The story is actually very simple. Roman, a photographer who was just over the past year, was told that he was in an advanced stage of cancer at the beginning, and it was about three months away. So from this moment on, he slowly started to do something, perhaps meaningful or perhaps meaningless, and then finally, facing the sea, he died slowly. When the sky faded in the last scene, the people on the beach gradually left, but he was lying down, who seemed to be dead and immobile, and the sound of the waves rolled up and down...not even when the subtitles were played. Music, only this is the sound of repeated waves, endless, but accidents make me dull and heard the last, because these time of Roman seems to be immersed in my mind, and it is difficult to leave this atmosphere for a while.
So after watching it at 5:14 in the morning, after watching Romance's dying time, I was silent for a long time. Survival or death, sometimes it is far away, and sometimes it seems to be touchable, very close and close. Life is actually just a process. In the process of coming and going, various program characters appear on the stage, and the moment they leave is always the same ending. It's just that when the ending came too hurriedly, and it came too unintentionally, I was panicked, and I could only rely on my intentional or unintentional intuition and instinct.
If one day you faint suddenly, what will you do when you are told that the malignant tumor on your body has spread after the examination? I don't know what will happen to other people, but I can only see Roman. He is a young man with fair skin, dark eyes and hair color, and a sharp outline. When he sat on a chair in the park and couldn't make a sound, everything in Zhou Zhou, the grass was fresh, the day was bright, and the birds and flowers were scented. Everyone was relaxing and comfortable in the sunny grass, but he alone could not help crying.
"I want to tell you I love you, but I'm dying." He practiced what he tried to say to his parents and sisters in the mirror, but he couldn't say it for some reason. The soft words that I wanted to say turned out to ridicule my sister unconsciously during the meal.
Wake up in the middle of the night for no reason, will hug his lover Sha Xia, it is not that I have never thought of telling him about his impending death, telling him that he loves him, but unconsciously always speaks irony, after intense sex Drive Sha Xia out of the house. Sha Xia is a beautiful young man with golden natural curls, but can't express his love, so when he drove him, while he was asleep, Roman couldn't help taking pictures of his sleeping face, perhaps as a commemoration, perhaps Nothing. When he saw Sha Xia lying under someone else, he was in a trance. And a few months later, Sha Xia's whole state became clear, which made Roman, who was dying and pale in color, was rare and full of life. He said, I want to have one last love with you, I want to touch your skin, but Sha Xia refused. Probably the more affectionate the person, the more difficult it is to simply classify it as a one-night stand, so even though Sha Xia's Adam's apple was moving up and down, Sha Xia refused his request for love. He put Sha Xia's hand on his heart with a sigh, and said quietly, you see, it's still beating.
Grandmother is the only person Roman says that he loves her and he is about to die. The reason for this is probably just because the grandmother's time is not long, and she probably understands each other's feelings better, and is more able to sympathize with each other. To the one I love, I can't tell my state, and I don't want to make them sad, so I can only be alone. One person, waiting for death to come. Everyone lives a bit of selfishness and selfishness, but when he is about to die, he can always do whatever he wants.
Looking at his old photos, there is a picture of Roman sinking in the blue water. The color is very beautiful, but it is also a sense of powerlessness in desperation.
Maybe people can’t see the past when they’re alive, but when they are sentenced to death and calm down, they will see things in the past over and over again. The self when I was a child, Sha Xia when I was a child, my sister when I was a child, those who have been in the dust for a long time easily think about it. The picture that can't rise is like looking back at one's own life. But what can be done? Like the last few flowers that grandmother gave to Roman, they withered and dried up. It doesn't matter if there is a hug, after all, it's just a person walking to the other side of death. The loneliness and depression after Sha Xia left about made Roman, who lived alone, sink into a valley. He was gloomy in the bath, and he slammed his head against the wall. From the moment he was separated by the shadow of death, the world’s spring was beautiful. Probably not related to him.
His sister wrote him a letter of reconciliation, and he finally called his sister Sophie back. He explained that he was a little bit hesitant about his recent encounters, but because his problem was not aimed at his sister, he wanted to stimulate her. At the same time of reconciliation, her sister's face in the bright sunshine was a little complicated, but she never expected that Roman was sitting in the shade of the grass behind her, looking at her, and taking pictures of her sister and children when she left. Photographs, as a photographer, this is not to keep the works or anything. Taking pictures of grandmother, Sha Xia, and sisters are all just to remember the people they love.
The candlelight from the church seemed to once again lead him to the childhood he and Sha Xia. He always remembered the years, childhood and death, bright and sad, not deliberately doing something morally right in the dying time, just want to do, just want to be good for the person he loves, even if he thinks about it. To linger without purpose and meaningless, perhaps this is the conscious choice after death has been cut on the skin and shuddered.
But at least, he didn't stop himself cowardly.
There is an infertile middle-aged couple who wants him to help get pregnant. He first refused and then agreed. Instead, he notarized the couple when they were two months pregnant, and gave his property to the unborn child after death, and at the same time decided that he would be cremated after his death. At this time, he cut his hair. Although his figure was too thin and his complexion became pale, his mental state was exceptionally better. Unlike the initial weeping, as a homosexual, he will have a child with his own blood, which left some hope in his last days. So even though the deadline is approaching, his eyes become increasingly clear and firm.
When he was lying on the beach unable to move and was about to die, the tears from the corners of his eyes were neither sad nor self-blaming, but rather a kind of unwillingness. The kind who are still young and haven't lived enough, haven't had a good relationship with their family, haven't seen the birth of a child with their own blood, haven't told Sha Xia that they love him, haven't done a lot of unwillingness. But just like that, a person facing the sea, died quietly, yet extremely quiet, with a smile on his face. Just as the lingering time lasted just over an hour, the narrator's tone was extremely quiet. Not deliberately inciting people's hearts, but always let people go to resonate at the right time. Roman's mentality is changing, and we are also changing together. Roman did not stop seeing his childhood and his own past through the mirror, church, beach, etc. We also watched in a trance together until the daylight on the beach gradually dimmed, leaving only the sound of waves and bursts.
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