Stuart suffered from muscular dystrophy as a child, was sent to a school for the disabled, was ridiculed and bullied by his classmates, suffered school violence, was bullied by his brother and his classmates at home, sexually assaulted, resisted for three years, his parents, family, and everyone around him ignored it He didn't believe him, his personality changed drastically, he started to use violence, his classmates stopped bullying him, he felt that he had 50 times the power, and irritability began to invade his life. Started to grow wildly, maybe the devil didn't want to be homeless, then threatened the family to go to the shelter, was sexually assaulted by the principal, entered the society, failed to get out of the inner demon, kept being arrested for crimes, imprisoned for 31+, met with The male protagonist, after telling all his stories to the male protagonist, at the age of 33, he walked towards the railroad tracks and towards liberation.
In fact, everyone's childhood is not perfect, there are always some regrets, and they will also suffer a lot of trauma. They come from family, from school, and from various places. Zooming in is like being observed under a microscope, constantly strengthening this memory, and eventually leading to self-destruction or self-redemption.
Just like the saying in Forrest Gump, you can only move forward if you forget the past. The past is just a wind. You can't let your memories of the past dominate the present. This will eventually lead to "self-destruction". The so-called self-reconciliation is actually Just forgive yourself for being unreasonable at the time, don't resist, don't think too much, forget about him, don't overthink, and continue to move forward along your own path.
Stuart's life is sad, sometimes it is better to live than to die, and sometimes it is difficult to understand that those graduate students committed suicide by jumping off the building, or that such and such teachers, such and such students, such and such young people committed suicide, just like a sentence said in Gatsby. :
In my younger and more vulnerable years my
father gave me some advice that I've been
turning over in my mind ever since.
"Whenever you feel like criticizing any one," he
told me, "just remember that all the people in
this world haven't had the advantages that
you've had."
Everyone's experience is different, and it's hard to imagine the pain of others. Maybe Stuart really can't get rid of his inner demons, so he can only commit suicide.
Pure hand fighting, I hope the system will get better and better, there will be less incidents like red, yellow and blue, less school violence and domestic violence, and hope the society will be better!
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