At first I thought it was a one-liner, the heroine was like a tool person. Later, at the end of the third episode, Beck suddenly broke away from the narrative of the hero Joe and had his own life. Even peach, a friend of the heroine who did not appear very often, got a short life in the last words written by Joe. Although that letter was largely written by Joe himself. His confusion, longing and helplessness.
He wrote in the letter: "I've always had a complicated relationship with my own existence. I thought I could change. And by changing myself alter the world around me. But change is a fool's pipe dream. This world is ugly and crass . People lie, and people leave. And the beauty that does exist is fleeting and insincere. Still. Every now and again, someone comes along who will make you believe in love. And if you find that person, don't let go. And maybe together you can keep the monsters at bay.”
Whether it is his ex-girlfriend candace or beck, what he longs for is always a perfect love that will never be betrayed. Joe, who was abandoned by his parents, thought he understood everything about books under the guidance of the old store manager. The old store manager taught him to put the book in a greenhouse with suitable temperature, humidity and light, so that the book will get the best protection, and it will not become moldy and yellow so quickly. He knows how to mend broken books and make old ones look new, and he "protects" the people he loves like he protects books, cleaning up anyone who might be bothering her. He killed beck's ex-boyfriend and peach who also loved the heroine in a twisted way. Because he felt that some people "some people deserve to die" just like the old store manager said. So when he stumbles upon Beck's ex-boyfriend who is a disloyal, homophobic addict of Beck, he feels justified in his actions.
He seemed to have forgotten the abuse of the old store manager, the man who had imprisoned him in that greenhouse. He became the second he. He thinks he knows the person he loves, and understands all the thoughts of the other party, and under the banner of "for your own good", he euphemistically calls it "protection". Therefore, after the first murder, he first thought that he could only rely on the old store manager who had hurt him. He could only go back and seek the protection of that person. He is so desperate for love. Longing for love that will never change. But no one ever taught him how to love. Does he really love books? In fact, what he loves is only books that can be refurbished, protected by him, and will never betray his. At the same time he is protected to some extent by the book. The book will tell him how to deal with the world. He doesn't love books. Otherwise, they wouldn't put beck's ex-boyfriend in the greenhouse and let him destroy those books.
It's a lot like how many parents treat their little ones. It's always just self-righteous "protection" and never understands what children really want. Also can't understand their collapse. What am I doing wrong. Where am I sorry for you. I paid so much. I'm doing all this for you, okay?
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