Author unknown
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my home in Brighter Summer Day, I am here to work and live. Something happened here before. Our good brother Mao Wu stabbed his horse here.
Later, a classmate of Mao Wu's classmate went out from Guling Street. Yang Dechang studied computer in the United States for a master's degree. Because of an accidental reason, I changed my career and made a movie. In 1991, Student Yang put some stories about our Guling Street on the screen.
I have seen this movie called "Guling Street Juvenile Murder Case". The film was nearly four hours long, and many people said it was bored. After I saw it, my chest was tight, due to lack of humanity.
After graduating from Tamkang Normal University, I returned to my hometown of Guling Street and became a young educator in Jianguo Middle School. The scene of Yang's movie was actually set in Tamkang Middle School.
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middle age, I found that among all the teaching references, the most precious thing was the copy of this film in my mind: every paragraph, every character, every frame, every line .
I often think that if I go back thirty years and let me go back to Guling Street, this film might become my local history and personal history. I can get to know every family, every social class, every youth gang through it. It is my teaching tool, my real-life enlightenment reading, my guide to interpersonal communication, and my thought walking map.
My homecoming may be like a revisit, or, more like a night walk and sleepwalking, my memories and guesses about the past will accompany me like a ghost. When I pass the lotus pond nestled by young couples in the moonlight, the golden shooting range of weeds in summer, the lights of the classroom at night, and the movie studio next door, there may be ghosts
in my ears. Affectionate poem: Old age is my notebook. Youth is my memoir.
You are my giving up and chasing, you are my happiness and pain.
I am full of juvenile blood, so I added two to five. If you don't succeed, you will become benevolent, and passion will water the evergreen tree.
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As a new faculty member, when I was introduced to the podium of Jianzhong Auditorium by the principal, the school uniform of the students was no longer a military uniform. It was difficult for me to distinguish who came from the small park and who came from 217.
For these children, do they still read "217" as "two abductions"? ——The children of the dependent villages, who didn’t know the digital pronunciation standards of the signal soldiers?
When I stand on the podium, I often subconsciously stare at the school badge on their chest. Are there 86,089 classmates among them? Student 86089 stabbed his horse to death with 7 knives on Guling Street at night.
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More than thirty years later, because of this movie, those children who studied here in 1960 are mentioned again. I know that among the school children, they will be talking about their origins and backgrounds, and the Romance will be published in various versions. In fact, because I have lived in this area since I was a child, my young colleagues used to ask me curiously about the truth and truth, and I always smiled apologetically and said that I knew nothing.
The night department of the
48th class of the Republic of China and related people are often the cases they use to analyze the principles of pedagogy: No. 86089, classmate Zhang Zhen. The nickname "Primary Four": The scores of other subjects in the senior high school entrance examination are all over 90, and the Chinese language that has always been good only has more than 50 points. After Zhang Bang, his father asked to check the dossier but failed. Whether the dossier was wrongly approved is still a pending case. The student is relatively withdrawn, autistic, reluctant to speak, and has the typical symptoms of psychological weaning: long-term indulge in delusional thinking, and build his own emotional relief space with private words. Its moral perfection spirit of saving the world and helping people may induce strong paranoia and violent tendencies when out of control.
Student Wang Mao. Nicknamed "Little Cat": Its musical ability is composed of three aspects, (1) the sense of tune, the ability to distinguish the characteristics of the melody. (2) Musical appearance, that is, hearing that can reflect pitch and intensity at will. It can reproduce the melody that has been heard, and realize the transfer and conversion between hearing and vocalization. (3) A sense of rhythm. Sensitive and accurate reproduction of the time relationship between notes. Student Wang Mao is born with the absolute pitch and amazing musicality that many big musicians lack. ——Because the left hemibrain is underdeveloped, its limb function is not well coordinated, and its characteristic is low hands-on ability. ——If Xiao Si understands this, he won't let him repair his father's radio.
Xiaohu: Repeater. Varsity basketball player. His tenacious and independent personality also has an extremely emotional side, often falling into extreme depression because of the frustration of something, and his personality is completely depressed. As an adult, he becomes uncontested and chooses a lifestyle of giving up.
