We all have love-deficit disorder.

Brett 2022-11-18 12:29:15

I finished watching the movie "She's Lonely Than Fireworks" in one breath.



What are fireworks in our hearts? Is it the scorching light of that moment, or the dark void after it dissipates. Should we focus our attention on that bright spot, or should we focus on the attention, behind the light that goes out - but no one will be bored to pay attention to these, because everyone is interested in your warm lights that make people feel . It bursts, blooms, disappears, and it urges people to leave.

This movie resonates with me quite a bit. Maybe everyone has such an inner world: afraid of being alienated, afraid of being a blind spot in the eyes of others, afraid of being coldly received, and afraid of not being loved. So I try my best to improve myself, or do some naive and scheming little actions to attract the attention of others and attract the warmth of others. Everyone has love-deficit disorder. When my mother compliments others, I will be a little dissatisfied in my heart, will be angry and rebellious, will compete with myself, work hard and work hard, until others hold me in the palm of my hand. Suddenly found that distance produces beauty, this sentence applies to many aspects. Including care, including the care about gains and losses. Sometimes we are very selfish and take our family and friendship as our own, thinking that as long as we revolve around them, it is only natural that they should revolve around themselves. It's like Jackie rushing home to visit her sister, only to find out that she has a boyfriend by her side, and that her sister is about to get married. The object of her excitement and joy is not just because of her - her sister has a distance from her, but the distance It did not bring her beauty and happiness, but aroused panic in her heart. Perhaps after a person has been in deep loneliness for too long, his heart will become extremely fragile and sensitive. So she was even more eager to need some powerful material support to prove that she was loved. So, she made love to her brother-in-law, wanting to have this mellow joy to remind herself that others have her in their hearts—her sister loves her, so she will give her her husband, and her brother-in-law loves her, so she will be with her Share a room and have fun. But she forgot. Such love will eventually confuse herself and tire those who love her, so she was forced to leave the house alone.

The more I got to the end, the more I felt for Jackie, for what she gained, and for what she ended up losing for what she got. Seeing her alone on the noisy but lonely stage, playing the piano with a blank face, but unable to resist this reality, she did not dare to smash the piano and did not dare to break the strings, so she had to leave them in a bad place. In the weather, trying to use objective behavior to create its destruction, but unfortunately, this cello is too strong, when she doesn't need it and hates her, it will not leave, but when she needs it, it will stay away forever . Jackie, poor woman, in a lonely room, language barrier, bizarre behavior not understood. The family members looked disappointed and helpless when they saw the dirty clothes she sent back from abroad, but they didn't know that when she smelled the smell of home, even the faint smell of washing powder was enough to make her so crazy. , like a pilgrim saint, solemnly tell others: this is the taste of home. Smell, keep on sniffing, even wrapping around your pillow, holding them to sleep like a treasure.

Does anyone really know how she feels, what else does she have besides the cello? When she asked his husband to give up his acting career and go to a little happiness, even his husband said: You have nothing but playing the piano.

In fact, from the beginning to the end, she was just a sloppy child who needed care. Whether it's sticking out her tongue, beating the drum in her hand, or deliberately saying outrageous things, or even something to stimulate her sister, it's just her way of asking for love from the outside world. Just like the extreme of hatred, it is actually the entirety of love. She used the opposite and extreme way to express her little wishes clumsily and concealed. It is a pity that the public needs to be straightforward and to see what is revealed. They have not seen it, so they cannot understand it: understand her loneliness, understand her vexatiousness.

--- Therefore, what should be expressed should be expressed in time to avoid misunderstanding.

This film, of course, also involves an age issue. When everyone grows up, they will recall their childhood and miss that carefree time. Just like the Dupe sisters, their time period in the same world is estimated to be before the age of 13. If I can go from old age to young age like my sister's final itinerary, if I can be given this choice, I will not hesitate to hold it tightly in my hand and not let go.



Finally, the adult Jackie said to the young Jackie: It's totally fine, don't worry.

This finishing touch made both Jackies look relieved, yes, don't worry, don't doubt, always be confident: the person you love, the person you think will love you, still, and will always love you .


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Hilary and Jackie quotes

  • Hilary: If you think being an ordinary person is any easier than being an extraordinary one, you're wrong.

  • Jackie du Pré: I'll play the fucking triangle, I just want to make music again!