Do you long to be redeemed, or do you want to be the savior?

Mike 2022-01-24 08:01:37

Is Miryang’s question about religion? Not only.
Because it does not point the finger at the problem at God.
What it points to is people, those who have converted to religion, and human nature.
It wants to explore, is hidden behind those or forgiveness or gentle or kind of face
in the end is a humble admirer, arrogant or self God.
In fact, sometimes, the two are really hard to distinguish.

That's the case with Shen Ai.
After her husband died in a traffic accident, she took her son to live in her husband's hometown.
This was her husband's last wish, to go back to the country to live a peaceful life.
But then the film revealed a clue that her husband betrayed her during his lifetime.
But she still insisted on this last wish with a deep affection beyond common sense.
In this process, her moral status was quickly elevated.
She is from a big city, elegant and educated, but she is very reserved and cherishes herself.
As soon as she appeared, Shen Ai declared her existence in the small town of Miryang in a solitary, clean and white image.

Seeing this, I thought of a sentence that Maugham had said a little bit mean.
"Women always like to be magnanimous when the man who hurts them is dying. This preference makes me unbearable.
Sometimes I even feel that they want men to die soon, just because they are afraid that the performance of this good show will be delayed for too long. "After
this seemingly noble and affectionate act, perhaps the complacency of occupying the highest point of morality is hidden.
Behind the pain and strength, there may be hidden intoxication and obsession with the tragic role of his own director.

Shen Ai has always been obsessed with this kind of performance, and her existence has always been based on the performance of God.
From the beginning, I came to Miryang to enter the church to visit the murderer who killed his son.
She has always been deeply obsessed with her role as a forgiver, a strong woman with tragic beauty.
She firmly shaped this role in the eyes of others, a role almost equivalent to God.
So when the murderer said that God had forgiven me and I was at peace.
This sudden grab of God that she is confused, cruel pointed out to her she was just a poor copycat version of God
and no one needs her superior forgive the fact that
she began to realize how his play is full of loopholes , Which made her whole existence collapse instantly.

So she began to express her resistance to this higher God with blind revenge.
She wants to prove that if I am not God, then this true God is not much better.
She began to disrupt the gathering, lure pastor, do anything
she wants to destroy everything seems beautiful and harmonious appearance, to prove illusory God.
If she can't prove herself by catering to the good, then she must destroy it.
When she could no longer play God, she began to play Satan.

Don't be an angel of light, but rather be a demon.
This is strikingly similar to the story of Satan in Christianity.
Once, Satan was also a bright angel who saw himself as God.
From beginning to end, what remains the same is her obsession with acting as God, no matter if it is a white god or a black god.
Finally, when such self-directed and self-acted tragedy reached its peak, she opened her own artery.

The scene was extremely deserted, and she was determined to watch the blood gurgling from her wrist.
She seemed to suddenly wake up under the faint blue light, that her life was about to end, and she was about to die in such silent darkness.
At that moment, in the moment of facing death, all the roles were stripped, and she finally realized the importance of life.
She stumbled into the street, caught every pedestrian passing by, and asked them to save herself.
At this moment, she realized that she was the one who needed to be redeemed, not the savior.

At the end of the film, she quietly cut off her hair in the mirror.
Did she really realize this, I don't know.
The film has no answer, just slowly turning to a ray of golden sunlight in the corner of winter.
This shot is so quiet and poetic, with sunshine and joy, no good and no evil, no joy and no worries.

Staring at the ray of sunlight, I was suddenly moved and wanted to cry.
Perhaps I understand what is God and what is true forgiveness and salvation.

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