The important task of adolescence is to find identity

Nicole 2021-10-19 10:02:45

I always feel that there is some inexplicable fate between Britain and me. It seems that there is always someone or something waiting there waiting to happen. At that time, I seemed to have expectations every day. I didn't know what I expected. Perhaps the expectation was more of adolescent restlessness. I always felt that I was eye-catching, I always wanted to do something big, and I always wanted to see the outside world. In reality, there are not many opportunities to do big things, and there are not many people who do big things. So leave this restless heart to movies and music. Movies and music were another window into the world at that time. At that time, "Guessing the Train" was like a cool term. It was mentioned in any deviant article. I thought it was the other side of the world that I could see. In short, I thought the content of the movie was as cool as the name. Teenagers in their 20s can shoot at dogs in the park with an air gun or indulge in drugs, lying on the floor and sinking in the toilet for a full day of swimming. Together with the psychedelic British rock music, every day is "Perfect Day". . At that time, the understanding of the world was still limited, and some shots were not well understood. At the end of the movie, Reton smiled badly at the mirror and took away all the money. The music of Drive boy dog ​​boy.. Dirty numb angel boy In the doorway boy sounded. . But at the time, I really thought Reton's behavior was so cool. He seemed to have done something "big thing". There was also a TV channel called Channel V at that time. Some people may be relatively new to this TV station. At that time, Wilber Pan and Chen Zhizhong were still the hosts of this TV station. Unlike domestic TV stations, Channel V is headquartered in Hong Kong, so the programs it broadcasts are also more trendy, more European and American. Every day at noon and evening, there will be a program dedicated to European and American music. I also heard Queen and Oasis in that program. , Blur, U2, Radio Head, Coldplay, Suede... . I am still impressed by several MVs. I still remember the first time I listened to Blur’s "Out of time". The United States just started sending troops to Iraq. The MV is about a British female soldier serving in the navy. The tone of the MV has always been a dark green song. At the end, there is a section of music played by Middle Eastern instruments, and then I learned that it is called Udeqin. It sounds very sad, as if it is telling the frustration of life. The lead singer of ColdPlay stands on the beach wearing a raincoat and sings "Yellow" with a strong nasal tone. The violin soundtrack in the back row of the band in "Whatever" makes people listen so excited, as if every note is engraved into the heart, so the violin can follow Rock and roll are combined like a family. These music and movies formed my initial impression of Britain.

It was not until I went to school in the UK that I had the honor to see the real British society. From the 1980s to the 1990s, the entire international environment was undergoing drastic changes. In 1989, the Berlin Wall collapsed, the Soviet Union disintegrated, and the gears on the British machine followed the conveyor belt. This period was also a transitional period of British society. Mrs. Thatcher carried out drastic reforms of British state-owned enterprises, including energy, telecommunications, media, and other traditional industries. Britain began to embrace the market economy in an all-round way. People of all walks of life were affected by the social transformation. The classmates couldn't tell Mrs. Thatcher whether it was hate or love. Maybe people's uncertainty about future life and social development in that era gave birth to British rock music. There are more young people in their 20s who are reluctant than they dare to face it. They would rather indulge in the intense rhythm played by guitars and drums. Or like the addicts in "Guessing the Train", they paralyze themselves with drugs every day, even though their children are dead, they hope to solve real problems with a dose of drugs. Protagonist RentonHe also clearly realizes that he can’t always be like this. Now it seems that Renton is actually not cool at all. In the chaotic life, he is even more sympathetic. He himself said: "Without heroin, I attempted to lead a useful and fulfilling life as a good citizen." So he is also resisting, trying to find a job and becoming a real estate manager. But he seems unable to get out of that strange circle. A bunch of friends will always pull him from the window close to the sun to the dark and cramped hut, no matter how hard he struggles, he will eventually return to the "Pleasure" created by drugs. However, from the bottom of his heart, he deeply despises this kind of life. The hallucinations after taking drugs during the process of returning home to rehabilitate are no longer the deep blue sea, but the devil-like baby crawling forward to him, crying in pain, This is more like the sound of fear and contempt for drugs from deep in his heart. This experience made him finally "Choose Life" again. At the end of the movie, he offended all those so-called friends one by one, and took away the money bag without looking back. He finally did something big, symbolizing a complete break with his past self and re-establishing his identity, truly taking responsibility for his actions, and yearning for a middle-class life. In the UK, I have also met some people from the bottom of society. They are desperate for their lives than anyone else. They don’t want to eat cheap frozen food all at once. They also want to send their children to a better school, and they want to find a good one. Work makes me more decent. But because they are used to the current life, it is difficult to get out of their comfort zone. It is difficult for them to change. Change means uncertainty, and uncertainty makes them feel scared. Without the director's shooting techniques and first-person monologue, this would be a very realistic documentary. I have seen a lot of comments describing this movie as "a tribute to youth". I just want to refute that there shouldn't be such a "youth" at all, let alone a "tribute". Youth can be rebellious and unique, but you must clearly know where the boundary between illusion and reality lies. The cost of losing health is very high. The director and screenwriter are still gentle enough to give Renton the "first pot of gold" for rebirth. But in reality, how likely is it that good things like the end of the movie will happen?

