There is a line in "A Beautiful City", which the protagonist said after exposing his pretending old friend:
"Stefania, you are fifty-three years old, and you are living a broken life like all of us. You should not be high above and despise everything, but should empathize with us. We are all on the verge of despair. What you can do is Look after each other, accompany each other, and make jokes."
This sentence pierced you and me, and also pierced Li Shin-ae (played by Jeon Do-yeon) in "Secret Yang". We pretend to be self-consistent in control of our lives, avoid despair, and avoid God's indifference.
Li Shenai asked: "What's here is sunshine, sunshine, what do you say?"
She turned a blind eye to the sunlight in her son's golden hair. She took her son out of the car to bask in the sun, but he hid in the shadows. The shadow metaphor is the part Li Shenai doesn't want to face from beginning to end: the true face of life, and the true face of herself. She forcibly dragged her son into the dazzling sunlight.
She wants to pursue the beautiful meaning of life and embark on the broad road leading to a bright future.
She is different from people in small places like Miyang, and different from Jin Zongcan (played by Song Kanghao). Jin Zongcan is cheap, wretched, embarrassed, and has nothing but a true heart. She despised him, and she despised the people of Secret Yang. She gave gifts to Jin Zongcan and the proprietress of the clothing store next door. Although her posture was graceful and decent, her body language couldn't deceive people: she kept backing away and wanted to end the conversation as soon as possible, and leave these people who are unworthy to surround her life. She didn't want to really blend into the Secret Yang, because she was different from them.
Is it really different?
She laughed at Jin Zongcan's vulgarity, but put a fake certificate on the wall; she described to her younger brother how she was loved, even if the other party knew the truth; she bought land and invested and called to let everyone hear, although she was about to run out of ammunition and food.
But she doesn't think so, she is a person who wants to pursue the beautiful meaning of life. As a result, she continued to construct her own beautiful illusion in the eyes of others. When others believed, she also believed. For this false beauty, she even took advantage of her son: he recorded his reciting composition complimenting her mother, and jumped up and cheered loudly. At that moment she was very proud, but not for her son, but for herself. Her son's article made her such a mother and such a woman more beautiful in the eyes of others.
This is how the tragedy arose.
She only knew that she was looking for beauty, but she didn't know that behind this motive was a kind of "override". What she wants is to be above these ordinary people, above the truth of life, above the essence of life. Just as Jin Zongcan didn't understand the romantic meaning of Mi Yang, she cast a contemptuous look at him. That is the essence of her life. This is boring, unbearable, and meaningless in her eyes.
"What's here, it's sunshine, sunshine, what do you say?"
However, being above the essence of life is an extremely terrifying thing.
Because the essence is God.
God quickly retaliated. Its revenge is extremely fierce, always stabbing that knife when Li Shenai is dressed most beautifully and in the best mood. When Li Shenai drinks and sings with friends who like and admire her, and taste the most beautiful moments in life, her son is kidnapped. What makes God even more vicious is that its revenge is not to bring disaster from the sky, but to bury everything in the dark karma. It's like Li Shenai was crazy because she couldn't start the car, only to find that she didn't push the gear to the parking gear—everything was caused by her.
Li Shenai is too committed to creating a false appearance, thus neglecting his responsibility as a parent. He threw his son on the street to talk with others, and threw his son at home to have fun with others. And the death of her son is also an inevitable part of her participation. She flaunted her wealth to the people around her, causing her son to be kidnapped by the people around her. And the people around her, because the son also knows, so they will inevitably tear up their votes.
In the shocking scene, the kidnappers called and Li Shenai came to Jin Zongcan's door for help. When he saw him singing happily to the TV, Li Shenai actually left. She is afraid that asking for help will give Jin Zongcan a chance to walk into her life completely, or she is afraid that her image of disguising as a rich person will completely collapse, no one knows. But no matter what it was, she chose to leave, which meant that she still failed to grasp the meaning of the essence of life.
At this time, a lump of something unknown to her chest came up on her chest, which made her unable to walk with choking.
The next day, Li Shenai took out the remaining tens of thousands of dollars. At this time, her appearance was haggard and embarrassed. When the truth of life tore the illusion she created, her appearance would become haggard. And this is her true face. She took out the pile of fake money from the bag, and also took out all her hallucinations about herself.
After the son's funeral, Li Shenai squatted on the ground and asked Jin Zongcan a question:
"How could I react that way at the time? I killed him (the prisoner) with my own hands and didn't get rid of my hatred. Why did I avoid him when I met that person at the police station?"