Xiao Ma: Interim student. The son of the Taipei Garrison Commander has a respectable family environment. His life values are extremely vague, manifested as extreme self-centeredness and a tendency to discriminate against women. But at the same time, he was both chivalrous and attached great importance to friendship, which gave rise to real grief after the incident occurred.
Slippery: A pretentious opportunist, a cruel fire became a turning point in his life.
Two: an amateur singer who loves the limelight and is soft and pretentious. Living in the shadow of his elder brother for a long time, he is fierce inside, strong outside, hesitant and fearful in crisis. Perhaps, like the slippery head, it needs an opportunity to complete the qualitative change.
Airplane: a dull, honest and good student. Followers and bystanders of the juvenile group often participate in the action after the end of the action.
Briefs: A "little book" obsessed in the old book fair on Guling Street. No personality is his personality, and he has the hope of becoming a collector of rare books.
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Honey: Once full of brave youthful spirit. Have the temperament of advocating freedom, obsessed with adventure, and often have a sense of loneliness that is out of step with the times. An accidental literary reading completed his personal ideological enlightenment, and since then he has advocated the image of "lone hero".
Shandong. Its personal image determines that it will always exist as the opposite of Honey. Photophobia, gloomy personality, ambitious, unscrupulously used to grab power and wealth. She is dedicated and affectionate towards women.
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——In the faculty's office of Jianguo Middle School, the discussion about youth education has become my colleagues' daily homework. If we follow the temptation and teach students in accordance with their aptitude, could these children be on the right track that has been carefully designed? If our predecessors have devoted more attention and vigilance, are there things that can be avoided forever?
I am not involved in the arguments of my colleagues, but I sometimes listen. I found out: There is one case where it seems that a prescription cannot be easily prescribed. In these personal files, it seems that the name of the deceased was intentionally omitted:
Also, Xiao Ming.
"Youth is extremely hurtful" (middle)
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My pedagogical and sociological common sense tells me that the socialization of people is accomplished by three aspects of education and influence: the family is the cradle of socialization; the school is the society The palace of transformation; neighborhood society is the arena of socialization.
I remember that when I learned this chapter, I couldn't help but sneer.
The little four comes from a proper family. His father is an honest civil servant. When Primary 4 was found to be punished by the school for colluding with classmates to cheat, Primary 4’s father naively argued with the dean of academic affairs, reprimanding him for being unfair, causing Primary 4 to be severely punished and a serious offense. Then he enlightened Primary Four:
"Reading so many books is to understand the principles of being a person and doing things; if in the end you can't bravely believe what you are doing right, what's the point of being a person?-I hope this will encourage you , Not a blow.”
When Xiao Si was worried that their father and son would be criticized by their mother, his father actually exclaimed in Cantonese in the tone of a friend, “It’s so troublesome if you don’t have a spring bag”-at that moment in the movie theater. I am really touched.
However, his father was summoned by the Security Headquarters to interrogate his remaining teachers in the mainland and detained for one night on suspicion of a "bandit". After being implicated and dismissed, his temperament changed drastically. Become cowardly and nervous. When Primary Four was expelled by the school for another violation, his father still called it "unfair," but he began to beg the school for another chance. The angry little four smashed the light bulb in the teacher's office with a bat. It was a repressive resistance, a home run that stunned adults.
Fathers, you lost.
School education should be the development stage of students' moral consciousness. And Jianzhong is by no means an ideal health paradise.
I remember two meaningful details in the movie: the
dean of academic affairs said to the old man of the studio doorman who came to complain: "Our principal emphasizes the free development of student personality, and never closes the school door." In
class, the little cat with a hippie smile was caught. The Chinese teacher called to the podium: "Don't you like the word'I' very much?-write it a hundred times."
The neighborhood society of the little fours is ridiculed by the neighbor's fat uncle, and his father's classmate Wang Gou's sophistication and shrewdness .
