It is almost my first enlightenment of "beauty", holding a picture scroll with blue silk and flowing clothes floating among a group of funeral crowds splashing with Ming paper, and Wang Zuxian, who does not have a trace of blood and expression on his face, makes me understand what She is a beauty with "ice crystal jade skin that is not vulgar." Except for the clothes above, in a hurry, she plunged into the bathtub in the water to deliver oxygen in the misty long kiss, which made me understand what "the romance of killing two birds with one stone" is, with my brother. After overturning the clouds and raining, a beautiful jade foot climbed on his elder brother, and the soft and affectionate feeling of clinging to him and tying his shirt and belt made me understand what is meant by "lingering lingering." "The picture" under the title "Ten li long pavilion is full of frost, and every inch of green silk is sad. I look at the moon shape alone, only envy the mandarin ducks but not the immortals." The yin of the moon under the moon makes me in the rhyme of "Don't come to dawn" I also prayed with Xiaoqian, who was leaning on her brother's arms, "Oh my God, don't be so fast".
Although I was a person who was afraid of coming home to ghosts, monsters and foxes since I was a child, and as long as the word "ghost" is involved, I would be resistant to images, but the novel of "Strange Tales from a Lonely Studio" has been rummaged since childhood. "Sex is generous, Lian Yu has self-respect." Pu Songling's short description of Ning Caichen's character was captured by Cheng Xiaodong and his brother's interpretation, and it took only a few minutes to make me alive. At that time, I didn't understand that this was called "heartbeat". I just felt that facing the poor picture quality of the 12-inch TV set, the young boy blushed and his blood rolled. I saw the four words of "A Chinese Ghost Story" and I almost wanted to take out the video tape and change the tape, but it stagnated and couldn't move the power is the brother who came into view first, and his first yearning for beauty when he was young was hooked out by him. of.
It’s almost taken for granted that following this handsome face into the story of moving clouds and flowing water like a domino, Ning Caichen’s fate began to be the opposite of Guo Jing’s good fate in my eyes. In the mountains, there is a continuous river. Drinking water, took out the dry food that almost broke the tooth from the package, smashed it on the stone, and easily smashed the stone into broken bones. When surprised, he kicked it out with his foot as a cuju, but found that the foot was connected. The blatant hole in the shoelace stockings finally hobbled down the mountain, and made the shoes worse in the process of going downhill, wrapped the foot in cloth and moved forward, solemnly took out a compass to explore the way, but After shooting around, I pointed out Nan. Thinking that the destination was finally in front of him, there was a sudden heavy rain, and hurriedly took out an umbrella, opened it, and rushed. This umbrella was riddled with tears, like Ning Caichen's experience of decay to the end.
But his expression was extremely serious. He ran all the way into a hayloft under the broken umbrella, but he did not die when he encountered Xiahou swordsman hacking and killing the thief. He was splashed with blood on his head and saw Xiahou enter the grass. She immediately ran out of the straw shed, taking care of his luggage, Xiahou threw a piece of white-faced bun to him, and lost a look at eating together, he was frightened and stuffed all the way into the entrance. . After Xiahou left tremblingly, he ran into the hayloft in a hurry, spit out the buns in his mouth, and walked out in the heavy rain with his luggage. Foot sunk. From a distance, the embarrassed little figure from the back is really as funny as the headgear on his head that gradually collapses as the rain washes.
When I was a teenager, I really laughed at this episode, but in the years that followed, the laughter turned into a wry smile in my brother's innocent eyes. Isn't this the true portrayal of the life of "the house leaks in the night rain"? One after another, the unlucky things hit the sea. What you can do, you can only swallow it silently like Ning Caichen eating steamed buns, and if you can survive the catastrophe, then spit it out one by one.
But he was so stupid in my eyes, he was so stupid that even if he wanted to shove a little trick, the ink had been soaked in rain and so chaotic that no words could be seen. The account collection was instantly recognized, and he was thrown out with the luggage. The inn, you can foolishly ask passers-by, if you don’t spend money, where can you stay? After getting the answer from Lan Ruo Temple, even though he turned his head and looked back twice suspiciously, he still set off on the road with the harmless eyes of the two beasts. He was so stupid that it made people anxious.
