"I'm really straight numb!!" Maybe he would think so distressed.
He may only regard his temptation to those in the circle as an interesting thing, or he may be bored because of his crazy fascination with others, but now no one can figure it out.
Because he died, he didn't say a word, leaving no words.
As spectators, readers, and bystanders, what we hear and see is Lucian of Allen, Lucian of Kerouac, and Lucian of Burroughs.
Let me talk about the movie first. The movie is told from Alan's perspective, so what we see depicts a Samael-like Lucian with a depraved atmosphere.
At the first meeting, Lucian jumped onto the desk in front of a group of pure new students, dismissing Shakespeare. He read Henry Miller’s poem aloud in his magnetic smokey voice, with a low tail rising up "shall we?" The bones of the humans were crisp (give countless praises to Dane, who plays Little Fairy Lu), Kneeling on the desk in the library, with the lamp between his legs, a very cryptic hint of sexual significance.
So our innocent Ellen, pure calcium, pure virgin, and tight dead treasure were lit up by the little fairy Lucian with a "ding", but Comrade Allen hadn't reacted to the specifics. Ga.
Then, classmate Allen was a little hazy with a spring heart, shyly followed the music to find this revolutionary comrade who thought he had a common language, and said that he liked to see Little Fairy Lu with a slightly messy blond hair and his eyes blurred. The moment he held a cigarette in his mouth, he was all ill.
Lucian the little fairy didn't know that his own Jack Su halo attracted another fan. He was worried about how a crazy fan was entangled. Seeing a freshman with a pure and innocent look, and the concept of being as independent as his own, on impulse, I decided to take him out to meet the world.
Lucian opened the door to a new world for Allen (⊙ω⊙)
Then the innocent man who used to attend class every day and raise his hand to ask questions gradually disappeared. There is no need to be quiet like an ascetic to study rhymes to compose poems. Instead, they are daily skipping classes, drugs, alcohol, and psychedelic. Inspired in the middle, the world revolves around, and his head is full of Lucian.
He saw a middle-aged uncle who pestered him all day Lu Angel, helped his Lu write papers (hehe if someone helped me, I would do it too), and talk trivially to his Lu all day with ambiguous and sad things. Lu's groped around. He pretended to inadvertently ask Lucian who he was? Lucian replied, damn gay.
He didn't seem to notice what tone his Lu used to answer, ignoring the complicated emotions in it, and seemed impatient, disgusted, fearful, and perhaps a little sad.
Ellen was lit up with three more bulbs, "ding"-oh, it turns out that guy is a dead guy who haunts Lu, "ding"-oh, it turns out that I can like Lu as much as him, "ding"- —Oh, so it turns out that I am also a die-hard guy.
He lowered his head and looked at the fair nape and brilliant blond hair that Fairy Lu was lying on his lap, hesitantly inserted his fingers into his soft hair, three-pointed humble and three-pointed yearning, with a dreamy expression of lust.
Then his love should end before it started. If it doesn't end, how can Alan have so much pain to write howling, it would be nice if he didn't scream.
As expected, Allen couldn't help being jealous of Jack. When Jack asked, "Who are you?" he stood up angrily and recited his "first and best" poem aloud.
You are not vigilant in Wonderland
I heard strange madness in your soul grow for a long time
but you are lucky because you have the arrogance you cut off the
pain you can only find hiding love
giving, sharing, lost
at least not not It's dead in full bloom.
Everyone knows that this is written to his muse, his world, his love, and his Lucian. Because of his arrogance, indifference, and madness, he lured Alan into a fairyland, struggling between pain and joy.
Little Fairy Lu knew it too, so he obviously liked the poem, but he just kept silent and stared at this guy who was suspected to be his fake buddy. A real new brain fan. His blue eyes were psychedelic. Of the day.
Then, Ellen kissed his Lucian, and Goblin Lu responded without disappointment. what's next? ——They surpassed all the difficulties together happily——I’m sorry that this is not a silly little white language, but of course Lucian was disappointed——"Oh, help. Another person who fell under the halo of my Jack Su is so fucking annoying. It’s not fun at all."
He pushed Alan away, followed the only straight man, and before leaving, he announced that Alan would be downgraded by one level—"Aren’t you trying to get fucked with me? Okay, you don’t have to Be my confidant, abdicate and become a harem, remember to write a paper for me."
Allen was heartbroken, but still tearfully finished Lu Yaojing's thesis. What a song of love, weeping and sad! In the future, remember to do it when you examine the person you are dealing with—"Do you love me? Write me a paper if you love me! Quack quack", the innocent man Allen is very sad, but he seems to think that there is still a glimmer of hope, but when he When giving Lucian the essay on blood and tears, he discovered that this unreasonable little goblin was leaving again, or eloped with another man. He burst into tears and ran away, Fairy Lu's eyes were wet, and she quickly wiped her nose.