Xiao Si had a chance to teach the drunken fat uncle, but when he slipped into the ditch, he helped rescue him. The way that Uncle Fat later repayed his favor was to introduce Xiao Si's father to help others handle the business of exporting green fruits. ——Perhaps, in the eyes of Xiaosi, this is another step for his father to compromise and mediocrity.
Another neighborhood society is the film studio opposite Jianzhong, where the pupils often skip classes to play. Here they have met the little stars who are adored and proud, and the director who welcomes the proprietress. When I went there for the last time, the director asked Xiao Ming, who had come to audition: What about the girl who came with you? ——Cry when you want to cry, laugh when you laugh, it’s natural——
The little fourth who is suffering from a broken love interrupted him roughly and shouted the most deafening anti-educational line in the film: "Nature?! You Lianzhen" You can’t tell the fake ones. What movie are you making? What are you making?"
Compared with the lessons of reality, the education of the family, school, and neighborhood is so pale and weak. Therefore, when I saw Xiaoming’s parents crying in the courtyard in the movie, and when I saw Xiaoming learning about Honey’s death from a young nerve, I walked slowly back to my mother in silence and picked up the needle and thread. I couldn’t help thinking. the Yang Mu "miserable three guilty" in the verse:
silence, heard the woman next door to call the dog in the
men stoically name of a needle
them in life. "I'm living"
I said: Although I don't know why
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In each class, basically it can be divided into two forces. One who worships the power of his father's generation, the other believes in his own strength. Basically, the surrounding two forces have gradually united into a group of people, and fire and water are incompatible.
Pay attention, in a small junior high school class, all the power games in the adult world are often previewed. They may even have peace talks, cold wars, honeymoons, unwritten principles of peaceful coexistence, happiness after alliances, and secret confrontations.
When Xiao Ma joined the shift, I noticed Xiaohu's hostile and wary eyes. I often watch this rehearsal with cold eyes. In fact, I can predict the outcome of the fight. After they graduate, this situation will happen more frequently. The term "civilian consciousness" is itself a luxury. Three feet of freezing is not a day's cold. Behind every victory, there is a deep background.
Maybe I should organize the same two parties in my class to convene a roundtable meeting and tell them to intrigue, intrigue, do everything, and deliberately deliberate. This is a man's game. There should be tough dialogue in a male society, but it is best to presuppose a relatively fair competition.
I am apprehensive about the talks I envision. I am a sober realist, but I often act like a naive idealist.
According to the German Max Weber's theory, wealth, prestige and power are the stratification standards of society. I should try to make them understand, this is the truth and the answer. If you cannot change it in the future, at least you should learn to get used to it and accept it now. We should be able to understand: Why would Xiao Ming follow Xiao Ma instead of Xiao Hu and Xiao Si, or even slick? Why do the enrollees after the entrance exam hold a list full of care recipients when they enter the admission hall?
I often wonder, why did my teacher hate cheating in the examination room so deeply?
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I like to watch my students fight. When they were carrying bats and bricks and rushing wolves in the corridors of the teaching building, I often passed by them casually and did not discourage them. Occasionally, one or two kids immediately stand at attention when they see me: Hello, teacher. I nodded with restraint, and then he continued to rush through with his Japanese-made dagger with teeth and claws.
They should learn to frame. Early learning is better than late learning. In the future in the Legislative Yuan, they will continue this game in the election battle. And now, it's just time to warm up.
I think of the battle between Skipper and Xiaohu on the side of the basketball court in the movie. Xiaohu was actually fearless at the time. He actually possesses the qualities of a student rogue leader. Calm and composed, even appearing so absent-minded when the enemy is in front of him. When he wakes up and prepares to respond, the opponent's muscles should be tightened immediately.
And I noticed this guy in a black No. 9 jersey. His patron is the gang on Nanhai Road. With a faint smile, he persuaded Xiaohu, and then slammed into Slick's lower abdomen, and then crackled and slowly began to slap Slick with small slaps. The intensity was not great, but it was controlled so that he could show extreme contempt for his opponent. , It can destroy the opponent from the will, so that it will collapse little by little from the body to the will. This is a very common foreplay in student fights, a very impressive tease and excitement.
