Serious spoilers! ! ! !
A gay couple usually has only three options: 1. Be sneaky, pretend to be a straight man and start a family, and then have a couple behind the back of his wife, just like Jack and Ennis in "Brokeback Mountain". 2. Come out generously, in pairs, just like 10,000 and Jim Carrey in "I Love You Morris". 3. One doesn't mind the worldly vision, while the other doesn't dare to be himself. The two suffer together, just like the two male protagonists in this movie.
Miguel, a pseudo-straight man, chooses to get married and have children, and he does his due diligence to be a good husband. In the film, it can be seen that he still has a certain love for his wife, and even has a sexual desire for her, but this counts as Isn't it love? I don't know, I'm more inclined to think of Marilla as a family member, and I'm trying to straighten myself up.
However, it's so easy to straighten up, isn't homosexuality a disease? So when Santiago showed up, Miguel started to lose his senses, but he even pretended not to know Santiago in order not to expose his gay identity. Of course, Santiago is not a very unreasonable person, he can understand Miguel's difficulties. But two people clearly love each other but can't be together. He has had enough of these years. After an argument, the two go their separate ways, and only Miguel can see Santiago and touch him.
Finally, they can be together "open and aboveboard". This is the happiest time in their lives. They hold hands in front of everyone, they linger on the beach, and they play their own games. At this time, the first touching dialogue of the film appeared.
Miguel: Why don't you stay?
San Diego: Where?
Miguel: Here, with me.
Santiago: I've been waiting for this sentence for a long time, waiting for when you will say it.
Miguel: We couldn't before, but now we can. I think you are very happy.
Santiago: I'm happy when I'm with you, but sad when I'm not with you, there's nothing there.
Miguel: I swear to you
Santiago: What do you swear to me? ! don't you understand? Check us out! ! Check us out! !
Miguel: I know I can't promise you anything but I love you staying with me.
Hearing the last sentence, Santiago softened his heart. After all, he still loved Miguel deeply, and Miguel also loved himself. He was willing to accompany him like this, even if it was painful, even if it was never beyond life.
But soon, their secrets were discovered and even passed on to other villagers. Angry that his gay identity was about to be revealed, Miguel blamed Santiago's self-righteousness for painting him nude. He went to the beach to find San Diego's bad luck, and at this time the second moving dialogue of the movie appeared.
Santiago: I guess you would never talk to a gay like me.
Miguel: Go to hell! I told you not to draw me!
Santiago: That's my business, not theirs.
Miguel: Now the whole town thinks I'm gay.
Santiago: You're not gay, do you know why? Because you don't lie! ! You coward, thinking that being a man means getting married and having children! !
Miguel is angry: Shut up.
The two started fighting.
Santiago: There are a thousand ways to be a man, you are nothing, do you think you are a man? !
But how can a man defeat a ghost? ! (with humor), Santiago knocked Miguel out and said: Who are you lying to? ! You just can't accept the fact that you love me.
Miguel: I can't love you, Santiago, that's not right.
Santiago: Who said that, who the fuck said that? ! ! !
The two just hugged each other and lay on the beach, helpless and silent.
Yea, who ordered this. It is always difficult for people to escape from social and moral standards. Under such a cage, we are always cocooning ourselves, hurting ourselves and our loved ones at the same time.
Finally, the child was born. Slowly, the conflict began to intensify, and the townspeople did not want to accept Miguel as gay and began to dislike him. Even his wife doubted him, and Miguel began to question himself in pain, and he was also wondering what he should do. He told Santiago that he wanted to return to his normal life, and Santiago accepted his decision painfully, but only if he could not come to him again. Miguel finally confessed to his wife, but his son needed a family, so he told his wife that he just wanted to be with her, that it would be better if Santiago died, they could be together forever.
It seems that life is slowly returning to normal, the townspeople accept him again, and Marilla tries her best to forget the unpleasant past. However, the person Miguel loved in the end was Santiago. He put away his sadness and pretended to live happily, but from time to time he would secretly feel sad by himself and secretly think of Santiago.
Santiago's body was finally picked up, and Miguel hoped to bury Santiago in the sea. Even if Marilla decided to leave with her son, he still decided to take his own responsibility. After all, this is what a real man should do. . When he pushes Santiago's body out to sea, he turns to kiss it, the boat is rowed back to the shore, and the movie ends, a very beautiful end.
In fact, Miguel is selfish and timid but wants everything. He tied Santiago's body to the bottom of the sea, hoping to stay with it forever; he saw Santiago paint his picture, but painted his face so that no one could see it; he came out to his wife, but he also hoped to have a happy family. In all of this, the most painful thing is himself, he struggles, he is depressed, he is sad, and finally he wakes up, accepts himself, chooses to be himself, and takes responsibility for men. When his shoulders carried the weight he should bear, everyone seemed to understand his pain, his difficulties, and walked forward to walk with him, also with the help of his shoulders.
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