The sadness that cannot be played and
all singing will eventually return to silence, and will be eternal in the dream of nothingness.
No matter how many times I watch a movie or a book, I can only save the afterwords I like very much here as a souvenir.
The following is the postscript to the book Crazy Love for the Cello, translated by Huang Yuning.
Jacqueline Dupree - she is lonelier than fireworks. When opening
the 20th century musical figures of all sizes, it should not be difficult to find such an entry: Jacqueline Dupree (1945-1987), British A cellist, he showed his talent when he first learned the piano at the age of five. He started his professional playing career at the age of sixteen. The gap between his talent and age is overwhelming. In 1973, Dupree was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis, so he sadly said goodbye to the stage and finally died in his prime...
The people have passed away, and the flood of life should have gathered into a trickle as Russell said. Return to nothingness in silence. However, for those who have experienced dazzling and poignant beauty such as Dupree, the river of life always seems to have not found a suitable end point. From time to time, a few waves will be splashed lightly and lightly through the memory of music lovers. , I have to let people who like to watch the scenery by the river let out a long sigh.
For Dupree's close relatives, sister Hillary and brother Pierce, this sigh was far heavier than others, lingering and indescribable, and gradually became a nightmare. Only time can solve this nightmare. Perhaps, for the parties concerned, it is really only when time quietly pulls the past away by a proper distance before it is possible to gather the courage to face it again.
This time, seven years have been worn away.
In 1994, Hillary finally rolled out the letterhead and melted the knot that had been in her mind for ten years: it was a letter to her long-dead mother. As soon as the gate deep in the heart was opened, the memory burst at the tip of the pen. Hillary wrote it for four months, and only Pierce could share this secret with her. He read the manuscript quietly, and when Hillary returned to the room, she was surprised to find, "It turns out that a man can shed so many tears. ".
Pierce's heart also has a knot that can't be easily untied. He knew that the quickest way to seek redemption was to join hands with Hillary and get it done together. They went to visit Danny, her husband who had been in love and hate with Jackie for 20 years, to visit the doctors, nurses, friends who had accompanied Jackie through the long nights and finally found no way out, and then memories, memories , Memories... The images that have long since disappeared became clear layer by layer, some parts were so familiar that they seemed to be palpable, and some parts were so unfamiliar that it was heartbreaking. linger.
So there is this book, "Crazy Love for the Cello".
Closing the book, it was as if there were two Jackies, overlapping in front of you. One, dressed in a long blue velvet dress, lined with golden hair like a waterfall, shining to the eye: Yiren was born for the stage, and at the sound of the piano, flowers and applause are destined to pave the way, just waiting for her Came lightly; the other, curled up in a closed corner, lonely, angry, and weeping sadly: in front of and behind him, there is an endless darkness, thick like a rubber wall, you can vaguely feel her pain, but You just can't really get close to her.
Jackie, who is not known to the public, has actually planted the seeds of joy and sorrow in her life since she was a child. Jackie was born into a musical family. As the mother of a music professor, she is a genius in discovering and cultivating geniuses. She tailored the ladder of success for Jackie, so persuasive, so thoughtful. Jackie doesn't have to think or do anything, she just needs to indulge in the wine of music. Who can believe that Jacqueline Dupre, a musician who is flexibly retractable on stage, sends home one package after another wherever she tours -- no gifts in it, just all the changes of clothes, Even socks are not immune. This habit, Jackie never changed.
When it was time to marry the musician Danny Barenbury, Jackie's personality barrier finally turned into a glass of sour wine, which made this pair of golden boys and girls envied by outsiders miserable. The snow-like performance offer and the huge conflict with her husband's living habits made Jackie at a loss: her mother and teachers successfully taught her to play the piano and perform, but they did not teach her how to live, how to live under the double pressure of the outside world and the heart. Live as normal people.