I know that at the middle school and Xiaoming’s tryst with Xiaoming, Huatou was besieged by 217. When his companion rushed to rescue and grabbed a child from a Hubei-born dependent village, Huatou also slapped the child in the face; and later, On the day Honey returned to Taipei, she slapped the little fourth who was dating Xiao Ming in the ice fruit room of the small park, but he regretted it afterwards.
In subsequent fights and revenges, this kind of carelessly underestimating the opponent's role is often the fastest to die. -"Don't insult your enemy", young people often don't understand this truth.
(cont'd.....)
"Youth is extremely hurtful" (Part 2)
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I have a senior who once recommended this movie to his younger brother, and the latter regarded it as a lifetime gratitude one's gift.
Mainland writer Wang Xiaobo, winner of the 13th and 16th "United Daily News" Novella Award, said: It is a lucky thing to have a brother.
How many times have we benefited from our elder brother in our growth?
When Xiaosi wanted to compensate for the plane's bat and turned to his elder brother and elder for help, the elder and second child gave him 70 yuan silently. When Xiaosi asked about the origin of the money, the second child replied: Don't you want it? Don't ask if you want!
When Xiao Si stole his mother's watch and went to the pawnshop, the second child was asked suspiciously by the elder sister, and again went to the billiard room in Shandong silently. When he won the money and was going to redeem the watch, he was found misunderstood by his parents. . Xiao Si witnessed a scene where his elder brother was beaten by his father: shameless, not promising!
Sure enough, the moral guilt was unconsciously reflected in the behavior of Xiao Ming stabbed to death by the fourth child. I was surprised to find that Xiao Si cursed Xiao Ming with the same words as he stabbed the dagger: shameless, not promising!
When Pierre in "War and Peace" met Honey, who had been a boring "running" career, it gave birth to Honey's fatal complex of heroism.
Sure enough, when Honey, wearing a navy blue "Republic of China Navy" uniform and exaggerated sailor flared pants, returned to Taipei from the south, I found with envy that his conversation began to become poetic and philosophical, and his personal image changed unexpectedly. It has to be full of charm.
Sure enough, on the day of the Zhongshan Hall concert, he dragged his stumped leg and walked out like Pierre and Quixote from the crowd standing in the sound of the national anthem. ——After he walked out this time, he never walked out again.
When Honey and Xiao Si met in the ice shop, as a bystander, I immediately realized the danger, but at the time I could not clearly judge what the danger was. Now I understand that what I clearly saw at that time was that his soul was beginning to be absorbed by the small four. If this encounter can continue to be written down, the two of them are very likely to become a pair of sympathetic friends. One may see from the opponent the shadow of himself when he was younger: obsessed with emotional dedication and moral self-salvation; the other may find his own personality ideals from the opponent, and even the loneliness and hesitation characteristic of tragic heroes.
Sure enough, when a devout Christian, the second sister Zhang Qiong, who has always cared about P4, tried to listen to P4’s victory, he encouraged him: Do you care too much about others, do you only think about yourself and lack dedication? The fourth answer: Honey, I also said this. Honey, a good friend.
Sure enough, in Xiao Ming's final confession, he said: Only I can help you, because now I am Honey.
I hope to warn my young colleagues in this way: As educators on Guling Street, you should get to know them as soon as possible, and be familiar with them, who are their personality idols, and who are their spiritual father and brother. ——The past stories on this street are all lessons of blood, and we should be careful not to try to be a savior and preacher, but a silent observer and counselor.
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This is the "Juvenile Murder on Guling Street" in my eyes. It expounds far more than just a love murder, it is so thick and broad, it is an encyclopedia covering pedagogy, criminology, psychology, sociology, culture, anthropology and religion.
It has never been a gospel for the compassionate, but a document on the history of growth.
Perhaps, for individuals, it is still a memoir that records when old age began, a memoir that recalls when youth died.
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There is such a girl in all middle schools. She may not be the most beautiful and purest, but she has an irreplaceable status. She is the only school flower in this school.
