What is wrong with Secretary Kim - EP11-12

EP11: I'm not alone

In a cold and dilapidated room, 9-year-old Li Chengxian (handsome) is alone. The pale-faced long-haired woman seems to have not returned after a long time after going out. What should he do?

Suddenly I heard the door opening and footsteps, and vaguely came the words of the woman and the little girl, what happened? A smiling little girl came to him, "Auntie, I also want a bracelet like my brother." Smile, just like this appeared in front of handsome.

This poor woman has developed a psychological disorder due to the huge stimulation (abandonment by her lover, miscarriage), and she believes that only death can make her lover feel guilty, and only death can make up for her lost time. However, your precious life is worthless in the eyes of others. Why not live well, live more beautifully, stand in front of him after living more dazzlingly, and make him regret it? She died cowardly and alone, and only her family, her beauty, and her smile will always remember her, but not the lover.

Not only was the kidnapping incident itself traumatic for Young-joon, it was hugely traumatic to see someone die right before their eyes. The tragic death made Yingjun terrified. Only when he thought that the smile was by his side at the time and he was not facing it alone, would Yingjun be slightly relieved. I am not alone. It was also his firm belief that kept him until the door of the police station before he fell to the ground with confidence.

Yingjun didn't forget the agreement with Smile and always wanted to see her again, but when he recovered and returned to that community, Smile's house had moved out; and although Smile had forgotten about this incident, he never forgot his little brother, because she I want to express my gratitude for the kindness that he did not forget to take care of himself when he was afraid.

Years later, when Yingjun met Smile again and found that Smile had forgotten himself, his unconcealed sense of loss was written on his face. In that case, keep her by his side, as if they were together in the past.

I just didn't expect that Smile would be looked down upon by other employees, yes, he authoritatively asked Smile to accompany him as a secretary, but he forgot that Smile really doesn't know so many languages. She followed herself to a strange country alone, but on the phone she didn't know how to speak. Only to report safety to my sister, how is it like me who only tells my family to forget everything in the past?

Handsome thoughtful, smiling not knowing. In her eyes, this boss is very strict, picky, and demands perfection in everything. Yingjun only smiled and thoughtful, and was used to living with her. She didn't know that, in her eyes, the vice president was worried about other staff, so he had to take care of everything by himself. She didn't even know that he was suffering from many sequelae alone, was afraid of young women, couldn't close his eyes, and hated cable ties.

When he learned that Yingjun had kept his secret for many years so thoughtfully, Smile didn't know whether to feel sorry for him or to blame him. We are afraid and reluctant to share in the face of terrible memories, but when someone shares the pain with you, the pain is cut in half, and the joy is doubled when someone shares the joy with you. Between lovers, only by learning to share each other's joys, sorrows and joys is "frankness". "Don't want to be alone", we are afraid of loneliness, when you meet someone you have been looking for, when you have someone you want to protect, when you don't want to see someone sad and afraid, companionship is the best confession, just like Years ago the night, the two leaned against each other.

Li Chengyan's pain lies in the harm he unwittingly inflicted on Yingjun in the past, the memory of abduction imposed on him because of guilt, and his parents' preference for Yingjun. These are all unbearable for him. It is a good opportunity for him to become a writer. He can write emotional stories in novels and relieve sad moments through writing. It's just that his heart is very fragile. He has been living abroad for many years to escape from reality. He escapes from the real world by creating a world of writing. Li Chengyan, now that he has grown up, can no longer escape in the way of the past. Only by facing the reality can he escape. Get out of the past.

What's the way to get rid of terrible memories? Not to cover up, but to create new memories. Just like the construction of a famous park, the dilapidated dark room has been turned into a merry-go-round, and people's laughter will always be heard. For these two people who have experienced trauma together, not being alone anymore and doing anything together will create beautiful memories for the future.