Perhaps the disease began to invade her delicate body at this time. Even her close relatives and friends can't tell. For Jackie, the torment of the soul and the body, which comes first, or is the cause and effect of each other? Multiple sclerosis is an extremely rare terminal disease. There is no specific medicine, and no one can predict the course of the disease. People can only watch her actions, words and even breathing being eaten away bit by bit. In public, Jackie is a fighter who fights against the disease to the end, a signboard for raising funds for charity, and a darling of the sensational media; when she returns home, she falls into deep despair, surly words and deeds, almost She shut everyone out who loved her and cared about her. The last star candle of life, exhausted by oxygen in the twisting and splitting, went out slyly.
What is in front of us is not just a biography of a musician. In a sense, it is more like an unsolved question about human nature, success, and family. The two biographers have always been indispensable roles in Jackie's life. It is conceivable that their own lives are also closely intertwined with this period of sorrow and joy, and it is indistinguishable from each other. In Hilary's words, Jackie is a powerful and irresistible tide. From the first day she had an epiphany, the whole family was carried forward by this tide, and it became more and more powerless.
Hillary was good at playing the flute, and she was a little successful under her mother's training when she was young, but her sister's brilliance was too dazzling, and while taking advantage of the scenery, it also stifled her sister's courage to continue climbing in the music world. Hillary turned all her enthusiasm into the family, hoping to live a quiet life on the country farm with her husband and children for the rest of her life. However, a call for help from Jackie brought her back to the real world. She just wanted to help Jackie, and the thought was so strong that even after she learned that Jackie wanted to take away her husband, she still had no turning back. After reading the whole book, this passage was probably the most thrilling and puzzling. the plot. The strongest and weakest, darkest and brightest parts of human nature are so inconceivably intertwined that they literally overwhelm you.
Pierce is another story. He also likes music, but only as an ordinary music lover looking for a feast for the eyes. Growing up, he always felt that people all over the world were asking him: "As the third child of the Dupree family, which musical instrument do you know?" Fortunately, his parents did not force him, but instead gave him more than two sisters. There is more room for choice, so Pierce's growth trajectory and mentality have always been more peaceful and healthier. However, perhaps because in the eyes of Jackie, who is terminally ill, such a free and healthy lifestyle is elusive, and the originally intimate sibling relationship has gone out of tune and changed - even until her sister On her deathbed, Pierce failed to dispel her jealousy and recall her understanding and tolerance.
Whether it's Hillary or Pierce, it's certainly not an easy task to revisit the past. Through reading, we can feel that they are walking on thin ice when they write-on the one hand, they are using words to reproduce the style of a generation of musical geniuses, and all historical materials and data related to Jackie must be carefully checked; on the other hand, Their inner voices struggled to tell the real story behind a stage, like quietly leading the audience, stunned by the peacock's gorgeous wings, behind the peacock to see how cramped it was. There is Jackie, whom they love dearly, and themselves in the picture.
The story is true, and its inherent dramatic tension is not necessarily lost to any novel, so "Crazy Cello" was a big hit as soon as it came out, and it was soon made into a movie. The film is beautifully shot. Although many branches and branches have been cut off in order to take care of the film's capacity (the biggest change is that Pierce's clue is almost hidden, and only the entanglement between Hillary and Jackie is emphasized), it permeates the whole film. The pathos in the biography linger with the recurring Elgar violin concerto in the film, reinforced just right.
In Hong Kong and Taiwan, this film has an inappropriate and accompanying translation title "She is Lonely than Fireworks", which can sum up the life of Jacqueline Dupree very well. Think deeply, even for ordinary people like us, who would dare to say that once faced with the haze in their hearts, they really can't find Jackie's shadow on their body?
To interpret others is to face oneself more clearly.
At the end of the film, there is an endless beach in front of the audience. It was Jersey, the worry-free country of Jackie and Hillary's childhood. Elgar's cello concerto fills almost the entire perception world of the audience with the momentum of mercury spilling to the ground, leaving only a little blank in the image. At this time, two Jackies appeared on the big screen, one was a child who was not tall enough to play the cello, and the other was successful, but the tears of the years were vaguely discernible on his face. They meet beyond life and death, separated by vicissitudes of life.
This scene is the most apt commentary on the original: how difficult it is to be consistent in life when you are alive!
This is perhaps the deepest meaning of the translation of this biography.
Translator in February 2001
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