Marie and Francis are good friends. Their closeness allows them to sleep in a bed, hug naked and talk together. But it is also possible to like the same person.
At a gathering of friends that day, Ma and Fran were preparing dinner in the kitchen. Through the curtain between the dining table and the kitchen counter, Marie saw the brown, curly-haired man with a white face and nice skin, holding champagne and chatting with the people next to him easily.
"Who is that beautiful guy who feels good about himself?" Marie asked. She looked arrogant and careless, probably deliberately trying to show that she was not asking questions because she was attracted, but just ordinary boring questions.
"The brown-haired one?" Francis glanced at him, "Um... Nicolas. A friend of Sophie, who just moved here." The
story started from this place, which belongs to the endless cycle of crush love between Ma and Fran, the love of fantasy.
At the beginning of the story, Ma shows that he doesn’t care about such a curly-haired man. This behavior is more like a certain relationship with human instincts, in order to hide his preferences from others, even though the other party is his own heart-to-heart. In other words In other words, it is also necessary for other people to see their pride and strength.
Fran didn't get much better. In order to meet new friends, NIco invited them to a coffee shop, introduced themselves, and briefly described their past. Then Ma asked Fran, what do you think of Nico, he said, "The other person is pretty good. It is really good. But personally, he is not my food."
Whether it is this one with big eyes like Audrey Hepburn The woman is still a man with a very good taste in the retro airplane. After Nico's invitation, the disguise that said she didn't like it was self-defeating. Ma curled up her hair, put on a dress that highlighted her exquisite figure, and her silver high heels made her legs more slender. Fran ran into the infinitely tempting perfume in front of the mirror, thinking of Nico whispering "You are so sweet" in his ear when he embraced him.
Before leaving the sink, Fran looked at the marks he had made on the wall under the mirror. Each mark has three vertical bars, and then there is a slash to indicate deletion.
On that three-person date, Nico offered to play hide-and-seek. They came to a forest and Nico was a ghost. When Fran was hiding, he found a white rabbit. He forgot about hide-and-seek and started playing with the rabbit. Nico quickly found him. To prevent him from escaping, he rode on him and grabbed his hands with both hands, as if covering him. It turned out that Fran still tried to resist, but he couldn't use all his strength, so he had to look at Nico. I think at that time, he seemed to get some kind of response, telling himself that it was possible between them, so he fell in love with him madly ever since. He returned home and drew three vertical bars at the end of those marks.
Ma and Fran are shopping in an Asian supermarket. The supermarket plays Southeast Asian music. Nico will stay at Fran's house tonight. They are preparing dinner. Ma said happily that NIco asked her to watch the show.
They slept on a bed with Nico in the middle. The next morning, Fran woke up first. Looking at Nico beside him. Nico didn't hold her or him, but his feet were close to Fran's feet, but it was just this action that had given Fran a bright morning.
After getting up in the morning, they drink black tea, read the newspaper and eat breakfast. Nico and Ma were happily talking about the show to be watched. Nico said that this is a surrealist exhibition based on Audrey Hepburn. Audrey Hepburn is the love of my life.
The wonderful thing is coming. Undoubtedly, Fran went to the poster shop and picked Audrey Hepburn's poster because it was Nico's love. He waited at the place where Nico must pass, then pretended to meet by chance and gave him the poster. At that time, he was nervous, talking intermittently, and there was a big mouthful of breathing between the sentences, or because of the nervousness, he dropped his coffee. Nico is anxious to leave because he wants a female friend to cook. "Female friend?" Fran smiled awkwardly. Nico thanked him, kissed him on the neck and walked away. Fran bid farewell to him and left behind Nico. Fran's smile froze on his face.
Ma and Fran may be unable to bear loneliness, and each find a man 419. After having sex, the man asked, "Which star did you fantasize about when you were having sex?" Ma said, "I never fantasize about a star." What appeared in her mind was the look of Nico, Nico's curly hair, and smooth skin. , Just like the beautiful man in the Greek statue. The man asked, what is your dream lover like? Fran said, "Hair is blond, oh, no, brown. Curly hair...probably like this."