To be continued

EP12: All Moments Are You

The omen of doom is a kind of psychological suggestion. Because something happened, A, the event itself is not good or bad (the cup is cracked only after a long time), you think it is bad, and you are easy to encounter this kind of thinking. to a bad event B, and then link the two events A and B together, thinking that A is a sign of bad luck. The problem lies in your thinking, break your inherent thinking, A and B are not related, so there is no such thing as a sign of bad luck.

Cherish the time when you are by your side, and it is a pity not to be separated. Why does Ying Jun insist on sleeping beside Smile? Just because of his past experience, after the kidnapping, he became difficult to sleep and had frequent nightmares, and he was worried that a similar situation would happen to smiling.

Handsome is a sensitive person. He is too sensible. Sensitivity is natural. He can easily perceive the thoughts of the people around him and changes in the environment. However, because of his sensitivity, he will also be too concerned about the thoughts of others.

When he was 9 years old, he found that the atmosphere at home had changed because of the kidnapping incident, and his brother and parents were under great pressure. However, this is the responsibility and pressure that parents should bear, and should not be borne by children. A family's problems should be solved by the whole family, not one individual.

Li Chengyan didn't expect that it was just a joke, causing his younger brother to be in such a bad state. He was afraid of the adults' blame, worried that they would no longer love him, so he couldn't say anything; and seeing the scar on his ankle made him feel even more guilty endlessly. He also took the responsibility on himself, but what he showed was a misconstructed memory. He replaced himself with handsome, and he hoped that he was kidnapped at that time instead of handsome, and that he was suffering instead of handsome. But the child can't express these thoughts. What he shows is verbal aggression and violent behavior. We see Cheng Yan's seemingly rude treatment of handsome, but his heart is equally painful. At this time, if you can use the help of a psychiatrist, you may be able to help the two children get through this difficult time.

It's just that the sad mother couldn't understand why the child was sent to a mental hospital, why such a thing happened at home, and she was so sad that she wanted to die. Although it may be just venting words, not really dying, but to the overheard handsome, it is a very scary word, because he understands what real death means, he clearly remembers the sound, shape and taste of death (Because of sensitivity, it can be felt immediately). In order to prevent his mother from being sad, in order to prevent his brother from going to a mental hospital, and in order for everyone to continue living, Yingjun automatically assumed this huge responsibility. It's just that when a child bears a burden that should not be carried, who can he tell his loneliness to? Who can understand his sacrifice? This is a manifestation of eastern culture. We will make sacrifices for our loved ones, but if the sacrifice is unnecessary and does not benefit others, is the victim too arbitrary? Handsome with a new name, and at the same time put on a mask of narcissism to protect himself and stop being as stupid as he used to be.

Love is a kind of power, and so is hate. In the process of hating others, you will unconsciously seize your own power and become cowardly and useless. Li Chengyan spent most of his life hating. After listening to Yingjun's explanation, can he take a little more time to get rid of his past hatred? It is born from the same root, so why is it too urgent to fry each other. The two brothers shook hands and made peace, and the home was restored to its original appearance.

After a long day, Yingjun found that it is not difficult to say the words that have been suppressed for a long time, so can the emotions that have been suppressed for a long time also be told to the people around them? "All my moments are you, no matter when I am in love or when I am in pain, without you, my life will be fragmented." Tell my beloved smile with actions, because of you, my life will be complete .

PS. Although the vice president and secretary Kim are their first love, the way of smiling is very suitable for men to learn. Intimacy in the early stage of the relationship will make both sides embarrassed and nervous. The way to break it is to learn like the vice president and practice half with the other party first. Cohabitation, and then create an atmosphere (drinking red wine, watching stars, etc.), be sure to pay attention to eye contact when kissing, if the girlfriend does not refuse in words or actions, it is the default to continue. Be gentle when unbuttoning your clothes, like unwrapping a Christmas present. The beauty of Korean dramas lies in the romantic and beautiful atmosphere, rather than the hot intimate scenes (you can turn to watch American dramas), and the scenes that have been clicked can leave more room for the audience to imagine.

To be continued