some thoughts

Trying to sort out where the huge loneliness comes from after watching [Disappearance]:

After the world's first "mutation" in the first part of the film, what brought Ah Xu was doubts about his self-memory, whether the memories he once had were all Nan Ke Yimeng (after all, there was something similar to "Dream-Reality" in [Melancholy Ⅵ]. Indistinguishable experience), and I have always been a person living in the current world, just amnesia. As the film draws to a close, everything seems to be over. Akatsuki and Nagato have a conversation on the rooftop. If they haven't read the original book, I think they are the only ones who know what happened. The "disappearance incident" happened and ended quickly in just a few days, which made Ah Xu have some doubts about the memory of the "adventure" in the past few days. Is this incident that only an ordinary person remembers without circumstantial evidence? It actually happened (still a change after waking up). Especially the eerily peaceful ending (notice Nagato's absence!) , and the tragic nature of the whole "disappearance". These two questions about reliability in Axu's memory (of course they are reliable, but as a third person who experienced this with Axu Nagato, must have the same feeling), formed the basis for my strong sense of loneliness.

After watching a work that I like very much, I will definitely recall the details of watching it. In the past, these works were all live-action movies, and it was the first time that such animated and feature-length (duration + viewing days) works were. When I look back on live-action movies, I think of images of the real world, and there will be an illusion that I have some connection with them; but this time, looking back at those images that do not belong to this world (the meaning of the second dimension), suddenly I feel like my feet are hanging in the air, and I feel like I have no one to rely on for this 42-day journey. Where am I?

About Nagato Yuki:

Whether it is the 14 chapters of the 06 edition or the three new chapters of the 09 edition, Nagato Yuki is the pinnacle of the SOS group, and the number of times she has used her abilities to solve problems is probably too many to count. And to me, her most powerful strength is to transcend time, whether it is [Bamboo Leaf Rhapsody] or [Endless August], she is standing in the position of an infinitely retreating observer, time In her eyes, the most awe-inspiring thing in human beings is nothing but a toy. Combining the expressionless and taciturn image, she is like a black hole in the entire TV part, absorbing information from the outside world at will, and without worrying about side effects, even people like Haruhi Suzumiya who do not know about Nagato's ability Dependent on her too. The simplest description of [disappearance] is to pull out the needle of the sea god. This is the same as the "completion in the brain" in the latter part of Axu. If he does not get rid of his dependence on Nagato Yuki, there will always be unfinished problems. So part of the loneliness after watching it also comes from this, we always have to move forward by ourselves.

As Nagato Yuki, my favorite character in film history, it is necessary for me to talk about my feelings for her throughout the viewing process. Presumably like most people, Nagato was a cult-like obsession while watching the TV section. She is omniscient and omnipotent, but she is also very cute. When the other four members of the SOS group were noisy, she read quietly by the side. I think she is both the background board and the most eye-catching one. This attribute probably peaked in [Endless August] and remained until [Sigh], [Day of Sagittarius], and [Someday in the Rain]. In this sense, [Disappearance]'s disintegration of Nagato Yuki can be called cheating, and it cannot fail to cause an emotional impact on the audience. But this change of opinion does not deny our true feelings when watching TV, because A Xu also sees it this way, and Nagato also sees it this way, everything is "eternal progress".

In the TV part, because she didn't know Nagato's true thoughts, the apparent "pure" covered up the real "impure"; when she decided to change the reality in [Disappearance], all the things swallowed by the "black hole" were released. The expression ("impure") that appears on the surface is precisely the realization of "pure"; and in the end, everything returns to the original point, and Akuro (and us) can see the innermost feelings from Nagato's still calm face. things, and thus achieve "pureness". However, the tragedy is that she caught up with everything but only took a small step forward for her own destiny (perhaps a tiny deformation means infinity for an absolute rigid body?).

If the TV part only provides us with a single powerful aspect of Nagato, and "disappearance" forces us to get rid of her worship, then Nagato was returned to us after "disappearance", but "powerful" does not Furthermore, we must rediscover our relationship with Nagato. Perhaps the greatness of [Disappearance] and Nagato Yuki lies in the illusion of tearing apart appearances, forcing us to touch the seemingly terrifying reality to create "Nagato", and the infinite future will be generated in it like a perpetual motion machine .