After that, it was Nico's birthday. Fran prepared an orange sweater for him. He felt that brown hair and orange would always be a perfect match, and Ma was a straw hat. On his birthday, Fran wore a blue jacket and pointed leather boots, and the jet's head was obviously re-ironed. Ma curled up her hair again, wore a short one-piece dress that showed lines, and put on a pearl necklace. All of her outfits were based on Audrey Hepburn. When they went to the party, Nico wore a silver ring on his head, which made him feel that he was as beautiful as a god-man. Nico asked them to put the gifts in the lounge. When they put the gifts in the lounge, they discussed the gifts with each other awkwardly.
Back at the party, Ma was drinking, and it was Nico who came to surround her. Ma was a little uncomfortable, but it was definitely not because he didn't like it, but because he was not confident.
"The party is great..." Ma said, to make herself look less embarrassed.
"You know, your most beautiful eyes are charming eyes." Nico smiled at her drunkly. "What's next?"
"What's next...?"
Nico's face looked like she was approaching. All the audience thought Nico was going to kiss her. Of course Ma must think so too, but Nico was suddenly taken away by a friend and Ma had to stay there. Did Nico kiss me? I hope so, so he is interesting to me. It's not that he just wanted to look in my eyes...
She took a sip of her wine and forced a smile when she thought of practicing "The party is great" in front of the mirror.
She is really strong and self-centered. She sat with Fran, and she said that Nico fucked with her old fashioned clothes, for which she yelled angrily.
That night, three people slept in the same bed again. The next day, Nico and Ma went to buy breakfast. Nico's mother came to pay for Nico's living expenses. Have a friendly conversation with Fran. In Fran's opinion, his mother likes herself very much. He gave him a kiss when he left. This is undoubtedly not fueling the flames in Fran's heart. He is even more convinced that it is possible for him and Nico, it must be possible. After his mother left, he picked up Nico's clothes and put them on his head, smelling him, and masturbating excitedly.
Nico invited them to the country aunt's manor as a guest. All the way is the beauty of autumn. That night, they lighted a fire and roasted marshmallows. Nico gave one to Fran a cylindrical shape, and he ate it hungrily.
"It's not like this. You definitely don't know how to eat it."
"Why?"
"You eat too fast. You didn't taste it. Eating marshmallows is like a striptease. You have to take it step by step."
Ma supported it with his left hand . Chin, watching all this with cold eyes.
"This is for you." Nico took another one and held it in front of him.
"No need...man, I swear I'm full."
"Eat." Nico's charming smile melted into Fran's eyes.
He put the marshmallow in Fran's mouth. "Eat as I said."
"First take off the outer skin, the outer skin, the very thin layer, and it will be baked into golden brown...Yes, eat that layer first. Okay, now use your upper jaw and the door Drop the second part..." (How all this is like oral sex...)
Ma obviously couldn't stand it anymore, she patted her thigh with both hands, and then stood up.
"Okay, I'll go to bed first."
"Angry?" Fran asked.
"No, it's just sleepy."
"Are you okay?"
"Well, it's okay."
Ma left, and she found that they hadn't followed.
She got up the next morning and found that they were not in the house. She opened the door and went out and found that they were still at the barbecue place last night. They talked all night? ! What can they do? Ma couldn't help it anymore. She felt sad, packed up her things and was ready to go, but her hateful high heels made her move inconvenient.
"I'm in a sudden emergency, I'm
leaving first." She walked hurriedly.
"What's wrong with you, wait" Fran shouted from behind, but Ma didn't stop. After Fran caught up with him, hugged her, Ma pushed him to the ground, and then scrambled. Nico told them to stop, calling them a few times before stopping.
"I'm tired of living in the country. I'm going back. If you still want to stay, I'll leave first."
Nico is tired of the beautiful autumn scenery.