But he was as lucky as the Tang monk in "A Chinese Journey to the West". Under the dueling swords of Yan Chixia and Xiahou, he pulled out a bunch of love theories and unconsciously held the dagger in his hand along the sound of Xiaoqian's piano. Approaching the little pavilion, Xiaoqian pretended to be frightened. He shook his hand and the blade almost hit the beauty. When the beauty was about to get closer, she caught a glimpse of the mark left by the money on his back because of the rain. , Not close. This scene is like Hong Qi and Xi Du in "East as the West". Those who want to harm people are always unlucky, but those who seem to be waiting for the victims are always able to passively escape the catastrophe. Even if he jumped into the lake, pulled the beauty’s feet onto the shore, and was seated in the arms of the beauty, he would be confused, and there would be no disorderly rules, putting "don’t be rude" in front of instinct and heart. When other men saw Wang Zuxian's sister, they tried to get her, but he tried to protect her when he was not too courageous.
In the case of having only one side relationship with her, he will drive her away from poisonous snakes and draw away Yan Chixia for her. This kind of innocence and a vein that are so obvious to the heart and lungs, coupled with such a jade-like face, makes people feel "unbearable" for him. In the ghost world, Xiaoqian has been doing seduce and murder. It is the first time that Xiaoqian, who has been cared for by someone, can’t bear to kill him. Even the screenwriter Ruan Jizhi can’t bear to let him see any dirty things, so he didn’t know it. Let him melt a group of skeletons into sewage.
As a scholar, he is a little weak in the end, but his weakness has become cute in Xiaoqian's eyes. She played a wolf on the tree to tease him, and he really believed it, worrying that the three lanterns changed their tone. Reading "I will enter the wine", three steps and two steps made me half tired. He was very persistent. In order to meet Xiaoqian, he awkwardly climbed the pillar to her boudoir, but was rejected by Xiaoqian on the grounds that he was too poor and wanted to climb high. Even to the point where she learned that Xiaoqian was a female ghost, she was so scared to death that she was turned into a deeper sympathy for her by Xiaoqian's complaint.
Such a stupid person almost thought it was impossible to survive in such a troubled world, but he was born with Yan Chixia, who was already disappointed in the world and would rather go with the ghost's strengths. When I was a child, the impression of this strange old man stayed at seeing Xiaoqian finally coming out of the last golden pagoda, reuniting with Ning Caichen, and closing the door, and said the phrase "idiotic boy and girl, bah!" Now it seems, This sentence is a bit bitter. A moment ago, the old man's eyes were still showing the figure of his brother and Wang Zuxian, and there were faint tears, and the next moment he used his mouth to hide his softness. This awkward character seems to have formed a pair of fraternal twins with that troubled world. The old man was also a person who was full of hope for the world, striving for the highest, and yearning for beautiful things, but too much disappointment made him choose to escape from the world, while facing This world is full of resentment and disbelief, while holding the little bit of hope that remains in the ghost world with my own meager power to maintain the order of good and evil.
He held Ning Caichen and narrated his contradiction in tears. Although this passage was somewhat exaggerated and funny under the interpretation of Wu Ma and his brother, it still made people feel desolate and exhausted. If you are completely disappointed in the world, you don't have to work hard for it, at best you can live and die with it like a walking dead. What I am afraid of is that there is still hope for it, as if completely out of this world, but it seems to live on that little remaining hope. This is the contradiction of Yan Chixia. "Why Xiaoqian is a ghost but wants to be a human being, while I am a human but I live a life like a ghost, this is really a world of laughter and laughter."
When I was a child, I had two horns on his head that were similar to the bull demon but was a reverse growth androgynous grandma, and now looks like Ultraman, who is like a small monster that Ultraman must fight in every episode. When my grandma's tongue with a lot of saliva stuck out, every time the heads of the people in the arms of the Montenegrin master flew together, I shivered and buried my head deep in the quilt. But now pushed by time, I think that androgynous grandma is so cute, Xiaoqian tore her wedding dress deliberately, and he will stitch her up like a mother, preparing to kill Ning Caichen Shi would also bargain with Yan Chixia. The setting of hermaphrodite long tongue now seems like Ruan Jizhi's imagination of some "long-tongued women" who are good at quarrels. What's more, after watching TVB for many years, Liu Zhaoming always reminds me of Master Yideng and a lot of images of loving fathers. When I am with my grandma, there is an inexplicable sense of intimacy. On the contrary, Wang Jing, the cute county magistrate who thought he was chubby when he was a child, now seems to be a typical official image of bullying the world. Even ghosts still bargain with people.
