"After the Wind and Rain in the Hometown" is definitely a work worthy of repeated appreciation. I divided it into 4 sections to write, and I think these are the aspects that the author focuses on the most. They are all rambling thoughts, without logic, and there is no connection between each section.
"About Sebastian's emptiness and loneliness" On a sunny afternoon, the willful Sebastian was lying under the greenery, sipping fresh strawberries and hugging his beloved teddy bear, Aloysius. Why does Sebastian need Aloysius? Because no one can give him the spiritual companionship, it is a feeling that needs soft, warm, interdependent every moment. Sebastian's spiritual support objects are Aloysius, Charles and Kurt, but unfortunately he still can't get spiritual love, Aloysius can't speak, and can't communicate; Charles is cold and can't empathize at all; Sebastian originally needed Kurt to take care of him, but in the end it backfired . Charles and Sebastian have a close relationship, but when Sebastian begins to fall, he chooses to give up, choose to leave, even though Sebastian is so innocent and kind; even though the time they had spent together was so good. Charles says he loves Sebastian, but he doesn't even know what love is. Charles never seemed to care what other people thought, and like his father, he only cared about himself. He is always looking at the things around him with a cold eye, and sometimes his words are mixed with some condescending sarcasm. Sebastian cries that Charles is his only friend, and Charles knows it well, but he's still indifferent. Indifference doesn't mean ruthless, but it's really heart-wrenching... Kurt's situation is as dire as Sebastian's, the two of them depend on each other, Kurt needs material things, and Sebastian needs spiritual ones. Sebastian said that he couldn't live without Kurt, but Kurt only cared about his own interests. In order not to let Sebastian leave, he pretended hypocritically. Unfortunately, Sebastian had no choice. His fragile heart was firmly tied to Kurt, No doubt Sebastian knew exactly who Kurt was, but he couldn't do without him anyway. What does Sebastian really own? The father cheated, betrayed the faith, and abandoned the family; the mother was a devout believer, and her original intention was redemption, but her extreme desire for control destroyed everyone in the family; A bunch of vicious gluttons. Sebastian looked at the world of human beings, and I don't want to pretend to be mature. Cara said, "Sebastian only loved his childhood, so he would be attached to Aloysius and the babysitter."; like a child, he had "no interest in knowledge and scientific progress; no interest in political power; no interest in society in order to find the individual. There is no interest in adapting to the whole society..." Sebastian wants to have freedom, but is always bound. Physically, he has everything, but his soul is still lonely. No one really understands him. No matter how much wine Sebastian drinks, he can't fill his lonely and sad heart. This feeling of emptiness is cruel and real, and the echoes of loneliness reverberate around the beams. "Sometimes people think they've lost something, but in fact they haven't, it's just been replaced..." Sebastian will never come back, the summer that belongs to him, the Aloysius that belongs to him, will dry up in the glass and fade away in the stream of light Brilliant summer...
"About Platonic Attachment" I don't think Sebastian and Charles developed a love affair, it was just a short-lived, platonic sympathy that even they themselves didn't understand. As Cara put it, "I guess it's a romantic friendship that happens when you guys don't know what it means, but it doesn't last long." Yeah, all good things are fleeting. Emotion is so subtle, hazy like a layer of veil, you can see the outline of the sun, but you don't know whether it is the rising sun or the setting sun, it makes you feel that there is a bitter candy in your mouth, and you want to refuse it and play it hard. Maybe this is also love, but it's really hard to figure out. In the same era background, different situations, thoughts, beliefs and characters collide with each other. Whether it is friendship or love, the relationship between the two of them is destined to be a tragedy.
"About the freedom of being bound" Sebastian is suffocated by religious pressure. He likes drinking alcohol, which is a way of escaping reality. Unfortunately, what he sees is like hell, like an abyss. Unfortunate fate, good fortune made people, in the end, no one could get rid of the shackles of religion, Sebastian converted; Julia died alone; their father avoided religion all his life, but in the end, he could not resist the fear of death and the untouchability of the unknown.
"I have committed a sin, and that is fighting for freedom..."
"About Diversity of Humanity" Charles' indifference has been spurned by many people. But he was actually just a victim who grew up in an indifferent family, a poor man who could not get the love of his father. Although Charles hated his father so much, he was still subtly influenced, and behind him was more sadness and helplessness. Kurt is really hateful, but so pitiful. Like Sebastian, he has no friends, no place to live, and nowhere. It's selfish for him to depend on Sebastian, but it's not for fear of losing again. Humans have always thought of themselves first. This is the law of survival, and Kurt's behavior seems to me to be normal. Sebastian's mother is very controlling, but she's not bad, she's just afraid of losing her child like losing her husband...
Every character in "After the Wind and Rain" is diverse and three-dimensional, and you can always get a different experience from different perspectives. Although everyone has some shortcomings more or less, they can't be hated. I think this is what attracts me to "After the Wind and Rain".
Dedicated to the lonely, melancholy, freedom-loving soul, the sensitive, melancholy, lonely and empty Sebastian, and my favorite "After the Wind and Rain in the Hometown"...
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