dog of spring
long long ago
There is a puppy who is good at hiding his heart
puppy tethered to the shade of a tree
It always wags its tail and loves to act like a baby
So the people in the village called it the dog of spring.
But the puppy who is having fun with the kids during the day
only at night
secretly crying
In fact, the dog of Haruhi wants to break the collar
Run and play in the spring fields
but it can't do that
So I cry sadly every night
whistling
someday
I whispered in my heart to the dog of the spring day
"
Hey, why don't you break off your collar and run away?
"
The Dog of Spring replied...
"
I've been tied up for too long...
So forgot how to get rid of the collar...
"
………………………………………………..
long long ago
in a nice village
The villagers adopted a puppy
Tether the puppy in the shade
Puppy sees villagers who adopted him
always wagging its tail happily
around the villagers
Or crouching at the feet of the villagers and acting like a baby
for the villagers
puppy just like spring
warm and alive
So the people in the village call the puppy "the dog of spring"
day after day
puppy having fun with children during daytime
Always crying secretly in the dark
I once thought that I and the villagers were mutual domestication
But gradually I understood from the backs of the villagers turning and leaving.
Just a puppy in captivity
Trapped in the shade of this seemingly benevolent but cruel tree
Every night the spring dog fantasizes about breaking his collar
the field in spring
running wildly
play as you like
The next second is sad to discover
You can't actually do anything
The dog of spring who hides these pains in his heart
only weeping sadly
just keep whimpering
one day
There is a small voice deep inside the puppy
Inquiring about the dog of spring
"
Hey, why don't you break off your collar and run away?
"
Always turn your back to your inner dog
Looking back at his heart, he replied like a sigh
"
I've been tied up for too long...
So forgot how to get rid of the collar...
"
-
As the years go by
We grow up slowly
in the days of stumbling
learned to compromise
but lost the courage to step out of the comfort zone
learned to accept
I can't stand my true self
learned to be patient
But unknowingly weaving a net trapped myself
learned to be responsible
But forget that you are most responsible for yourself
while learning a lot
but lost what I had
"
because your heart hurts
Our bodies are honest
Crying when you feel pain
But our hearts are big liars
Even if it hurts, I will be silent
So I wait until I fall asleep
I secretly cry like a dog
"
The dog of Haruhi is bound by a collar around the neck
What traps you and me is the invisible collar inside
within the reach of the chain
I chose to pretend to be nothing
numb your heart and ignore all feelings
Or choose to open your teeth and dance your claws and pretend to be loud
Defend your broken heart
I thought I was used to this unchanging day
But why is it always when the night falls and I'm alone
An uncontrollable whimper came from within
-
"
But I remember...
"I don't need an ignorant daughter like you!"
I told her I didn't need to...
her kind of daughter
If I knew it was the last time
I absolutely...
I won't say such cruel words
absolutely not
"
Facing unbearable pain
Is it a human instinct to choose to escape?
Turn around and pretend it's nothing
Convince yourself, tell a white lie to yourself
Let the pain ferment in the bottom of my heart
But I understand
after waking up
The pain won't go away
But those memories that shine with tender light
won't disappear
-
"
my good son
I'm sorry mom
"
"
elder brother
"
"
Ok?
"
"
i miss mom
"
Facing unbearable pain
subconsciously suggesting forgetting
like it never happened
Fear of desires that will never be fulfilled
to suppress his desire for everything
I can't bear to lose because I once had it
I don't want to have it anymore because I lost it
just keep on enduring
The child who hides in his heart who can't get candy
please don't be sad
sweetness ever
Just melt in one moment after another
The moments that elapsed time can't take away
-
"
when you said this last night
Sounds like telling me not to go
Although I ran away before
but today
I think I should be with you
nothing more
"
Facing a nightmare like a maggot
always endure
inescapable fear
is entangled with its own past
still unacceptable fact
in this big world
I don't want a place to stay
but accept the existence of this
With you, the frozen courage can come out of the cocoon
"
you……
your hair...
"
"
I
cut the collar
"
"
How do I look?
"
"
very beautiful
"
………………………………………………..
I was lucky enough to come across this show this year
This show made me think a lot
It's a pity that after reaching the seventh chapter, I decided to end the next period.
In these seven essays
I choose to start with the story in the play
Then, the image of the story in my mind
again in words
and corresponds to what I saw in the play
Because I want to keep what I think at the moment
So I watched two episodes at a time and wrote two episodes.
There is a different state of writing your experience on weekdays
In order to organize and clear emotions
I read each episode about 4-5 times on average
Every time I dig out the details that were overlooked before
Pain for the pain of every character in the play
I'm also worried that I can't express what I want to convey.
and
Many thanks to Katheryn Tsai
"I don't want to keep reviewing my life"
It really is a word that wakes up the dreamer
It's a pity that Jae Soo and Sang Tae were not written
But think about if this drama really wrote 16 articles to review life
Really scary thing XD
and
"
I really hope that one day we will hold a pair of warm hands
It can also warm the heart
pass the past
If only our hearts could be warmer that day
"
It has been more than 20 years since I wrote this sentence
And now I still think so, so hope
Please hold the hand of the person who cherishes you, the person you cherish
Feel the warmth
.
At last
I hope there are fewer people who resonate with watching dramas
But so there are more people with more empathy
Thank you to everyone who patiently read the testimonials
Thank you ^^
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