Ghosts are fierce with cuteness, but people are cute with fierceness. There were officers and soldiers who arrested people everywhere, and there were dudes who stepped on people’s backs and got off their horses on a rainy day. They were afraid of soiling their clothes. There were people all over the world. The world of humans is indistinguishable from black and white, and the world of ghosts. It's black and white, it's really a ridiculous world. But today's world is more like a haha mirror in that troubled world.
Those bizarre incidents have spread farther than in the past. Every day, facing the bombardment of countless news, the last moment was still watching the plane crash, the next moment the gossip star scandal went, and the knowledge became more and more. Being vigilant is still more numb.
This is not a world where all ugliness can be eliminated simply by owning the Diamond Sutra.
I watched my brother press against the window desperately to shield Xiaoqian from all sunlight. Yan Chixia said, "She has gone." He turned around suddenly, and the sunlight poured down on him. There was still a lot of light on his clothes. The blood-stained young man picked up the Jinta and shouted "Xiaoqian" in pain, with sadness in his eyes.
In that sadness, my internal organs were crying.
When Tsui Hark once again recalled this story of humans and ghosts in reality, a trace of sadness flashed in his eyes. The TV station was not cruel enough to broadcast the words that Tsui Hark said when he was reminiscing about his brother. Instead, it sprinkled a string of words on his smiling face that I didn’t know if it was painful or painful, "Big brother’s smiling face lied to us, there are so many words." , He did not say it."
What makes people feel helpless is that this passage is from a person who has been insomnia since he was a teenager, and the people around him have been with him for a few nights, and can no longer continue, leaving him alone insomnia. He should understand the loneliness that cannot be described to anyone.
I once chatted with a girl who has liked her brother for many years, and I asked her, what level of understanding can be achieved between people? She was silent for a long time, and sent a blank smiley face, and then a sentence that made us both laugh dumbly, just like I sent a smiley face now, but you can't know, maybe, I am suffering from stomachache on the computer side.
She will remind me of my aunt. LESLIE is a part of my childhood dream, and the originator of this childhood dream is my aunt. Yan Chixia’s last line in front of Xiaoqian’s grave was to say, “If a person is born untimely, it’s worse than being a ghost.” I think this sentence should be changed to the aunt’s body. If you give birth to the wrong family, It's also miserable.
My aunt should be one of the first people who entered the disco in the 1980s. In my childhood, she was a symbol of fashion and modernity. Flared pants, toad mirrors, lace skirts, floral shirts, in short, were popular in that era. She didn't pull down the same thing. When I was a child, I often liked to play in the public dormitory where my aunt lived. She dressed up in her clothes and acted like an adult. Even the big earrings that she hid in the drawer were not let go. Ears. My aunt often laughed at me for being like an Indian dancer. I just let her talk about it, because when I was 5 or 6 years old, I really thought that adults didn't understand my world at all.
When I’ve been tossing enough in my aunt’s dormitory, I will sit down and observe the surroundings. On that white wall, I can always see the smiling faces of handsome men. Below is a string of similar Chinese pinyin. letter. It was at that time that my aunt asked gruffly, "What is the pinyin string?" Auntie walked over and stared at the poster tenderly and said to me "LESLIE, his name is LESLIE." My use was not standard. The child's voice imitated his brother's name, making the auntie laugh. The man on the poster overlaps with the "A Chinese Ghost Story" that I watched not long ago. When I was vague about the plot, I knew Ning Caichen's other name, which turned out to be Leslie.
Later, the aunt had a boyfriend who loved her very much, because the aunt I had only met once or twice, the aunt owned a house of her own. This was great news for me at that time. It meant that I no longer had to peek at the video tape with my parents on my back.
But it’s very strange that most of the movies about my brother I watched with my mother were comedies he played in the early stage. The 92 version of the family has a happy event, but an earlier performance of "Merry Christmas" with Chen Baiqiang and Mai Jia. But what I watched with my sister-in-law, seems to be the two fixed ones, "A Chinese Ghost Story" and "The True Colors of Heroes 2".
