About four or five years old, when my eyes are always on boys, I know that I am a little different from others, and not that different. I love to play games, skip school, sleep, and occasionally play basketball when I don’t like classes. , I’m more naughty with a few good buddies. I am often criticized by the teacher by name. My temper is sometimes very angry. No one has asked me if I am gay. I always know the answer. So I'm still an actor... Working hours are from getting up in the morning to going to bed at night, all year round. Some people think that I talk less, some think I talk too much, some think I am fierce, and some think I am behaved. I basically ignore them except for those who need to contact. They think I am cool.
It’s normal for novice actors to have poor acting skills. The computer broke down in elementary school. My dad found a cousin who understood this to fix it. After he found out the "you know" video on my hard drive, he told me that it was wrong, of course I am sure I didn’t recognize that it was from me. I pretended to be innocent and said it was originally on the computer. I don’t know where it came from (I was worrying when I was a kid)... Although in the end he didn’t say much, but since then I’ve Cut off contact with their family. I am not ashamed of my sexual orientation, nor am I concerned about other people's opinions, but people instinctively seek advantages and avoid disadvantages. Who would want to mess up their own life? Since then, the computer is locked, the room is locked, and the heart is locked. Things have become simple and complicated.
So I understand why Ben didn’t show up for Ned, why Bruce didn’t want to be on TV, why Felix chose to marry a woman, and I also understand why Ned was angry with them and indisputable. He has a big brother who is rich and loves him. Living with royalties, he can buy a house anytime he wants to buy a house. He doesn’t care about the consequences, because there are no consequences at all, and other people are not so lucky... When you have a job, you depend on this job, and this job depends on other people’s decisions. At that time, before the law does not protect you, you'd better act honestly. At this time, I am Bruce. When someone thinks that the Internet is almost overwhelmingly politically correct, homosexuals should shut up, as if suddenly the world is getting better, saying that we are engaging in "reverse discrimination" and "vulnerable group violence", saying that homosexuals should not be allowed to marry, and no one should be allowed to marry. Stand up against it, this time I am Ned.
With more than ten years of uninterrupted practice, I have become better and better. I don’t need to change anything on the outside. Just don’t touch my eyes or touch my hands. The main thing is to go through my head once what I say, and I will deliberately avoid it at the beginning. Later, I found out that if you let go of it properly, you can tell the truth. In order to observe the audience’s reaction, the brother in the dormitory said that although he did not discriminate, he could not understand homosexuality. Barabara...I didn't pick him up on this topic and continued to play the game.
After work, I went to a place for internship. I was arranged by the leader to study with an uncle. I talked about private life. I asked him if he was married. He answered that he was married and had children. I remember the way he answered and the evasive intention. Others may have been blinded... this unit also has a middle-level manager with glasses man. This person who often wears a small bow tie is much more conspicuous, but most people here should be unaware. One day, the organization went to have a barbecue, and somehow everyone suddenly coaxed two straight men to kiss, and the result was that they really kissed. The female leader took advantage of the trend to express her opinion, saying that she doesn't mind homosexuality and thinks that as long as it is true love, it is good. I guess she knows what she knows about the man with glasses, and told him it, but including the three professional actors I was present, they turned on the performance mode by coincidence: I was playing Lengtou Qing eating beef skewers and looking up at the stars by the way, and the man with glasses was playing WeChat airplane too. It’s fun. What did you guys say just now? The married man is playing frequent urination.
This is the everyday life of homosexuals that heterosexuals can see but are not aware of.
On the other side, like in the movie, homosexuality has a complicated sexual relationship, but not everyone. In the stage play, there is a line describing this kind of sexual relationship. When Emma wants Ned to tell all gays to stop having sex, Ned finds it ridiculous.
Emma: Are you saying you guys can't relate to each other in a nonsexual way ?
Ned: It's more complicated than that. For a lot of guys it's not easy to meet each other in any other way. It's a way of connecting — which becomes an addiction. And then they're caught in the web of peer pressure to perform and perform.
From contact with the same kind to addiction, the root cause is only two words: loneliness. I believe that many homosexuals feel the same way. Most people still yearn for love. Even if they don't want it, they won't refuse when they come. But in a country that cannot get married, a country where the official talks about homosexuality are still very sensitive, it is difficult to have any results. Friend A, as the first one I know, chose to marry a lesbian girlfriend after graduation; Friend B thinks he can still hang around for a few more years, and then find a woman who likes him to marry; Friend C has no plans, talk to her boyfriend first So, taking one step counts as one step; as for me, everything I've talked about ended up with the other party looking for or already has a girlfriend, so going to parliament is my choice.
Men do not naturally not love.
They learn not to.
The character Felix is probably the one that resonates most with the audience. He always struggles in life, takes his feelings seriously, and has had a long relationship, but because the other party wanted to find a younger one and dumped him, he had compromised and married a woman. After the divorce, he couldn't even see his children and had an enviable job. A reporter from the New York Times, on the other side that everyone couldn't see, he was also using his way to find love. He likes Ned, at least he likes his appearance, otherwise he would not follow him into the small room before. After the contact, he found that Ned also likes himself, at least likes his appearance, and also has common preferences with him. This was the part of crying on the bed, and the clenched fist was finally released. He decided to take a gamble on Ned, maybe this would be what he always wanted.
The film has always talked about AIDS, but the drunkard’s intention is not to drink. In fact, it uses the fight against AIDS to talk about sexual liberation, discrimination, indifference, equal rights, feelings, etc., to show the environment in which homosexuals live.
Because we are afraid of injury, we learn not to love, but we also hope that one day we can meet the right person and enjoy ordinary romance. We live in such an environment, looking for a way out for tomorrow every day, a person who keeps a secret and is strong, after all, is just an ordinary glass heart, which will be broken if we fall.
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