It is said that the current Hollywood movies are nothing to watch.
Indeed, after the creation of the second climax of Hollywood movies (from the late 1960s to the mid-1980s), it is difficult for Hollywood movies to make a big difference. pale. But don't forget that there are still a group of independent filmmakers in the United States, such as Woody Allen, Spike Lee, etc., who live in New York and make movie viewers "unsettling." But you miss the movie frenzy from the end of the sixties to the mid-eighties of the last century. Think about those unique movies of various genres, from "Clyde and Bond", "Once Upon a Time in the West", "Midnight Cowboy, "Graduate" to "Harold and Mud", "The Godfather" series, "Taxi Driver", "Paper Moon", "The Cramers" and "Once Upon a Time in America", etc., in these In addition to the familiar movies, there are some unknown movies, and we often overlook the value of them.
For example, the Canadian film "A Sense of Confusion", its melancholic, delicate and quiet narrative style is indeed extraordinary and ingenious, especially the ingenious treatment of the character's psychological gradation, which can be said to be impeccable. The background music, accompanied by white snow, forests and rushing carriages, turns into flowing cold notes. People, in the ice and snow, appear helpless and faint, gradually turning into silent fatigue and confusion. A strong sense of tranquility, its power is immense.
After many years, you still miss this movie from time to time. Perhaps the story is of secondary importance. The important thing is the connotation to be expressed from the heart. Although it is covered and blocked by snow, life can still survive for a while, and we can still try to change something. What he sees in the eyes of a little boy is what he wants to pay attention to. Maybe this is the puzzle or confusion that is real to him. Just like your long-lasting memories that have disappeared from your body, they will beat your heart from time to time.
Why can't I forget the fragmentary and confusing memories of childhood.
It's not that you want to think about it, but you come uninvited, and with the seasonal change, repeat the memories of the time that have passed away, especially in the snowy season, although it will not snow here. Man is such a monster, a person who is indulged in reality but contradicts reality. Why do people always want to escape? Why do they seek refuge in the soul? It's just that everything in front of you can't be reconciled, and the satisfaction of the appearance is always short-lived, which will bring endless irritability and anxiety. Even in heaven, all beautiful scenery surpasses reality, and all needs surpass reality. Over time, the emptiness, squeeze, and boredom of the heart will accompany. Although it is said that when people think, God will laugh, but people like to think about things, a virtual "being in Cao Ying's heart in Han", a "monster" who eats in his mouth and looks in a pot.
Alan Parker's "Angela's Ashes" is translated into "Angel's Child", which is very confusing, but it is good. The family returned from New York to their ancestral home in Ireland, and all that followed was suffering. The child is not an angel, he is just an angel's child. He just carries the dream bestowed by the angel. His confusion is everywhere and nowhere to settle down. In the end, he had to return to the United States.
Anyone in the subconscious mind, as time and space change, his restless factors will split into countless motives. And eating meat is the greatest satisfaction of people in your childhood. When you eat meat every day, people will look at themselves in a full mirror. But if you say that you are only satisfied with eating, then people are undoubtedly ordinary animals. The huge energy hidden in the human subconscious is beyond the ability of humans to measure and calculate. A logger is always bored with logging every day, so he has to change his situation. Although the road is bumpy and crooked, but step by step let him go on tenaciously, he may become the president or a generation of war fighters.
Therefore, when a person says that he is contented or never insatisfied, he is actually not determined by himself. Once a bit of energy in the subconscious collides with the outside world, it will burst into flames. This spark may also come at an untimely time. It will burn itself to death, otherwise, it will be like a fish in water, and it will be able to pass through all the way, or it will be able to ascend to the sky. In this way, people are terrible. Why did the great Russian director Nikita Mikhakov ask the same question every year when she was growing up, from the age of six to eighteen, in the film "Anna" that took her daughter Anna for twelve years: "Are you afraid? What are you afraid of?" And so on. The background of the screen is the situation of that era or the transition from the Soviet era to the Russian era. In fact, it is the deep confusion of the director himself. Through the innocence of childlike innocence, he made kind and alternative expressions. After the eighteenth change of the female big, Xiao Anna appeared quiet and beautiful. At the end of the film, as the director of the father, when the 18-year-old Anna was about to go to school in Switzerland, you felt a slight sorrow and inexplicable touch.