I think for my childhood, watching an adult drama, no matter how many times it is, it is not consistent in plot for me, because there are too many emotions that I can't understand at the time. After not understanding, it caused the feelings to be incoherent. I remember clearly that I watched the two films from start to finish with my aunt, both in winter.
Every time my aunt saw Ajie injured, she called to the hospital to talk to her wife, and she would cry miserably when she named her newly born baby, especially when her brother’s song came out, she could barely hear her sobbing. At that time, she seemed to be no matter whether I could understand her words or not. She seemed to be talking to herself or saying to me, "Huang Zhan's words are really good. It is meaningless to ask about the things of my life. Who wants to talk about the lost past." "I think I was just sucking Wahaha's straw and looking at her strangely. What makes me even more puzzled is that when Ning Caichen just appeared in "A Chinese Ghost Story", there were stars and tears in her eyes. In my eyes, such inexplicable adult emotions are really unreasonable.
But my free life was only over a year later. Without warning, the aunt went to Shanghai with his boyfriend. Before I left, my aunt left me a lot of videos, tapes, and albums of my brother, and the name of one of them was the name I first heard from my aunt, "LESLIE". This album became the album that my mother played the most after my aunt left. MONICA and Nongben have become the two songs I have heard the most about my brother so far.
When I met at the age of 6, 7 years old, I was sick and frail, and I had another high fever. Every serious illness in my childhood made me feel that I was born again. After the freshman, the previous events seem to have become long-lasting memories. After a serious illness, I started watching "Heavenly Love" and Uncle Andy, and my feelings for my brother seemed to fade away as my aunt faded in memory.
It was not until I was deceived by my mother that it was a horror film because I heard the sound. I looked in through the crack of the door and saw Song Dan singing on the stage. Usually, my brother’s appearance and his voice in my memory were combined again, and they met again. In my memory. Before, my brother's voice was only on records and tapes, but most of the movies he watched were dubbed Mandarin. Therefore, my brother's voice and his character didn't form a complete individual in my mind before that, until "Midnight Sing". I always felt that I met my brother twice, the first time it was shallow, the second time it was deep. Since then, I have loved listening to my brother. His Cantonese seems to be my favorite hot chocolate in winter, and his Mandarin is like bubble milk tea, which is delicious and a bit soft. At that time when the Internet was not so developed, I was struggling to find the original soundtracks of my brother's movies on the market. Every time my brother's magnetic voice spread out, I would be moved by him again. Therefore, I feel a bit regretful that my brother's original sound cannot be heard in "A Chinese Ghost Story".
So, I thought of my aunt again. I began to wonder why my aunt had been away for so long, but my grandparents rarely mentioned it to her. Every year during the New Year, the aunt was not there, but they didn't seem to have this daughter. In fact, this strangeness is not so strong. When I was very young, I felt that my grandpa’s family relationship was very alienated from my mother. In my memory, apart from the aunt, the aunt, grandpa, and grandmother seemed to me to be strangers with blood relations. Except for greetings on New Year's Day and holidays, other hatreds often do not overlap. I don't even like to listen to them. Sometimes a sudden concern can also reveal a deep indifference. But at any rate, even if they were acting as indifferently as acting, everything on the grandpa's family was still passable, so I wondered why they were unwilling to act in the face of the aunt.
I tried to find out the reason from my mother several times, but my mother kept it secret. Maybe I felt that I was too young to disclose it. But in fact, I know everything.
In the 4th year after my aunt left, I called my mother and I to visit Shanghai. From my mother's mouth, I knew that my aunt and her boyfriend had worked hard to own a factory there, but I didn't know that they would be rich to that extent. In that era, Shanghai had already bought a bungalow and villa with a beautiful shepherd dog. During those days, it was so delicious that I was having chicken drumstick rice with her workers in my aunt’s factory, and I couldn’t find the next home.
