The few times I watched this movie, I burst into tears a few times.
In the movie, the pictures that are not always bright, combined with the characters' seemingly relaxed but actually heavy and painful lines, coupled with the social background of that era, are a heavy hammer on everyone's heart.
The story wants to express a lot, but the one that touches me the most is the conversation that happened in the bedroom. Alexander asked Stewart if there was one thing his life could change, which one he would like it to be. Maybe his muscular dystrophy? Or his unfortunate family? No, this tormented man already had the answer. He chose to give up violence. What he wanted to change was the day he used violence against violence for the first time.
Violence can make the body strong, but the mind becomes weak, so the devil will parasitize under the eaves, hide in the shell of violence, and eat the mind. It wasn't until one day that the owner of the body came to his senses and realized that he could no longer drive this devil away. Whether it was hurting others or hurting himself, he couldn't drive it away. Stewart laughed at himself that even the devil didn't want to be homeless, so he had to live in this body.
Violence is such a demon. Once it's in, it can't be driven away. Once it starts, it can't be stopped. It's even harder to quit than drug addiction. Sadly, Stewart has long figured it out, and he admits that there are many people who have suffered the same fate as him, but not all of them have become like him. All he did was struggle again and again, and finally failed. Once I understand this, I find that this part of the movie is not about lamenting Stewart's ill-fated fate, but a sigh of sadness for the fate that has long been doomed. That's what saddens me the most about this movie.
Stewart's story is real and ordinary, and fate cannot be reversed or changed. Listening to the tape played by Alexander, this man is still thinking about driving the demons out of his body at the most desperate moment. How I hope his wish can come true, even if only Once is fine.
If you're craving a big cry, remember to watch "Stuart: Rewinding Your Life" alone.
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