The relationship between the three of them became very tense. No contact for a long time. Ma and Fran each find ways to reconcile with Nico. Calling is always in the message mailbox. Fran really missed him too much, but he didn't dare to go to him directly. He went to a supermarket, bought the cylindrical marshmallow, and couldn't wait to eat it after paying the bill.
Ma typed a poem, folded it carefully in half, put it in an envelope, affixed it with a stamp, and mailed it to Nico. A few days later, there was still no reply. She decided to meet him. Ma waited in a cafe where Nico had to go home, looking at the sidewalk outside the window all the time. Seeing Nico passing by, hurriedly chase out.
"Hey, hey, Nico" she ran to catch up with him, "Nico, Nico"
she grabbed his arm, Nico turned her head and took off the headset.
"Hello." Ma said. She gasped, "How are you doing?"
"Not bad."
"We haven't seen you for a long time. It's been a long time since we saw you over there."
"I'm sorry, I'm totally..." He scratched his head helplessly.
"It's okay, it doesn't matter. We are all busy, and... I called once but didn't leave a message. It's not an important thing. I have a friend from Matane. She just returned from a trip, Ruilin. She...she is reading the letter...because I sent a letter to her," she explained vigorously, "with an article written by Peter Schlag, published in the "Boston Observer", no I know if you... is a literary commentary. Regarding... the remnants of fascism in modern art..." She was very nervous, with a lot of unconfident "e...e" sounds in her sentence.
"Very well written." She said suddenly, "I didn't get to the point without talking about it, I mean... I wanted to send you the article, I want to send the article I said. The one for her is...Did you receive that poem? I want to send her the poem by Miron. I sent two letters on the same night, and I mixed up the addresses, "The sun is shining and the weather is Very gentle, but Ma seems to be sucking the cold wind all the time, "So you received Miron's poem, ha ha ha... I can imagine you reading the poem, it must be very heavy, but it is not actually, it is just for the purpose of practice. "She tried her best to explain, presumably because Nico didn't respond, so there must be no hope of being together. In order to be friends, she hopes to reverse the matter of confession.
"Is that friend of yours your girlfriend?"
"What?"
"That...that girl." That poem described a deep love, and Nico asked suspiciously, "Is it your love? Ex? Or..."
"No, no, no, not at all...No, it's just that on her birthday, she liked Miron, and I thought...so I sent that poem...to her"
"...sorry, I'm leaving, I'm still baking something on the stove...so...bye..." Nico turned and left, Ma's awkward smile fell from the corner of her mouth a little bit, she was still not reconciled, she chased up, "Nico, Nico..."
"Um...If that poem was originally sent to you... what would you think?"
"I'll still say...I have something roasting on my stove." Nico turned and walked away, Ma looked at his back, took out a cigarette box of matches, and held the cigarette in his mouth, but the match couldn't be burned. , She smashed the matchbox, threw it aside, and turned away angrily...
Fran asked Nico out one night.
"We have to talk, uh... you know, I'm a... uh, no, I just like being with you. It feels... it feels good, um, I like being with you." He coughed twice Next, I can feel the moist voice in his throat because of crying, "Well, imagine...Imagine this situation, for example, we have a friend, and then he meets another boy... He meets a Very good boy...humor... charming, and of course handsome. He is smart, educated, and open-minded, so that you would say...'Wow, you are really open!' So you are moved. , This is what attracts you and moves you. He can move you. He is gentle and interesting. For example, if you meet such a boy, what would you do?... I love you... I really want to kiss You."
Nico kept silent.
"I don't know why I want to tell you this, um... Maybe it's just because... Autumn is about to end and I need to start warming the house. If there is one person in the family... Things are much simpler. I... Well, I haven’t told you about the tattoos on my body, it seems...oh...oh my god, I got tattoos, when someone rejects me...'No, thank you, I’m telling you Not interested' As long as this happens, I will go back and make a small mark, but now I...I'm tired of it, tired of these, they make me completely awake...Do you know what I mean? So... how to say... ...Tell me what you think." Fran held his neck with his right hand and rubbed it repeatedly.