In 2003, five years have passed since this delicious period. Even the occasional contact between my aunt and my mother in the past has been reduced to very few. Before that day came, my brother had become an old friend who I must see every week in my heart, and Uncle Andy and his album have been played on the DVD player. The former was an idol to me when I was young, but my elder brother is an object that cannot be described as an idol. Sometimes he looks out of reach, and sometimes he is so kind and cute that I want to give him a kiss. I haven't been able to find a suitable word to describe his position in my heart. He is the bond between me and my aunt, and also the object of my heart that has become so shining without being modified by any adjectives. I heard the news when the teacher in the office was in a mess. The whispers of the teacher at the next table burst into my eardrums. At that time, I could no longer think. I didn’t know that the teacher on the opposite side was talking to me. What I said, it seemed that I was worried about my future, and I could no longer hear the whispering content. He walked out of the office with a pale face, his feet felt like he had stepped on cotton, and he didn't know if he went to the wrong classroom. That was the first time I skipped class. I just wanted to escape, but I didn't know where to go. I don't want to go home, I don't want to watch TV, I don't want to hear that news again. Maybe it was from that time that I learned to deceive myself.
I pretended to be calm and dialed my aunt’s phone number by the public phone. I didn’t know whether I wanted to comfort her or get her comfort. I thought I could continue to pretend, but I heard my aunt’s voice and said that. "Wow" when he was writing, I felt that the first time in his life, his forehead was crying like bloodshot. At the age of 15, I experienced life and death for the first time because of my brother. It is also the first time I know that crying bitterly on the endless stream will only be given a strange look or two, and no one will care about you. The cry was quickly drowned in the voices of people, no matter how great the sadness was, it was also crushed.
After that, my high school career was by far the gloomiest period in my life. I chose science against my wish. I struggled every day in physics that I couldn't cope with taking out all my brain cells. I didn't dare to listen to any of my brother's songs or watch any of my brother's plays. But I laughed more, even if I felt unhappy, I could pretend to be happy. My self-deception reached its peak at that time, but I haven't learned how to heal myself. My sorrow has been accumulating, but has not been eliminated. Until the third year of high school, my aunt suddenly came back from Shanghai, and I held her at the airport, crying like it was when I was 15 years old. My parents thought that I missed my aunt too much, but in fact, it was just the sadness I had endured for 3 years.
It was the winter vacation. The second and last time my aunt and I watched my brother's movie together, it was still "A Chinese Ghost Story" and "The True Colors of Heroes 2". I found that I could finally understand the aunt's eyesight feeling when she first saw Ning Caichen. His elder brother's eyes were too pure, and that pureness contained too much hope for the future, for someone who had experienced that kind of hope and experienced Too many disappointed adults will be easily stung by that look. And Ajie’s tear-jerking end was accompanied by such a passage of "Days to the Future", but I only felt that it was a turnaround in two periods of life. The former was exhausting his innocence in a world full of filth. Struggling, the latter is "who wants to talk about the lost past", but it seems to talk about regrets in the world. This time, I shed tears before my aunt. The 18-year-old me leaned in my aunt’s arms and cried without image, while the 32-year-old aunt just cried silently.
A few days later, the aunt left again. When my aunt left, I realized that I only cared about my own sadness, but ignored the tiredness on my aunt’s face when she came back. She who likes to dress up didn’t even wear light makeup, and from beginning to end, the little uncle did not play. Called. From my mother's mouth, I knew that my aunt's factory had closed down, and my uncle owed a large debt and disappeared without a trace. I remember that was the first time my mother told me about grandpa and grandma. It was a very common "lalang" match in that era. Both were unwilling. Before the aunt was born, grandma didn't even want this child. . The eldest aunt has been very selfish since she was a child, and always knows how to beat the little reports of aunts and mothers, and she has been favored by her grandparents and grandmothers, which are not much parental love. My mother said that she hadn't blamed her aunt. Maybe people have their own instincts, but no matter what happens in such a loving family, unfortunately, it is more fortunate. She was fortunate that she was a much slower person than the children of the same age, and she did not pay attention to the affection for widowhood, and finally realized one day that she could already leave this home. The most painful is my aunt, who has been very sensitive and enthusiastic since childhood, longing for love, and knowing that it is difficult to get in such a family. The pre-modern style is even more conservative with his grandfather's military background. It is commonplace to be beaten when he was a child, and as long as he meets with his grandfather as an adult, he will inevitably have a fierce quarrel. Finally found a man willing to take her away from this home, but still did not end well. When my mother talked about her little uncle, she sighed, "Actually, he is a good man, who knows that after having money, hey. Your aunt must have paid a lot. She wants to put what she didn’t get in the family relationship. Find a remedy in the established family. Who knows, it hurts more seriously. This time your aunt came back, maybe it is to heal her injury, but your grandpa and grandma are all blinded to her. She doesn't care at all. She is completely hearted. She was frustrated. When I left, I gave her money, and she didn't want it. She said that after selling the house, she still had a surplus to pay off her debts. She thought of having a family, but she didn't expect that the family members would hurt her the most. I clearly remember that when my mother said those words, it was like something stuck in her throat, so hoarse was uncomfortable. "Actually, in your grandmother's home, perhaps no one has understood anyone, and no one has understood anyone. Perhaps you are the one who knows your aunt the best. You cried so painfully holding her at the airport... "
It turns out that my mother still thinks that my crying at the airport was all because of missing my aunt. It turns out that it is really so difficult to understand that there is no difference between people.
