This is a documentary, a true story. After reading it, there is a feeling of anger but powerlessness, and the mood is heavy. Sympathize with the complicated experience of the protagonist Stewart, be surprised by his good conversation, and admire his pursuit of freedom. "I used to let myself drink to the point of daze, and then talk mad about self-destruction and suicide, dragging the responsible person to hell by the way. All I expected was to lie down and die peacefully, I felt so filthy It's fucking horrible again, I hurt and hate everyone who comes close to me, but I just hope I can escape this madness, even once. After a lifetime, you can really appreciate the deep meaning of it, and you can't help feeling sad. In Stewart's life, perhaps only the experience after meeting Alexander really made him feel happy and free. At the age of nine, his muscles were checked Withered, he was insulted by his trusted brother and his friends, violently treated by classmates, and sexually assaulted by the headmaster of the children's home... In order to be strong, he used violence recklessly, beating those who had bullied him, and domestic violence was suspected of cheating His wife, 33, has been jailed 36 times. "If you had to choose one thing in your life, what would you change? Muscular dystrophy? All kinds of addictions? Or your brother?" Stewart replied: "I find violent That day. Stewart knew that many people had the same Tongfeng experience as him, and these people accepted and adapted to them, and they could still live a dull, decent, and meaningful life. But he couldn't stop his "crazy" at the beginning of the film Shown is the last time of Stuart's life. He ran around and organized protests for the head of the shelter to be released from prison. He was sloppy and rough, but in order not to soil other people's floors, he would put soot on his pants; When Alexander forgot to bring money, he took out all the money he had without hesitation, and comforted the other party by saying: You should help me quit drinking; and after talking with his son, he was worried about his 14-year-old son's impolite conversation. There are sufferings, failures, and tragedies in all of them, and most people will find an excuse for these negative experiences to pass the buck on to other people, unfortunate family, unreliable friends, and even fate. But Stewart does not hate this. The world, although everything around him brings him only misfortune, but he still wants to embrace this world and escape from the "madness". We also face many hardships in our life. How we live in the end depends on our own choices. Stewart chose "violence", so how do we choose to live a meaningful life?
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