In those years, I was a very short girl

Emory 2022-01-20 08:02:19

I have always wondered whether it was because I was short when I was a child.

I am really short, nicknamed "Cai Tou", and I am less than 160 cm in length. Whether it’s elementary school, middle school, Orsay cram school, intensive English class, or learning a musical instrument, I sit in the first three rows of all classrooms. Radio exercises are at the forefront, and sometimes the group dances are ridiculously wrong without knowing it at all. The people in the last row of the class stood up occasionally to talk to me, and I had to raise my head to meet them face to face. Later, when kissing a boy, you have to stand on a higher step, or the other party bends his knees and squats very accommodatingly before you can get there.

But God never treats anyone wrongly. Because of my shortness, the world I see is different from others—the perspective closer to the earth and the child, even the flower bones look bigger. A more focused perspective. For example, most of the time in school, I don't know what happened in the back rows of seats.

So fortunately, like the heroine, during the twelve years of studying in China, I shouted to stand up, be the monitor, and get the "three good" with the most votes in the class almost every year... In fact, I, except for studying and taking exams. Will not. In addition to scores and awards, what else can give me affirmation? At the time, no. Almost all happiness, anger, sorrow, and happiness revolve around scores. "Girls who study hard" are probably the most boring and useless group of people in the world...

So when I watch "The Girls We Chased Together in Those Years", I am obsessed with youth and love and chasing me towards you. I didn't have a deep understanding of the feelings. Whether those boys were fighting or pistoling, they had nothing to do with me. I only saw Shen Jiayi, a girl with a ponytail, crying on the side of the road with her hands on her knees after the entrance exam: "I can only study...I can only study...From middle school to high school, I can only study...but It's still not good at the exam..."

I was crying while watching this passage, and it was extremely uncomfortable. The best at exams, but also the most afraid of exams-if you fail to do well, is it worthless? I used to be "Shen Jiayi" for a long time. I started tasting the sweetness of "fiction" when I was very young, but I didn't get the ability to distinguish between "true" and "false". As a result, swelling conceited emotions and the fear of failure/frustration that accompany them. To this day, I still have nightmares of improper performance on the test or forgetting to do my homework. How is it, isn't it embarrassing?

Another plot that impressed me deeply in the movie was that everyone sat on the beach and talked about their plans after graduation. When it was Shen Jiayi's turn, she said, "I don't actually have much imagination about my future." Her two eyes were empty, facing the sea with endless confusion. Tomorrow will take care of itself, really? I

don’t know what is waiting in front of me—it’s also the state I was in when I chose to go abroad. At that time, I just thought about going to the United States, going to the United States, going to the United States, receiving a freer and more challenging education, and going to the United States to get out of our own safety zone. More precisely, it is a conceptual pursuit. I don't know what to do after I go. It's a luxurious adventure to hand over the unknown self at the time to the unknown self in the future.

(When I was studying, I was facing the books all day, and I didn’t have time to think so much...) In the

same scene, Ke Jingteng said, “I want to be a very powerful person. Let this world be a little bit different because of me. ." That is another answer that young people have for the future. There is an unstoppable anger, which reminds people of Tianze Shengji, my favorite youth film actor.

Do I have become that way? I can understand examinations and colleges as "purposes" from the past, but now I understand them as "means", and dare to answer the instructor's question, "You want to be in ten years from now." For the question of “Where to do”, plan your own life blueprint-no longer be a “Shen Jiayi”!

However, this "I think" has a crazy element in it, and it doesn't follow the trend. When chatting with her mother, she always said: "The most important thing is that you have a happy life. I want you to be an ordinary person." Ordinary person...this is the hardest thing for me to do...Mom, I'm sorry...though It is easy for me to enjoy happy satisfaction because of small things, but I am not willing to be ordinary. I don't want what others want. I want to pursue my own goals. So I would say, "Your daughter is running 5000 meters, others are running 800 meters, please trust her."

Sitting in the first row, concentrate on what you are doing, and don't make unnecessary comparisons with others-let me continue "Short" go down.

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A professor from Harvard Business School advised his students in the last class before graduation: If a few years later, you receive an invitation from your alma mater to ask you to return to school to participate in a class reunion held every five years, that is a dangerous thing. You don't want to go. He believes that the

party will force you to look back at your achievements in just a few years after graduation, and to judge your achievements based on the standards of your classmates, rather than your own career goals and success standards. And income. You silently calculate the gap between yourself and them. The whole classmate will cause you great anxiety and vain worry about professional success and personal value. To make matters worse, the assumption of a reunion scene in 5 years will affect the decision you make now. You may adjust your career to gain outstanding qualifications in a short period of time, or make a lot of money soon so that you can dress well. Attend a class reunion; you will shelve the dreams that you have planned for a long time but will not be realized right away, and engage in the kind of work that you don't actually like, but makes you rich and affordable. He doesn't want his students to lose their career goals or turn a blind eye to what they really want.

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  • Principle: Jerking off right in class! I have been a teacher for so many years. Have seen strudents who cheat, get into fights, blackmail or even those who beat up teachers. i have seen all kinds of problematic students, but just no perverts like you!

    Ching-Teng Ko: I didn't even ejaculate.

    Principle: And that's an excuse!

  • Ching-Teng Ko: I'm not interested in boys. I'm not interested in girls either.