After work, I went to my aunt's city to find her. I can't say whether she lived happily or unhappy, but I just think she has become peaceful. We haven't watched brother's movie together again, and I'm afraid that when I am in my 20s, I will cry in her arms again, so embarrassing.
I just remember what my aunt said to me when I was about to leave, "After experiencing that change, I know that when a person really suffers mentally, there is not much that others can help. Maybe there is a homework support. , It will be better. Unfortunately, I don't." When the aunt said that she didn't even have a bit of hatred. If there is hate, it can prove that there is love. If there is no hate, it is really completely indifferent.
My mother said that I know my aunt the best. Actually, the aunt in my understanding has never had any troubles, always smiles, and only cries when I watch my brother's movies.
I don’t know if my elder brother understands that pain is always to be faced alone before anyone else. In my eyes, his eyes are always shining, watching everyone carefully, and then saying a word Words, or humorous enough to tease everyone present, or personable enough to make everyone feel just right and comfortable, and he himself either has a small smile on his lips or laughs with everyone. I still remember participating in the show of Lin Jianming. He still talked a little disdainfully and self-deprecatingly about his father, a well-known tailor who had made tailors for Marlon Brando. Lin Jianming evoked the memories of the dead six sisters, but he immediately felt that I want to shed tears. When my brother talked about his most yearning affection, he always thought of his aunt, and was even more sad. But that time, I cried loudly. He talked about his most frustrated days, both career and emotional failures, and went home with "Old Dreams Never Remembered" all the way back home, his mother's sentence "Son, if you are sad, I will be even more sad." That sentence made him completely broken. . He smiled and said, it turns out that my mother cares about me. He was smiling, but I saw tears in that smile. Speaking of friendship, he was so blunt, "I am making friends with you, but you are watching what I wear." Lin Jianming said from the side that many people who can chat can be friends, and my brother spit out a few words slightly " No, it's not..." But he didn't continue to explain. He is a person who has long understood the difficulty of running between people and the truth is hard to find, but he still communicates with people with the most sincere heart. He is a person who has been disappointed with the media time and time again, but he still can almost do it in every interview. Let me see his heart and lungs, heart and soul poured out. He is a person who knows that others have different values from his own, so he no longer reluctantly, no longer speaks, embarrassing others.
Chen Baozhu said that she loves her brother's Zhen most. I think that "reality" is the finishing touch to his talent and 12-point effort to become more attractive.