She was hated by other girls, disdainful and contemptuous, and cursed by boys in the most nasty language. However, it is strange that she will enter every boy's spring dream, she can be destroyed, because she is the most shameless.
Without exception, such a girl, such a girl in every middle school, are not ostentatious and frivolous. She walks with her head down and doesn't talk to anyone. In the gaze of the whole school, she walked by like a sinner.
She obviously matured earlier than other girls. The body is full, when she walks by, there is the smell of Liushen toilet water in the summer corridor. The experienced brothers will quietly remind her to pay attention to her walking posture, pay attention to her horoscope, twisted hips and waist.
She was fucked, she was fucked, this whore.
A group of people suddenly burst into presumptuous laughter. She stopped and turned her head, her eyes were ashamed and innocent.
Fuck, why does she look at me like this, why does she? This bitch!
——And everyone's heart shattered into pieces in that turn. Therefore, in that night's dream, she had to insult her again, tortured her, and tortured her until she shed tears.
There must be a flash of lightning that night, and a thunder must have struck, and all the perceptions of beauty and goodness seemed to be revived overnight. Her image began to become pure and noble like never before, not hurt by rumors, secretly exuding fragrance.
Maybe, maybe it will take more than ten years later, when you suddenly think of this little girl who has long forgotten, you will find that in fact, your later correction of her image is still a kind wish, a wishful illusion and imagination. You are still blinded by her performance. In your now experienced eyes, you are surprised to find that, in fact, all the rumors about her back then are likely to be true.
Her premature development is definitely not for nothing! All the puzzles are solved at once, everything has a background, and everyone has a background. In the lectures on educational psychology and adolescence psychology, she is a typical case: she comes from a complicated family, her father died early, her mother has a bad reputation, she encountered harassment and abuse in childhood, or There have been many experiences of being under the fence, which has trained her sophistication and vulgarity. She played with all the young people who fell under her skirt. The most fundamental reason was because she was seriously insecure. She had the gene for self-destruction, so she would fall and sink into self-destruction; and all her successful cover-ups came from Her self-protection instinct
-after adulthood, when we re-examine things through the representation of things, we will definitely find that even without verification, the rumors about her at the beginning are almost all true. Such a girl, she is not as bad as we thought at first, nor as good as we thought later, she just recognized her living environment earlier than us, she is far richer and more complex than us, and far more profound than us. And sober.
And if time goes back more than 30 years, when I am 15 years old, I still hope that I will fall in love with her, still sometimes full of enthusiasm and bravery, sometimes accompanied by weakness and shyness.
No matter what, let me like you. When you are 14 years old, when you and all the girls are 14 years old, you have acted as if you were 20. You have begun to have scheming and acting skills, and you have begun to learn to behave superficially. Also began to overdraw my youth and life. When you are 17 years old, you will already be a little mother; when you are 25 years old, you have begun to age quickly; when you are 30 years old, you have already begun to enter menopause. Regardless of this, let me like you so first, with a heart that is gradually shattering, and blood that is gradually falling to the freezing point.
In the classroom of youth, let me stare at you so obsessively, so that my whole mind is filled with your every move and smile. Outside the window is the fragrance of locust blossoms like waves, and inside is the scent of locust blossoms like waves.
(cont.....)
"Youth is extremely hurtful" (Part 2)
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Guling Street used to be famous for selling old books and ancient books. It first became a popular place for scholars. The Japanese who returned from the war often took furniture, antiques, calligraphy, and books for sale in the areas of Guling Street and Nanhai Road. It gradually became popular and grew in size. It was often crowded during holidays. In the mid-1950s, there were 40-50 used book stalls from Fuzhou Street and Xiamen Street to Guling Street. There were dozens of second-hand bookstores, and rare secret books and ancient editions were often released. At that time, the reputation of Guling Street spread throughout Taiwan, and it has also become a cultural attraction that many foreign tourists must visit. In the 1960s, the momentum of Guling Street reached its peak, and it seemed to be an important library and information exchange center in Taipei under the political and economic closed situation at that time.