Allen met Dave on the road, and the uncle said half self-deprecating half angrily, we all need what he needs, not what he wants. (We are all what he needs, but not what he wants)
So Alan, the broken-hearted, Jin Sibao was mourning his love while drunk, and found a back figure that was also a blonde standing collar coat, he He shouted "Lucian?" hopefully, but it would definitely not be his Lu who came back to look for him-this was just a person who looked a bit like Lu-and took him for granted as a stand-in.
The director gave a close-up when Allen, who played the egg mud, changed his position at the end. Many people think this section is very inexplicable, but I like it very much, not because I saw Harry Potter, my childhood idol, has a tuft of chest hair. The hairy legs ruined the gloomy psychology of childhood, but because of Alan's expression, there is turmoil, helplessness, and determination, like the madness of sacrifice for the only faith in the heart.
After struggling for a while, he finally kissed the person who was only somewhat similar to Lucian. He seemed to feel the pain and discomfort of betrayal, and his expression was complicated.
This is the best level that a straight-faced custard can perform. I keep bending myself on the road of performing arts and think that this way I can get rid of my Harry Potter-like custard.
Lucian finally stabbed his stubborn fan over there.
The souls in the circle went to jail, Alan hurried over, Kerouac went to jail for helping Lucian, Burroughs was released on bail by his rich father-this drug-drinking was so dark that it was written in the future Naked lunch is a rebellious novel of a high-rebel society, who also made movies and advertised for Nike, standing in front of his dad can only cowardly respond to "yes, sir". The
movie story is almost over here, a bunch of people because One person gathers together, and because the same person is separated, this is the one-sentence summary of this movie.
As said in the movie, this circle is over. They struggled to break free from the circle of the old rules, but jumped into another circle.
In the article, we commonly call this kind of ending unfinished: it starts vigorously and ends dimly and hurriedly.
In the movie, it seems that Lucian is deliberately portrayed as a game of people's hearts. He is indifferent to the people who have passed through a generation. He can't write anything good, but he always hopes that others will do it for him. Decadent, frivolous, maverick, indulgent.
He seemed to be the Satan who seduced Faust and Morpheus who controlled the dream.
In a real sense, Lucian Carr in reality is the real soul in the circle that had crossed a generation at that time. He did not rely on other talented people to exist. On the contrary, he was their muse, their organizer, and they ignored them in the process of creation. All the chasing butterflies. He gave them inspiration, so, of course, "Howl" appeared, "On the Road" appeared, "And the hippo was boiled to death in the sink" this tough guy mystery novel with a funny name also appeared, I swear I have never seen a book title more unreasonable than this in my life.
But I can understand that Lucian later asked everyone-to be precise, the group of people who inspired countless creative inspirations by this incident-the group of people who finally stereotyped the Beat generation, to wipe his name from the title page. Go, including the words "for Lucian".
It's embarrassing, he might think.
This incident caused him to leave the circle that he regarded as everything, lost his bright future, and discredited his life history. Just like at the end of the movie, Allen was sitting in a corner of the cafe typing heartily, with Lucian’s black-and-white news on the wall. How often did this lively blond boy preach here arrogantly--" I will never appear on the wall!"
However, he sacrificed and he became the kind of person on the historical track that he said. One day no one will remember him. Just thinking about it, no one will remember this past international cooperation. Press editor, people will only remember the "and the hippopotamus was boiled to death in the sink" that the name is amused by the tough guy mystery novel Chinese and American juvenile murderer prototype", "the person who used to be mixed in the Beat generation circle" "Kailu" "Yake's unknown friends", these have become his lifelong labels.
I think the book "Hippo" is full of irony. At that time, the styles of Kerouac and Burroughs were immature, and the content of each chapter would not be very different. However, no matter from the content or the name, this book is unabashedly referring to the events of the year, and once again reveals Lucian’s bloody wounds.
Even if it were me, I wouldn't want this disgraceful history to appear in front of the world in this way, constantly reminding myself of the unforgettable past.
I don’t deny that they are really following him wholeheartedly, falling for him, watching everything about him obsessively—his dazzling blond hair, unruly and thought-provoking words, casual and compelling actions, just like Howard Dorian Gray, Madame Sabatière of Baudelaire.
Poets are all hurting the spring and the autumn. They cry because of the muse’s indifference and ruthlessness. They are ecstatic because of the muse’s joy. Only when a poet has truly experienced the world’s various conditions, broken and stood up, can he write the words of the world. , So they are destined to have no results. Only such defects can make them write great novels.
As said at the end of the movie,
when death brings rebirth,
like all lovers and sad people,
I am a poet.
Kill your darling, kill your darling.
If life is really a circle, and now we are struggling on the wheel of life and death, then the person who appears on this trajectory like Lucian is a bifurcation.