There is another movie I like more in the same period-"Billy Elliot", "Billy Elliot" is the same as "Guessing the Train", they both describe the low-level British people. The difference is that Billy is more active and knows himself better than them. What do you want. Billy lived in the 1980s. His father and brother were coal miners. Because the workers went on strike, his father could not work, and the family suddenly had no financial resources. But pinning all hopes on little Billy, hoping that he will grow up like a real man, so he sent him to learn boxing. It may be that his mother died too early. Little Billy has always rejected the family led by his father. When he is fine, he will cut the grass in front of his mother's tombstone. Birth and family did not make Little Billy feel inferior. He still insisted on "Choose Life". Instead of learning boxing according to his father, he went to the next ballet class to learn ballet, hiding in the room and practicing with the teacher reverberating in his mind. Voice: Prepare! Go... Billy. In a frontal conflict with his father and brother, little Billy jumped on the roof and on the fence. In the lyrics of "Town called Malice" Struggle after struggle, year after year, little Bill finally jumped into a street where you can see the sea level. , The houses on both sides were row upon row. In the camera, Billy danced, jumping from the end of the road to the camera, as if the whole street was his stage. Once when I was playing in Zanzibar, I saw a street scene similar to the one in the movie, but it was not Billy dancing, but a local boy chasing a football barefoot on a similar street. Maybe in a few years his figure will be too. Will appear on the football field of a certain league. Billy said how he danced: "Like I feel a change in my whole body. And I've got this fire in my body. I'm just there. Flyin' like a bird. Like electricity". After seeing Billy’s talent, his father insisted on working in the mine despite the opposition and insults of other miners. His reason was simple: "It's for Billy, he may be a genius for all we know, let' s give the boy a chance. Billy was lucky to have a responsible father growing up, a teacher who cared about him, and a grandma who loved him. These people finally pushed him and pushed Billy to the ballet stage of his dreams.

I don’t think that British rock music is the soundtrack that represents depravity in "Training", and is associated with drugs and illusory life every day, but "We are the champions" proudly sang when the team wins and loses. The inspiring "Stop crying your heart out", the "Survival" that inspires every athlete in the Olympic Games. And, "London calling", where people dared to express their voices in times of social turmoil and uncertainty, and "Out of time", which dared to sing opposition when the mainstream melody unanimously supports the United States' fight against Iraq, can still be used on Friday during the financial crisis. In the evening, "Viva la vida" is played and sung with wine. It was the Gallagher brothers in the gloomy basement. Even with the minimum allowance, they were full of hope and created "Don't Look back in anger" which was unanimously sung by all British people in the event of any crisis.