"...Why do you think I am a comrade?"
One year after all this was over. They attended a party. Fran and Ma drank happily and praised each other for their beautiful clothes. When they saw NIco, their faces sank. There is a girl next to Nico.
"That pretentious chick is like a placenta-eating witch from hell." Ma said.
"Insightful!" Fran said.
Nico spotted them and came over to say hello. They look awkward, but their expressions are not friendly.
"Nice to see..."
Before Nico finished speaking, Fran roared that seemed painful, like an angry cat.
In fact, it didn't end. They saw a man in a red hat with wool in the distance, and he found them looking at him and smiling at them. They walked forward, towards the man. Towards the next round of fantasy love...
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"Fantasy Love" is a 2010 movie by Javier Dolan. Javier Dolan was born on May 20, 1989 in Quebec, Canada. His father was an actor. He started acting at the age of 12. He has appeared in an advertisement for Jean Coutu, Canada's largest pharmaceutical company, and is also the French voice of Ron Wesley in "Harry Potter", Justin in "High School Musical" and the Werewolf Joe Kobo in "Twilight" in Canada. In 2009, when he was less than 20 years old, he wrote, directed and acted in the film "I Killed My Mother" and was nominated for the Cannes Film Festival Directors' Biweekly Unit, and defeated many famous director Jia to win three awards. The film tells the story between a gay boy and his mother.
Just hearing his age is enough to make myself feel complacent. "Fantasy Love" is undoubtedly a literary film, bright colors and light and shadow effects are very charming. In the retro fashion trend of clothing, it is not lost to any young people's trend magazine. Dolan is also the Fran in the movie. He is very excited for such a young man in acting and the director has such achievements.
In the film, Dolan focuses on the details of his secret love. Those who become unconfident because of the secret love, and many of the behaviors caused by them are vividly and exquisitely displayed in the film, just like the description of the details of life in Japanese novels. The details of Japanese novels do not give people the same feeling, it is another more advanced expression. The film has no psychological description, but in those behaviors and expressions, you can clearly know what they are thinking.
The name of the movie is "Fantasy Love". Ma and Fran have a crush on Nico at the same time. At first, they said instinctively that they could not be interesting to him. This situation often occurs in life, and they don’t know why, maybe it’s for the sake of face. Don’t let others, even your best friends, see the weakest and most deadly part of your heart, so you won’t say frankly, "Yes, he is so charming, I want to fix him."
Later, after a few back and forth. Fran and Ma are sure that each other has feelings for themselves. However, this is only true, it is really just their own fantasy. Take a Nico's unintentional action, such as when you sleep, put your foot against Fran's foot, expand infinitely, expand infinitely, and then use it as evidence of the other party's love for yourself, and put it in your heart forever. He just loves me. I shouted to myself in my heart again and again to make my love for him deeper.
However, it is impossible to say who is right and who is wrong. In the end, it can only be said that Luohua deliberately flows ruthlessly. Ma and Fran just live in their own fantasy, thinking that Nico also loves them deeply.
After the confession, Fran felt painful and felt that Nico was the person he loved most in his life. However, he would never forget the result now, and he might never fall in love with anyone in the future. This Nico will always live in his heart.
So, is this really the case? I think they just didn't find the next lovely person, because of the empty feelings, so they thought Nico was their only one. When the man with the red woolen hat smiled at them, didn't they just rush over. When you get a little bit of emotional hint (it is very likely that this hint is a fantasy of yourself), you will forget Nico, format all his memories, and devote yourself to the next round of fantasy love. Presumably when he was also involved in Nico's round, he forgot the hard-hearted secret love he thought the last time. This is definitely not an isolated case, but a common phenomenon. The so-called only so-called must not be forgotten, when this lovely person appears next, he will forget his old love without hesitation, and let himself live in the next deadly cycle of crush. After all, I think this is human instinct, as it is, living in hope is easier than living in despair.
I can imagine that the mark under the sad Fran's mirror was another stroke.
How many more strokes will there be?
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