How I like him sitting between Huang Zhan and Ni Kuang. Like his more mature and self-comparable Chu Liuxiang, the experience and wisdom stretched by various life experiences at the age of 33 have enabled him to be the same as two "people". People like "Fine" talk about the world and the earth, the past and the present. Huang Zhan lit a cigarette for him, Ni Kuang pours wine for him, he was like a proud peacock, inadvertently shaking off a feather or two, but a trace of innocence like a first-born child flashed in his eyes, talking about chasing him. A girl for a long time, he just remembered very gently, "I don't have to get her, I just like her." Speaking of the actresses he has worked with, he held them to the sky one by one, but he absolutely guarded them. Follow the principle of sincerity, and stop. Speaking of the temper in the past, after a moment of fragility in his eyes, he insisted, "Every time I can get through that level, I will become a better Leslie Cheung." Perseveringly, as in the lyrics of "Silent Upstream" He who kept his tears moving forward and struggled with his destiny. With such "truth and truth", he cherished his words like gold at the farewell concert, and adhered to the "Silence is Golden" that he made with Xu Guanjie. The farewells were restrained and meticulous until "The Wind Continues To Blow". Tears, crying silently. "I hope that if someone asks about singers from the 7th and 80ths, you can gently mention my name." Gentle, how humble and humble as his love for that stage. Sister Xiaoyan once asked if he really had to design the angle of the shoulder strap slipping in the concert so as to be inadvertently beautiful and illusory, as the rumors outside. He is indeed a person who is demanding perfection in every detail, but when you look closely, it is not difficult to find that under his hard work design and performance, there is a kind of natural extravagance and freedom, which is like a mentality of the viewer. Once he mastered it, when to flirt and when to conquer, he seemed to have already calculated it naturally. It was a splash from the inside out, and it didn't care whether it was a certain action or a certain expression. All aura and temperament had been smooth as if they had opened up the two veins of Ren and Du, reaching the top. A beautiful young man who fell in love with someone who shouldn't be loved by the field of "I HONESTLY LOVE YOU". Even if he remembered the lyrics a little wrong, he turned around gracefully, like a king, and gave a gentle command to BAND, "I don't think it's perfect, ONE MORE TIME." Tsundere's narcissism brings out some childlike cuteness. I often think that watching my brother behave in the world, doing drama or doing CON, is like having a beautiful first love with a very good person, and that first love is always fixed, fixed when you bite down a piece of ice cream with him. The most beautiful moment. He could tell Zhou Huimin at a glance, suggesting that she put down her bangs to make her more beautiful, making her an instant hit. He is the actor who played against him in "The Wind and Moon". The emotional outburst was so serious that he had liver pain and shaking. At that time, he gently passed over and hugged his opponent until the opponent stopped shaking. He was a good opponent who was instigated by Chen Kexin’s relationship, and immediately called to confirm his love, whether he was Wen Nu or his little fan, himself. When she was not yet popular, she offered to visit the class and told her "The quality here is complicated, don't come, don't come." Compared to a good idol, she is more like a big brother with a "heart is more beautiful than a person".
I even like to hear my brother talk about his "Mahjong Sutra". He can put together the "outspoken" Carina Lau, the "cold and reticent" Faye Wong, and the "Peerless Allure" Brigitte Lin. Luo Wen sang like poetry with him, Ti Lung joked with him at the awards ceremony, Fa Ge was hugged directly on the stage by him, Lin Zixiang danced with him lively Monica, Star Master visited the orphanage with him, Wei Before the filming of "Happy Together", when Zai Du was still worrying about the same-sex theme "Who is a male or female", after spending the "AMEBA bacteria" incident with him in Argentina, he had a better understanding with him and won the most. Good hero. Uncle ANDY would be nervous to tremble from dancing with him. He really looks like an older brother. When men and women come in front of him, they will automatically become boys and girls. He loves him and is willing to love him. Even if he was emotionally injured, Maomao, who was a little awkward when meeting him, could be instantly brought to the situation of his girlfriends and girlfriends, rubbing mahjong for three days, and instead of being a lover, he got along at ease. His observation of people seems to be sensitive to art. He looks at you softly, and has quietly insighted into all your thoughts, and then calmly did some things that comforted the hearts of others. At the scene of "The White-haired Witch", I heard Brigitte Lin telling me that she is not young and she does not know where she is to hang Wia's sorrow. One sentence points out what kind of love Maggie Cheung hopes to have, because she is sometimes disappointed in life. Mei Gu cheered up, and even when Mei Gu would be jealous for him and other celebrities at the banquet, and left her jealous, he turned into more care for this closest confidant. When Maomao asked about Mr. Tang, he did not hesitate to praise this person who was already like a family member with him. He was a very good person.
