- Haruki Murakami, "Norwegian Wood"
If one day we suddenly find that we only have three months to live, the rest of our days will be How to spend it?
Roman is a lonely person, withdrawn and confused about life. He never longs for anything from his parents. He often quarrels with his sister. More precisely, he constantly mocks her, although his mother has always been very kind to him. , and the father is not very indifferent, the sister just tolerated and guarded against his excessive ridicule. The only warmth in his heart came from his same-sex lover Sasha, and the childhood self and playmates who appeared in front of him from time to time. It was hard to tell whether it was a memory or an illusion. It was more like Roman's desire to return to innocence. A longing and accumulating conjecture.
When he suddenly learned that he was seriously ill, he began to feel a little dazed. He didn't know who to talk to, and he didn't know what the impact would be after talking to them. He just wanted to die quietly and alone without anyone disturbing him. Originally wanting to spend the last time with Sasha, he was thinking about how to confess to Sasha and let him share the pain with himself. But because of their deep love for each other, he couldn't bear to tell him such a cruel fact, but used the seemingly great but in my opinion to be selfish, rude and even savage to drive away the unknown lover. Even though I still reluctantly watched Sasha play sadomasochism with other men in the gay club. He would rather bear it all himself, and the only one he can talk to is his grandmother, and that's because "you, like me, are running out of time."
This will minimize the pain and confusion of his death for everyone. , he thought.
On the way, in a cafe, he told the proprietress that he was going to see his grandmother, "Is she ill?" The proprietress asked naturally, "No, she is fine." Roman was dumbfounded, "Oh, sorry." "It's nothing, but Yes, we all don't care about the existence of a person until he is about to die." Roman replied thoughtfully.
In a way, grandmother, father and Roman are all in the same line. The grandmother couldn't bear the great grief because of her grandfather's death. She had to keep changing lovers to maintain her faith in life, and abandoned her father. The father never forgave her grandmother, and she was deeply affected by this experience, Roman. When he was a child, his father took him through the jungle and met a little rabbit who was sick on the road. Roman moved with compassion and wanted to bring the little rabbit back to avoid it being eaten by other animals. His father refused, so that he would not be infected, And the little rabbit is eaten, that is the law of nature, no one can blame others, but it is actually the rule of this world formed in the father's heart when he was abandoned by his grandmother in childhood. In order to balance himself, in order to fill the emotional void and trauma, the father also deceived his wife, and has been looking for feelings outside of marriage, and the three generations of grandchildren are not good at expressing, so the father can only use the name of the mother to persuade Roman Be nicer and don't be too indulgent.
Roman said that he didn't like children, so for the first time he refused the boss's request to borrow a child to conceive, so when he reconciled with his sister, he had to emphasize that he wanted to see her instead of the child, but in fact he yearned for a return, a return to childhood. innocence. He often stared at the innocence of children playing and froze. He often recalled the time when he was in love with his sister in childhood, and some of them were pure imaginations. He went back to his grandmother's house. First, the grandmother was the only person he could talk to. Second, it was the place where he spent his childhood, and the forest where he grew up playing. And the most common thing is that he often sees his childhood self and his hair with a mushroom head in the mirror, in the forest, in the church, by the beach. At that time, it was his most peaceful time, because Those childhood phantoms represent, represent beauty, represent carefree. In the memory of the church, when he was a child, he and Faxiao with mushroom heads were fooling around in the church. After pure happiness, Faxiao suddenly kissed him. While the people were praying, Roman kissed the little girl back. Perhaps at that time, Roman had already discovered his love for a broken sleeve. Since then, he has gradually become isolated from this world, and prefers to stay in his own fantasy space.
Roman finally decided to leave something to this world, that is his flesh and blood, he agreed to the request of the boss to borrow a child, maybe, that is his reconciliation with this world, the child is his hope to continue in this world, He left all his inheritance to his children, because he was free from care. In the last journey of his life, he was prophesied to see the hope he left to the world. Because of the pain, his face was pale, his eyes were haggard, and his eyes were blurred. On the train opposite him sat a mother holding a child. The child was hungry and cried. The mother naturally breast-feeds the child. The child stopped crying immediately, and Roman would laugh. It was at this moment that the sunlight outside the window illuminated Roman's face. He finally let go of all his fixations. I am about to leave, but life continues, the dead are long, and the living are always sad, and singing must be done after the pain. Since it is destined to come, accept everything freely and easily.
At the seaside, Roman enjoyed the last of his life like a child, licking the chocolate cone cutely, and threw the still ringing mobile phone, which represented the last contact with the world, into the trash. Of course, that call may have come from Colleague, maybe from his grandmother, maybe from his family, maybe from Sasha, most likely from his sister who reconciled with him, but at this time, it doesn't matter who is who, he doesn't need to explain anything, he just wants to A person left quietly, swimming in the sea, using the camera to give the beach and the world a beautiful silhouette, and saw a child who looked exactly like his childhood playing, lying down slowly, at this time, he finally found He returned to the pure self he had been seeking, was liberated, and no one paid attention to his existence. That was the tranquility he finally sought. The crowd gradually dispersed, accompanied by the sound of the sea and the sunset in the west, walking so calmly, naturally, and calmly, just like the music in the background, the sad song of life, flowing quietly. , quietly watching life fade away, dust to dust, earth to earth, and calm again, this world will still produce so many contradictions, so many misunderstandings, so many frictions, but life will always release everything, and then Reincarnation again, endlessly...
"Le temps qui reste", the dying time. A song of life that goes from initial confusion, hesitation, panic about death and disorder of life to calmness, tolerance, confidence and reconciliation. Ou Rong tells this story, which is very easy to fall into sensationalism and homosexuality, so gracefully , Natural, timeless, without a trace of craftsmanship, neither the air of Hollywood powder, nor the usual pretentious attitude of typical European movies, the protagonist is so beautiful that it makes people palpitate, but it also brings out that vague sadness. The movie is not long, but it has a long meaning, which can be called around the beam for three days. Although it is a journey of death, it has a Zen feeling that gradually enters into meditation. It seems so unique in the increasingly noisy and impetuous world, and it is not born. It experiences the passage of life in life, and is isolated from a lonely soul. Towards tolerance and reconciliation to the world, and finally to the end of life safely, always makes people feel a touch of sadness but constantly sprinkles the sunshine of hope in their hearts, quietly counting down the last time like an outsider, let the audience bless This relieved soul was finally freed and floated in the sky.
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