After 1949, the second-hand book market moved to the basement of Guanghua Shopping Mall, and Guling Street saw depression every day. In order to reproduce the style of the used book market, the municipal cultural department and the community have co-sponsored the "Revisiting the Old Book Town-Guling Street Book Fair" activity. Nearly a hundred book stalls were all at an unprecedented level. Mr. Cai, the owner of the first second-hand bookstore "Songlin Bookstore" on Guling Street, also tried to walk from the gloomy hall to outside the house on several occasions.
I live in the Taipei Teachers' Association near Guling Street. When I wandered to Guling Street at night, it had become so narrow and remote, even a little dark and gloomy. There are few pedestrians, and the street lights are faint. Four or five hundred meters from beginning to end, there are only four or five bookstores left, all of which are dilapidated. Some are just the "Science American Language" that can be seen everywhere, and some signs such as "Fuzhou Snacks" and "Sanyang Electromechanical".
I tried to find records in old newspapers about the youth gang that killed several people in Shandong. As a result, I read the news: On Christmas Eve in 1960, in front of the Guling Street Provincial Women’s Association, a case of many unidentified gangsters using a taxi frame to walk a couple of lovers, because the victimized couple shouted "Help" in the street. , The criminal team of the nearby Police Seventh Sub-bureau was immediately dispatched, and a couple was about to take protection, and Li Zhigao, who was suspected of obstructing freedom, was captured. The remaining criminals had drove away. According to preliminary investigations, for example, this was a case of a biological father who tricked his biological daughter under the age of 15 into prostitution in a special tea room, and another young man assisted his daughter in fleeing the sea of suffering, and went to Taipei to apply to the Provincial Women’s Association for mediation of marriage, but his father had many gangsters. The case of a man who wants to take away a woman and her lover. For example, Fang said that the facts of the case were very tortuous, and he is continuing to investigate and is liaising with the Pingtung Police Station to arrest the fugitives.
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My name is Hua Guangfu. In Yang Dechang's movie, I was called "Sliding Head", and I had soaked in Xiao Cui and Xiao Ming. In 1949, I was ordered to drop out of school due to cheating on exams and later became the young leader of the "Little Park". The most rebellious behavior in my rebellious period was betrayal: I was the first to have commercial awareness and was also one of the leaders of the society in the transition period that tried to operate as a company in practice. My main planning and management project was to organize concerts.
My father is the director of the Zhongshan Church Management Committee. He was dismissed for investigation and prosecuted because he was accused of indulging and shielding the use of political venues for commercial profit-making purposes, suspected of taking bribes, and being involved with triad organizations.
My men left me one after another. In the long summer vacation that followed, I was in painful introspection. I was admitted to a kindergarten school later. The next year I transferred to Tamkang Normal University, because I later realized that my education should not be children, but teenagers. After graduation, I became a youth educator.
My home is on Guling Street, where I work and live. In the summer of the 50th year of the Republic of China, our good brother Xiao Si stabbed his horse here.
This is the first minor homicide case in the Republic of China, and it is also a trivial incident in the history of this country.
Acknowledgments: the boss at home,
I hit this place without hesitation when choosing the font size of text before the "Four Little."
I looked at the children here one after another,
wondering whether she was this age, have such standing -
because Swan's daughter will inherit
every kind of quality of wading birds -
will have the same color hair and face,
Thinking about it this way, my heart beats so fast;
she is standing in front of me, a lively child.
(Ireland) Yeats "Among School Children". 1926
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A color of anxiety once rendered me walking
A lot of speculation on the road while you are in deep lane in the moonlight
quietly listening to the flute interlude
plane trees and a garden plot another plot of chrysanthemum little tired;
we gaze across the weary:
not strange nor familiar
(Taiwan) Young Shepherd "Among the School Children" 1975.12. Taipei
(end)
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I actually have a lot of thoughts about this movie Say, but I can't say anything, because I first read this film review. Sometimes this is true, and the film becomes great because of film reviews. It is as if shark fin is valuable because of its name, otherwise it is just a bowl of fans. For people who eat it, shark fin who is not told will not be any different from true fans.
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