You exist within the depths of my mind

Lucinda 2022-03-20 09:01:04

Suddenly I found this film review I wrote in my sophomore year, and I read it again, with a lot of emotion! At that time I was always struggling to think about some propositions that seemed profound but unsolvable to me, but fortunately, I lived till now and didn’t die in my own mind~


A Beautiful Mind—a beautiful mind, Mind has Reason, thinking ability, and intelligence mean, as well as "spirit", so it is not difficult to understand that this topic should be regarded as a pun. It expresses two meanings. Nash has a beautiful talent. He is a genius. The life of a genius is accompanied by sorrow. He is eccentric and eccentric. Later, he struggled hard under the nightmare of schizophrenia, and finally embarked on the podium of the Nobel Prize in Economics. .
I was touched a lot, and felt a lot. Moved by his perseverance, I can’t imagine that when one day the people or things that once appeared in my life and once cherished, they have never existed. I can no longer distinguish between reality and illusion. He uses his Wisdom finally understood, but they never disappeared, moved because he knew that they were hallucinations and auditory hallucinations, but learned to accept their existence, learned to accept himself; moved by Alicia's will and bravery as a woman; moved by Nash's anxiety Sitting down at the table, a professor put the pen in front of him and said "It's my honour to work with you!" At that moment, he understood that he was never a loser and he was not defeated; he was moved by him. At the moment on the podium, a speech said "the most important discovery of my life: It is only in the mysterious equations of love that any logic or reasons can be found", and love stayed with him till the end.
But after being moved, it was more about feelings and thinking. Just after reading it, I would ask why he had schizophrenia, why did he have three characters in his fantasy? For Nash, their appearance must be meaningful (I use appearance here, but I want to use another word-"existence", which is a question I thought about later). They are already nash lives or Said a part of the body, lingering, like a shadow. Because nash is not a person who is good at expressing, he is a lonely person. In his eyes and in his heart, he does not have his own best friend, and his roommate fills this gap. In fact, he is his own best friend. The appearance of the roommate is to replace this role, to support him, to help him and to advise him, and parcher is his honor and recognition by others, admired by the world, which is the "delusion of exaggeration" in schizophrenia, thinking of himself Creating results can change the world, change the destiny of mankind, a delusion on reputation and status, and to satisfy one's own needs to be strong. This is from the fact that he cannot let go of losing chess, cannot accept the fact that he loses, and establish a self-affirmation system. , And the appearance of the little girl may be a beautiful feeling and embodiment of the soul, everything should be explainable, maybe. We usually fantasize, but they are different. We can realize and recognize what is true and false, but he can’t. What is consciousness and what is cognition? This again involves psychology. It seems that he is lost in himself, he can't get rid of himself, it's terrible!
Another thought suddenly popped into my mind, what is "existence"? Is objective existence counted as existence? What is an illusion, what is reality, what is existence, and what is non-existence? Philosophically speaking, existence has the characteristics of being difficult to change, but can be changed; non-existence (nothingness), as opposed to existence, has the characteristics of being difficult to control, but can be controlled. But I would think in my mind, does the existence of only one person not count as existence? Isn't the temporary existence counted as existence? Has it ever appeared, maybe it's just a flash in a dream or fantasy that doesn't exist? At least they exist for that person, he can be very real and aware of its existence, right? Maybe it doesn't make sense for others to exist, but for this person, it is different, at least they have existed, for him it can be regarded as existed! And why do we say that what we can objectively change is an existence? Maybe our entire world exists in one person's dream, maybe our entire universe is an illusion, or another fantasy? So we can also be non-existent, but exist relative to that person. It's like the original physics learned that everything is relative. Maybe we can say that they are not in our real world, but we cannot deny their existence.
Furthermore, of course the teacher said that there is often only a thin line between geniuses and lunatics. His wisdom wakes him up and makes him painful. This may be the fate of geniuses! Destined to be extraordinary.

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A Beautiful Mind quotes

  • John Nash: And then, on the way home, Charles was there again. Sometimes I miss talking to him. Maybe Rosen is right. Maybe I have to think about going back to the hospital.

    Alicia Nash: Maybe try again tomorrow.

  • General: You ever... just know something, Dr. Nash?

    Nash: Constantly.