What killed the once little boy? The rickety man with muscular dystrophy, who was driving with both hands on the steering wheel at a speed of no more than thirty miles, muttered to himself. At that time, he could clearly see the lines on his fingers holding the steering wheel. With hate, like the fuck on his arm, I don't know what he hates, is it the abusive brother and friends, the head of the orphanage who sexually assaulted him, or the betrayal of his wife, or the scolding He hated his son, or the system he always cursed, or the whole world that had never shown kindness to him from the moment he was born, or a life that was as atrophied as his muscles.
But for any tragic movie, the most afraid of the ending sentence is based on a true story. Without this sentence, it is false to be able to comfort myself, it is all about making tears, how can there be such a thing, so when I think of such a homeless man who was abandoned by fate, he was drinking, swearing, swearing violently, taking drugs, and talking. Slowly cooking and driving, talking about the devil in his body in a slurred voice, talking about his more than 30 prison life, such a person who really existed in this world, my fingertips will tremble , I can fuck my life.
I don't know how to put all such a life trajectory on a real person. He collapses. He will set fire to the naked body. He wants to force the devil out of his body. Where is the devil in the body? That's the hinge that the whole world gave you, trapping you in it, suffocating as you struggle, and eventually walking dead. But he didn't, he was a tramp with a walking dead, but he would insist on appealing for the boss of the relief station, he would calmly find a way, drive a long distance calmly, and calmly insist on going to the stage to speak intermittently in an unfavourable voice, Maybe he has always been like this, persevering for a long time, persevering in living. Just like the pair of hands on the steering wheel, with hate tattooed and love tattooed at the same time. Even if life is like grass, he still wants to break free and insist on loving, just like what he said in the tape, "I just think, even if it's just once, I can stop being irritable and get relief." "If I can change it. One thing in your life, what will you change?", the day Stewart chose to use violence, even if he only had violence to fight the world, he wanted to take it back, he saw the devil in himself so clearly , He slowly shrank in countless self-struggles. It turned out that the devil didn't want to be homeless, just like a joke and his last compromise.
I thought that, like many movie scenes, I would meet someone or something that healed him, and finally be redeemed by God, Happy ending, but no, this is not a story of redemption, this is a real, bloody cruel life, even if you meet Alexander, they also cook together, protest together, Alexander is a qualified companion and listener, he makes Stuart normal and happy for a long time, but it is only a period of time, his life is too painful, any redemption is futile, death Seems to be the only relief.
The tone of the whole movie is cheerful and irritable, irritable anger, cheerful music, behind it is a deep sense of helplessness, what is done is futile, just like Stewart's alcoholism, drug addiction, arson and self-abuse, and he can't. To drive away the devil in him, Ruth and John, who were released on bail, had a severe psychological disorder and could not work, and the other had cancer. What can they do when they were free, and their lives became more painful. Stewart narrowly escaped a lawsuit and was "completely free". He died on the train tracks three months later. He was never free. He tried his best to live a normal and meaningful life. His world is desolate and indifferent, and no one loves him.
"At the next stop of despair, the road will be bright and dark, the road will be bumpy, unload the package, and set off with your head held high. I just hope that I can accompany you through this journey."
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