying what you need spiritually." And reminds Emily that she should be more careful about her virtues if she doesn't obey facts and experience. She also saw Emily's "flaws" and reminded her not to resist her own shortcomings, while Emily believed that the so-called "virtue" was just used to disguise her shortcomings.

Emily thought she had finally met someone who understood her, because she fell in love with Wadsworth after listening to a speech, he understood her poetry, she had caught his burning gaze, and was convinced that she was more dull and arrogant than him His wife is closer to his soul, but he appreciates her poetry but does not accept her love. Because his superficial impassioned speech cannot be divorced from the real world, his mind still obeys order, and love must give way to ethics.

What is even more terrifying is that his brother Austin actually betrayed his virtuous wife and had an affair with Bufan, and frankly confessed that he could not allow his wife to cheat, believing that he worshipped a thoughtful person and cheated emotionally, which made Emily very Disappointment, in her opinion, the various compromises of the people closest to her in the face of reality are a betrayal of her or the autonomy of her soul.

Austin confronts Emily, and he prods her: Have you read the Springfield Republican book? It was written by Mr. Powers, who has published some of your poems, and I think it's someone you adore, and he's married. He said that Bowers craved the sympathy of readers without showing his own theme. It should be a tragedy in literature. The authors are all women, maybe gifted women, full of thoughts, feelings and fantasies, but Yet poor, lonely and depressed, neither of which is unhealthy suffering, which may in the end be a precious lesson, dull and withered and distorted over time, it is indeed very good to see things through indistinct tears. Difficult, this synopsis and poetry...," he even said to her "You are as ugly as your poetry. "

At the end of the movie, not only was her brother betrayed by her, but her sister Winnie, who had always cared and loved her the most, also advised her not to be too demanding. She told Emily that Bo Fan had cheated on her because her husband had a venereal disease, thinking "You are violent. To lash out is to get angry about it, and I know that being angry is a defense against the world."

Emily says lowering the bar is an excuse for all evil. And Winnie said: "Maintaining a high standard is your last refuge when you can't stand it. We're just mortals, don't laugh at us like that."

Emily finally admits that she has become something she fears too, telling Winnie: "You're right, I wish I had your tender heart, condemning Austin because I had the same feeling of failure, we It's become something we fear, and I'm in great pain. " And in Emily's proud heart, she couldn't stand " Why is the world so ugly?"

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A Quiet Passion quotes

  • Emily Dickinson: If I can't have equality, then I want nothing of love.

  • Emily Dickinson: Clarity is one thing; obviousness is quite another.