She is lonelier than fireworks

Janie 2022-01-19 08:02:06

When I watched it, there was always a faint pain, the turbulent pain that could not be stopped, the pain of wanting to cry but not crying, until the end of the film, I finally couldn't help crying.
I was in junior high school when I knew this film, I saw this film was high school, and downloading this film was my freshman year, and it was now when I wanted to write something.

In the afternoon, I saw Xiao Han watching this film, and he kept sighing, feeling that he couldn't understand it.
In my opinion, it is actually just a catharsis of loneliness, wanting to prove love and being loved, even though she is a highly anticipated cellist.
In my opinion, no one does not need love.
Whether it is family affection, friendship, or love, there must always be the same psychological dependence on oneself to drive away the loneliness and emptiness of life.


My sister and sister have never guessed since they were young, have telepathy, can share anything and bear everything together.
I like the narrative style of the film, since they separated, they began to tell the lives of the two individuals.
These two completely different lives, the sister's personality is introverted and tolerant. After getting a lover, she finally chooses to be indifferent and leads a plain country life, and obtains happiness and peace.
My younger sister's life is gorgeous, and everyone looks up to her, but she has been tortured by an invisible sense of loneliness and can't breathe. She can only accompany the cello.
But the deep-rooted loneliness swallowed her. She was tired of playing and wandering day after day. She missed her sister, the one who was in love with her, the only one she felt loved her.
So one morning she suddenly appeared in front of her sister, and told her sister, I want to have sex with your husband.
In her opinion, that man is just a likable toy, a toy that they can share. She wants to prove that she can be loved and is loved by her sister just like before.
In the end, my sister compromised, the loneliness of one person, the helplessness of two people, and the pain of three people.
As a result, life could not continue in the end, and my sister could only return to her life again with the exhaustion of a whole body.

I remember that after they separated for the first time, my sister's personality began to become stubborn and weird.
Perhaps in her opinion, the cello robbed her of her happiness. In a cold morning, she even kept the cello frozen outside the house, full of hatred and unwillingness.
When she discovered that her body was abnormal, she once asked her husband if one day I stopped playing the piano, would you still love me?
The husband gave her an answer that made her desperate. Dancers and dances cannot be separated. If you don't play the piano, you won't be you.
But the second time she separated her sister and went back, she became more ill, and she couldn't even play the piano anymore, so all she got was a deeper loneliness.
The section where my sister received her husband’s call was very teary. She hung up and said, when you can play the piano, everyone loves you, and when you can’t play, everyone ignores you. It made me painful when I said this.
The recent events around me have always made me think about a problem. A person’s ability is also a part of a person, but when this person’s ability is lost, how much will be left behind? When she loses her original value to you, will you be the same as before? hehe.
When my sister's condition was getting worse, she kept yelling, I want my sister.
The words of anyone around her could not comfort her, but her sister was the only one who could comfort her in the end.
Although my elder sister loves her very much from the beginning to the end, she cannot replace her suffering. My elder sister also has her own life.
In the end, she can only disappear into the sky like fireworks, a moment of splendor, and eternal loneliness.

I know that many people like this film and will cry in it.
There used to be a friend, but now there is no sound training, but the reason we became friends at that time was very simple, it was this movie.
He told me that we will cherish each other forever, because we can understand the pain in each other's heart.
But in the end they still broke up, protecting themselves like hedgehogs, only hurting each other.
The warmth that could have been obtained was strangled to death by our own hands.
I suddenly remembered that sentence, I want a love that is lasting, tough, and never ending. I will give this kind of love first, and if someone gives it, I want it.
In fact, who would give it?

I really want to know, if the ideal is bitter, do we still insist on it?
If love is suffering, do we still have to pay?
If the pursuit is suffering, do we still want to be happy?
If being at a loss is suffering, should we still struggle?
If persistence is bitter, should we persist in it?
If the truth is suffering, should we still understand?
If being sober is suffering, should we still think?
Too many questions have been lingering in my head since I was a child, but I still can’t find the answer when I’m an adult. Maybe it’s still the case when I’m old.
Anyway, it was all in the end.
"What we have is more than everything we give."

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Hilary and Jackie quotes

  • Hilary: If you think being an ordinary person is any easier than being an extraordinary one, you're wrong.

  • Jackie du Pré: I'll play the fucking triangle, I just want to make music again!