I was fortunate enough to meet a lot of people who do big things. When the doctor told him that there is no cure for your disease, he still insists on running and insists on loving everyone around him. Some went to Africa to protect wildlife and promote a global ban on ivory trade. Others receive few scholarships in the UK, and they have to save money to help their sisters living in Beijing. Sometimes people don't need to deliberately do big things. People stick to their dreams every day like Billy, and see that dreams get closer to oneself little by little. This is the big thing.

PS If you want to say what is wonderful about this movie, I think it is the professionalism and cooperation of the director, screenwriter, and others. There are more than 30 scenes in the movie. The screenwriter must arrange these 30 scenes before Danny takes over. , It can't exceed time and budget. Finding a shooting location is a very difficult task. Even the placement of a trash can in the movie was specially selected by the screenwriter John Hodge and others. It took two months for the male lead Ewan McGrogor to avoid fat and sugar-containing foods for this movie and finally reached the director's standard. The filming place and time were in the midsummer of Scotland. Scotland’s latitude is high, so the sunset is very late, and the night is only more than 4 hours, so the shooting time in the evening is very rushed, which is also the most troublesome place for the director. There is also the filming technique of the director, especially the shot that fell into the floor after taking drugs, which has always been a topic of our photography class teachers.

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  • Jess 2022-03-24 09:01:11

    Youth is not cruel, but we chose drugs, decadence, and cruelty. Not everyone can fall, fall is also a kind of aesthetics and requires talent.

  • Mabelle 2021-10-20 18:59:08

    That disgusting toilet.

Trainspotting quotes

  • Mark "Rent-boy" Renton: Excuse me, excuse me. I don't mean to harass you, but I was very impressed with the capable and stylish manner in which you dealt with that situation. And I was thinking to myself, now this girl's special.

    Diane: Thanks.

    Mark "Rent-boy" Renton: What's your name?

    Diane: Diane.

    Mark "Rent-boy" Renton: And where are you going, Diane?

    Diane: I'm going home.

    Mark "Rent-boy" Renton: Well, where's that?

    Diane: It's where I live.

    Mark "Rent-boy" Renton: Great.

    Diane: What?

    Mark "Rent-boy" Renton: Well, I'll come back with you if you like, but like, I'm not promising anything, you know.

    Diane: Do you find that this approach usually works? Or let me guess, you've never tried it before. In fact, you don't normally approach girls - am I right? The truth is that you're a quiet sensitive type but, if I'm prepared to take a chance, I might just get to know the inner you: witty, adventurous, passionate, loving, loyal. Taxi! A little bit crazy, a little bit bad. But hey - don't us girls just love that?

    Mark "Rent-boy" Renton: Eh?

    Diane: Well, what's wrong boy - cat got your tongue?

  • [last lines]

    Mark "Rent-boy" Renton: Now I've justified this to myself in all sorts of ways. It wasn't a big deal, just a minor betrayal. Or we'd outgrown each other, you know, that sort of thing. But let's face it, I ripped them off - my so called mates. But Begbie, I couldn't give a shit about him. And Sick Boy, well he'd done the same to me, if he'd only thought of it first. And Spud, well okay, I felt sorry for Spud - he never hurt anybody. So why did I do it? I could offer a million answers - all false. The truth is that I'm a bad person. But, that's gonna change - I'm going to change. This is the last of that sort of thing. Now I'm cleaning up and I'm moving on, going straight and choosing life. I'm looking forward to it already. I'm gonna be just like you. The job, the family, the fucking big television. The washing machine, the car, the compact disc and electric tin opener, good health, low cholesterol, dental insurance, mortgage, starter home, leisure wear, luggage, three piece suite, DIY, game shows, junk food, children, walks in the park, nine to five, good at golf, washing the car, choice of sweaters, family Christmas, indexed pension, tax exemption, clearing gutters, getting by, looking ahead, the day you die.