Because she is used to pretending to be beautiful, she is also used to avoiding the truth: her husband does not love her, her family is indifferent, she is not rich, and she can play the piano well. Just as she had forgotten her ID number when registering the death of her son, she no longer knew the true self that she had overlooked and forgotten.
She stumbled out, and the unknown mass on her chest came up again.
However, at this moment, she raised her head, but saw that the lady of the drugstore kept giving her the belief in Amway.
The lump was suppressed once again, internalized in her body and soul.
"What's in here is sunshine, sunshine, what do you say?"
Li Shenai laughed that he had said such things. With faith, her life is full of joy. The joy became more and more full, and she was about to overflow, so she put on beautiful clothes again, holding the flowers invented by God, and greeted her once again the most beautiful moment-to go to prison to forgive the prisoner who killed her son.
Li Shenai never understood that she was not a devout believer, or even a believer. Her belief, the same as before, is only a prop for her to escape the essence of life. In the face of this truth, no one can escape. When a little boy ran into her house to go to the bathroom, she would still face the boy's back, tentatively calling out his son's name.
She never listened carefully to what God was saying to her, so she regarded everything she encountered as God's revenge. And this time, God retaliated against her fiercely. When she faced the prisoner and wanted to forgive him, she didn't expect that the prisoner had repented and had a fresh smile on his face. He also has faith, and before Li Shenai forgave him, his faith has allowed him to be forgiven.
Li Shenai threw away the flower invented by God and fainted.
After waking up, Li Shin-ae, who changed into a haggard appearance again, slapped the table in the church and started a duel with God.
The faithful came to the house to care about her, she drove them out; at the evangelistic meeting, she mixed into the backstage and played a song with "all false" lyrics when the believers listened to God. She seduce the pastor, and when the pastor rode on her, she stared at the sky and said to God, "Is it clear?"
But she still lost.
The faithful were not angry because of her drive, but held a prayer meeting for her. The pastor also woke up halfway through the journey, confessing his unscrupulous behavior. Li Shenai picked up the stone and threw it heavily at the room where God might descend. She went crazy and walked around the streets, talking about all the sufferings that God had caused her to encounter since she was a child, and raised her head and sneered, "I won't lose to you." Her ultimate provocation is suicide, which is firmly prohibited in the doctrine. However, when she looked at her bloody wrist and realized that death was approaching, she ran out and said to passers-by, save me.
"What's here, it's sunshine, sunshine, what do you say?"
Li Shen-ae, who woke up again, and Li Shen-ae who was reborn, still looked haggard.
When she came to a hairdressing shop, she didn't expect that the person who cut her hair was the daughter of the prisoner. With her hair cut in half, Li Shenai walked out and asked Jin Zongcan why it happened to be on this day and brought her here on the day of rebirth. She looked towards the sky and took a bitterly. It seems to be questioning God, how long will she be tortured.
That's it for now, God said.
Li Shenai passed by the clothing store and was stopped by the proprietress. When she first came to Miyang, she suggested that the proprietress should decorate the room brighter, and the proprietress mocked her for being self-righteous. But now, the proprietress who followed her advice enthusiastically got close to Li Shenai, thanking her for making the business better. Seeing that her hair was cut in half, the lady boss accidentally said something wrong. However, Li Shenai didn't mind, and laughed at herself with the proprietress.
God chose to forgive her at this moment.
The lump of things on her chest had already been vomited completely by her. That filth is what she once cherished most: her disguise, her contempt, everything about her that made her deviate from the essence of life.
The essence of life is eternal impermanence.
Only when a person frankly accepts this eternal impermanence, and frankly accepts that he is no different from thousands of people, who are all poor people who are small, ridiculous, tricked by impermanence, and deal with impermanence. When facing the sun, I found that there was something else besides the sun.
Li Shenai returned home, picked up the mirror and prepared to cut her hair. And Jin Zongcan, who has been with her silently, the man whose name is as bright as the sun, came to her, looked down at her, picked up the mirror, and asked her to face her. Do you think Jin Zongcan at this time looks like God?
And this time, Li Shenai did not let God down. Even if she was facing her true self, facing the truth of life and the essence of life, she was still willing to cut her hair more beautifully.
"What's here, it's sunshine, sunshine, what do you say?"
And love, friends.
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Note:
1. This article is an afterthought, not a film review.
2. The author is atheism. The God mentioned in the article is a metaphor for everything, including all matter and energy, space and time, natural laws and laws, and the things that connect these, whether we can understand or cannot Understand, I found it or not. If there must be a God, then everything is part of God, and God is the sum of everything.
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