Yes, people sometimes never know what they are really thinking. Even if you consciously think about it, it will not be able to complete the accumulation of energy. Only unconscious sinking can absorb endless energy. This energy does not matter whether it is good or bad. This energy is the most secret home in one's own heart. When you are hit by the wind and rain, it will come out to shelter you from the wind and rain, but the energy is subordinate to your own nature and comes from long-term confusion. Sometimes, an eruption will destroy oneself; sometimes, an eruption will nourish oneself; sometimes, an eruption will burn oneself and save oneself.
Have you saved yourself, or have you been stung by this confusion, you have no way of knowing. You only know the experience of chasing rabbits in the snow once every hour. When you think of the blue eyes of rabbits, you feel shivering. It was the severe winter of 1973, and you were 10 years old. The first snow in the winter is usually very big. After a few days of snowy foot, in the snow, you follow a bully who is five years older than you to beat the hare. He led a house dog. You are running in the snow. It is very easy to find rabbits in the snowy field. As long as you find the footprints of the rabbits, you will look for the paw prints and you will find them. Sure enough, after looking for a section of snow trails, I saw the hare running vigorously in front of him. After all, the hare is still unfavorable to run in the snow. The dog caught up, but the rabbit ran stubbornly. There is nowhere to hide, the rabbit can only run into a culvert where the sluice is dry. This is a huge culvert like a bomb shelter. The dog's barking followed closely behind, getting darker and deeper, almost reaching the end of the culvert. Because the sluice gates in winter are closed, full of cold breathless stones, where can it go, only to see the dog squatting on the ground and barking frantically at the rabbit.
You panted and rushed to the end, only to see the rabbit shrinking and glaring at you. The most alarming thing is that its eyes are glowing blue and strong in the dim dim light, which really makes you Shivering, this is a kind of light of will to survive, and it is also a light of despair of pleading. The troublemaker encouraged the dog to bite it, and when the dog went up, he took a few steps back. Even the dog felt the shock of the hare when it was in desperation. You panic and say forget it to the troublemaker, the rabbit is so pitiful, and the eyes are so terrible, even the dog is scared, go, let it go. He didn't do it, he wanted to eliminate it resolutely, so it went up to catch the rabbit, the rabbit struggled frantically, but he grabbed its throat, and its whole body and four legs twitched vigorously. The hungry rabbit was hung from the big tree outside the gate by the troublemaker. He peeled it off with a knife little by little, and you looked at it blankly. It was really pitiful, but you couldn't save it, let alone you are one of the accomplices.
The skinned rabbit is so scary to you, flowing smoothly with blood, just like a skinned frog that has been magnified countless times, immersed in your eyes and burns suddenly. You feel dizzy and even vomit. You squatted on the ground and tried to vomit, but you couldn't vomit. You shuddered a few times when you got up. He smiled and gave you a few pieces of meat, you dare not just go home with the bloody rabbit meat. The process from running to peeling is like entering a fascist slaughterhouse. The reason why you are sad and guilty is that the rabbit is almost pleading, desperate and pitiful, and stays at the gate of yours more than thirty years ago forever. Since then, you have never eaten rabbits again. Whenever you mention any other rabbit meat, you are scared. Naturally, you think of the blue eyes of the hare. It has always shocked you.
In your life, there are more than hares that shock you. There are always countless wild geese and wild mallards in the icy river and endless snow. You have seen them dancing briskly and beautifully, and you have also seen them being killed under the shotgun. Whenever you see these, you are always in a daze. You don't even realize whether people's actions are wrong or right. You are just confused, but feel that they are too pitiful. You like to see their graceful posture of flying freely, because you have dreamed of flying so many times. You can't understand what people do. You feel that they make you scared. There are always full-time hunters who will carry shotguns with a few hunting dogs on their backs and hunt them all the way on the ice and snow.
Right now, with the shining sun and the warmth as before, you seem to be calm. But after hearing so much noise, I want to return to the peaceful mountain for a long time, and you no longer have the courage, you are also numb, what do you want to do. Perhaps, people are born with a sense of confusion, and then they are crushed by the torrent of reality, and then continue to their descendants, endless.
2006, 12, 19
Selected from the film review collection "Invisible Films" published by Haitian Publishing House, with abridgements in the book.
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