At the last moment, you were still advancing in the set direction. At the next moment, your life will be turned upside down because of the seemingly inconspicuous bifurcation.
Maybe you just went out with him, listened to a song, read a book, seemingly trivial things, but when this happens, nothing can stop you-your life will be completely changed. Up.
I once had such a Lucian. In my eyes at the time, she burned dazzlingly like the sun, making me a moth, dark and humble, and would rather burn yourself closer to desperately.
She also smiled like Lucian, and took me to a world that I had never set foot in.
I can't forget the trembling that triggered from the depths of my soul when I first talked with her to find a confidant. I thought she was my world, my only, everything about me.
There is such a kind of person in the world that allows you to dedicate everything you can to him.
But like all Lucian, she left. I thought I would collapse and go crazy.
But no, I didn't run out of it because of it. I might not even care about her as much as I thought. Most of the time, I just subconsciously hinted that I need to value her more.
I haven't even really liked this person. What I care about is just the shadow that I imagined to reflect on her.
I lifted her to the throne of God.
So her departure was also inevitable, and in the end she only reaped a bunch of traces left by her, and the habit that didn't belong to me after getting used to it.
Just like Alan said at the end of Somethings, once you in love with them, they become yours forever.
And if you try to let them go,
they only circle back and return to you , they become part of you
, she became a part of me, she is my Lucian.
Thank God for allowing them to exist. I have encountered them before, even if they know they will die without disease.
There is no stalker that you like, in the eyes of people like us who are chasing, they are deeply affectionate, and those who are being chased will only feel that the lingering spirits. This sad story originated from the cruelty and ignorance of the youthful mind and from the doomed death at the moment of entanglement between Lucian and David. Their fascination with Rimbaud and Verlaine, each of them repeats a misguided teacher and student. The tragedy of the relationship reproduced their favorite scene.
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Add some realistic background stories.
————The deadlock between Lucian Carr and David Camerer began in St. Louis in 1936, when Lucian was eleven and David was twenty-five. Eight years later, after five states, four boarding schools and two universities, the connection with each other has become too close, and the emotions are too fanatical, just as "Will Denison" (i.e. William Burroughs) in " "Hippo" said: "When they two touch each other,
something will happen." ——About Lucian Carr’s early life and youth intersex activities, what can be talked about is far more than the main figures of the Beat generation. The richest and most reliable biographies reveal much more. For example, Lucian had several relationships with Ginsburg in 1944. Camerer and Ginsburg also had a relationship. But there was never sexual contact between Lucian and David, not even once, according to Burroughs' memories, Camerer often told him this.
————The first group of people who used the story of Carl and Camerer in literary writing was Alan Ginsburg. At the end of 1944, Alan wrote many notes and drafts in his diary. He wanted to use This work is called Blood Song. The currently published Ginsburg diary includes these texts, including many clear portraits of the relationship between him and Lucian, as well as vivid descriptions of Karl and Burroughs circles.
—— Luciancar was released after two years in Elmira. He returned to New York, intending to start from scratch and live again, never wanting his good friend Jack to turn the tragedy that ended his youth into a romantic story. Anyone who wants to write the text of "Hippo", or re-submit it, or carry out similar activities, he tried his best to prevent it.
————In the letter from Elmira to Kerouac and Ginsburg, Carl maintained his usual triumphant tone, "What? I will worry?", but he and everyone else I know, he can't go back to Columbia University. Soon after his release, he went to work for Hezhong International News Agency, initially as a contributor. He married Francesca von Harz and formed a family (three sons, Simon, the novelist Galle, and Ethan). In 1956, he was promoted to the night news editor of United International News Agency.
————In April 1976, Aaron Latham, who became his estate agent after the death of Kerouac, published Kerouac’s biography in the "New York" magazine. The first chapter is simple The clear title made Lucian Carr furious, "The Columbia Murder That Grows the Beat Generation." Although he has worked with some friends of United International News Agency for thirty years, no one knows that he killed people when he was young. He blamed Allen for talking about their sex with Latham in a place where there were live recordings. He felt that Allen had blatantly despised his understanding of the incident in 1944.
—— Lucian Carr has become a journalist with outstanding skills and dedication. In the 1970s, he was promoted to the head of the news group of the United Press International. The United Press moved to Washington, DC in 1983, and he also moved from New York. Lucian spent 47 years in the club and retired in 1993. He passed away on January 28, 2005 at the age of seventy-nine.
————London "The Times" published an obituary, "The predecessor of United Press International, the United Press, said Karl is the "soul of news service. This beat generation of thin and tall graduates is the premier newspaper of United International News, "A Line". "The number of major news rewritten, revised, rewritten and reproduced is unprecedented." He won the endless admiration and love of his colleagues."
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