Teresa's farewell speech to Lauren's life was: "I loved you when Camille was alive." She let Lauren kill Camille and her love, although Teresa insisted at the time Convince yourself that murdering your husband and cousin is the necessary price to keep your romance alive.
But where is romantic love? Is it the constant infatuation on the carpet in the attic? Or a freshly picked bouquet in the morning? Or the names of men and women handwritten on the illustrations of bedtime readings? Before the murder, Teresa was too busy, too busy to cover up the beauty under her skirt, too busy to deliver the teasing from the corners of her eyes and brows, too busy to appease her energetic body, too busy to understand the exhaustion and confusion of her soul.
The hustle and bustle of sensuality hides loneliness. Teresa has been eager to meet her strong desires: first peeking at the naked farmer when she was a girl; then kissing her cousin who was wrong; Her emptiness and happiness are incomprehensible to Camille, the cousin who grew up together, sick and innocent, far from the troubles of lust. Even though her cousin's identity changed to her husband, Teresa didn't take him seriously even a little bit. Hooking up with her cousin's countryman, cheating, lovesickness, everything is in front of Camille's eyes. Teresa is accustomed to just a boo to appease Camille, and she is far more afraid of her aunt than her husband.
Such a weak and powerless Camille even has a day to make a decision. His insistence on being the master seems to have hit Teresa in the head - leaving Paris, leaving Paris' "friends", this is not a negotiation but a notification, in the capacity of a husband. This is the result of taking care of my cousin's life carefully since childhood. Teresa must have felt betrayed and suffocated in an instant. In the pure and tacit marriage between her and Camille, she had her happiness and Camille had his nanny and carer, but Camille actually wanted to be a real one. husband. He has nothing to do with her ideals! Teresa was flustered, with tears in her eyes, she was full of thoughts of the happy life that was about to end, she couldn't wait even a night, she ran to Lauren's place to seek the guidance of her lover, only this strong beast like a lover. Talent is her reason and comfort. As for Camille's stance and consideration, Camille's efforts and confession, Teresa seemed to be in a dizzy state, unable to see, hear, touch, or remember.
Her lonely soul may have been looking for a strong support from the moment her father left her to her aunt, even if only physical strength is good, even if she learned etiquette and writing in her aunt's house, even if she takes care of the table At the same time, her brother also got the placement of life and identity. The real life as comfortable and ordinary as honey chrysanthemum tea is far less shocking to her soul than the strong and savage physical impact. Her knowledge, her experience, her morals, her conscience, are all tamed in the moment of carnal worship. At a critical point in a major turning point in her life, Teresa was absent from Teresa's choice. At this moment, her God is Lauren!
Lauren said there were surprises, and so there was a pleasant Sunday afternoon accident. Even though Teresa accepted Camille's bouquet that morning, even though Teresa was full of resistance and fear before boarding the ship, and even though Teresa's eyes were the back of Camille's reminiscence of her childhood, Teresa's life has never been Her hands flowed away, and it was not up to her to decide when to start and when to cancel. When the strong beast raised the high wooden oar and struck hard, Teresa could only passively hear the voice that had been with and cared for since she was a child shouting "Teresa! Teresa!" and the dead silence after that.
All who die are losers. Can Teresa, who no longer faces the fear of moving, be able to take on the life that Lauren has decided? She couldn't sleep, she flipped through Camille's bedtime readings, stared at the beautiful handwritten letters "Camille" and "Teresa" beside the illustration of the two bears, still with tears in her eyes.
Remember Teresa coming back to bed from the river with the morning flowers still in her hands. The bouquet of flowers was in Camille's hands in the early morning. He tapped on the glass of the kitchen, took out the surprise of the day from behind, and specially asked "don't tell mom, because she will be jealous". If Teresa chooses to pack her luggage in the early morning, or choose to stop before boarding the boat, or if the cruise ship asks to return before leaving the main channel, will this flower give rise to other flowers over time, and whether her relationship with her cousin will be able to With the accumulation of age and experience adjusted and perfected, can she avoid the second husband who is picky about cooking skills and continue to enjoy the afternoon tea provided by her aunt every day?
Those beautiful futures that can be obtained at your fingertips as long as you think carefully~ If I were Teresa, I wouldn't leave it to someone else to be the master. Do you regret it?
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