If in the reincarnation of life, when I meet my brother's movie, I can always find a different self. Looking at his fashion, he was waiting leisurely for those who resonated with him in every reincarnation. Then, he slyly got ahead a little bit, so in that reincarnation, he was still ahead. In "Passion", he is no longer a young man who bid farewell to a white dress on CON and walked away in dismayed eyes, nor is he a cross between the flames, red lips and dancers on 97CON, just a gas field. Enough to kill the king of the audience. The roots of the hair remain slightly, the long hair is micro-disc, and the right cheek is inlaid with a diamond beauty mole, like the beautiful facial features in the sleepy eyes that have just woke up, the interpretation of the song is no longer so tight, but it is more smooth and smooth exit. When all the long hair is scattered in the air like the wind, I just feel that it is not CON, but encounters a beauty in nature that all returns to the original ecology. Especially when the most frequently heard melody of "Nongben Passionate" came out, he walked slowly among the sound and light, the stories in his eyes were slowly told from his mouth, and it was no longer the passage that passed away when he was young. The regret of love, but after the middle-aged experienced too much emotional exhaustion, all was relieved.
At the awards ceremony of the Top Ten Best Songs in 1999, he sang "Who Resonates". The screen played back the young him in the golden age again and again. He raised his eyes to see the youthful and energetic self and the one with himself In the golden age of coexistence, there was a slight sadness in their eyebrows that was not easily noticeable, and then they resumed their old smiles as the song continued. This place that is separated and reunited with him is his deep love and dedication. He once said that after the separation and reunion, he found that he could no longer leave it. However, his perseverance and deep love have become a weapon for the media and the public to hurt him. When he retired again, what flashed on his face was not the reluctance of being separated from it for the first time, but the tiredness and complete disappointment. "This society is no longer the innocence when we first entered the industry..." he said. He was also a lone man who insisted on pure art in the media, but he has always been as Li Zongsheng wrote in "Love Letters to Filmmakers", "Give up misunderstandings, hurt and give up blame." He knows that after he left. , How many people fell in love with him late, how many people loved him more than before, how many people gave him the most sincere affirmation, how many honors, came late. But the sorrow of the world always seems to be cherished even after it is completely lost, to make up for the loss that can never be returned.
I often look at him in everyone's memory, or maybe people who have been close to him, or people who have loved him for a long time. I put them together, but I still can't put together a complete him.
I really like a radio drama he did in 2000 that may not have been heard by many people. Between a man with a simple heart but considered a bit weird by others and a woman who looks weirder than him. A very incredible and pure love story. I always remember his two monologues in it. "At that moment, I discovered that if you have a very simple idea, if it is unreasonable in the eyes of others, they will think you have a problem." It turns out that it is so difficult for others to understand your thoughts." "It turns out that people can be so selfish. I seem to have seen my grandma stabbing Abba in front of everyone."
I remember these two In a monologue, I always think of what my brother said. I don’t think anyone knows me completely, or I don’t know myself completely.
Therefore, I will appreciate what a woman said: "If one day, my brother told me that he is not like what I wrote. I will nod to him with a smile." Everyone only owns one of his Side, the person closest to him may have the most side of him, but only he has a complete self.
He seems to be able to approach everyone, but there is a piece in his heart, perhaps no one has ever walked in.
When I was about to enter the spring of the 12-year cycle, my brother's appearance became more and more clear in my heart. This kind of feeling is just like watching him and Mei Gu sing "Fate" for the last time with tears becoming more and more difficult to control. This song is also a song in "LESLIE", and I think it is a kind of in itself. The symbol of fate, long after I bid farewell to my childhood, came to me again and again through my childhood years. It is an enviable feeling. This person is clearly in front of you, but when you see him looking at you with true eyes, you still feel very reluctant and want to cry.
People say that grief is divided into five stages. The first is self-deception, then the resentment is hard to calm, the stubborn resistance, and finally all thoughts are lost, and the reality is accepted. I often feel that I have reached the final stage, because I am no longer afraid of ghosts. I see zombies gnawing people, splashing blood, seeing grandma’s long tongue, and the head of the old Black Mountain demon is no longer afraid, but I am afraid to read "Liao Zhai" again. The story of "Zhu Weng" in "Strange Tales", life is impermanent, sorrows and joys are unpredictable, which makes me feel more terrible than blood. Therefore, I sometimes deceive myself and others, my brother said, you can live a plain life, but don't die with a plain heart. I use this little bit of self-deception to deceive others, so that I don't have to die of plain heart. Therefore, I am still looking at Ning Caichen, who has the cleanest eyes, and Nie Xiaoqian, who has the saddest eyes.
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