I have watched a lot of healing systems recently, and I feel like I am a Buddhist. But after watching this movie, I suddenly felt a sense of failure. Some of my high school classmates were admitted to graduate schools in prestigious schools, entered Audi after graduation, some were admitted to police academies, joined the police force after graduation, and even appeared on CCTV news. Some have family members who have entered a large state-owned enterprise, some have successfully married a wife and have children, but I, who is almost 30 this year, still have nothing to do in a strange city where I have stayed for seven years to make a living.
Two days ago, my junior high school classmates asked me if you go to the party mentioned in the WeChat group?
i don't know
I was not in the group, and junior high school was my most painful days. I was beaten, scolded, rejected, and insulted. I think for most students with average stature and poor family conditions, the life of junior high school is mostly similar.
The low self-esteem begins
I don't have a good student resume, average IQ and lack of effort. From the very beginning, I didn’t feel that reading changed my destiny, and I didn’t know what else I could do.
In the first half of my senior year of high school, I didn't do well in the mock exams. There were at most two books, and the pressure was inexplicable. I felt like I stabbed my head teacher to death and everything was resolved.
Of course I couldn't stab him to death, because I got into a fight with the school security guard, and he showed up at the police station at noon on a broken bicycle and sweated profusely, and took me back.
The school cooperates with the county brigade, and the school security is the assistant police officer. As for the assistant police officer who fought with me, I was a junior high school classmate and had a fight with him. Of course he thought he was beaten.
The head teacher didn't say much to me, and I also knew that he was affecting my review, because there were only two months left before the college entrance examination. Attitude is far more important than accumulation.
To this day I think about it, and I am still grateful to him.
As for my mentality, I didn't solve a big math question in the second round, and I still took the first place in the class in the essay and English test.
There were times when I thought about how I was so big-hearted, and it wasn't affected.
I think this is the bottle of Pepsi that I bought after the test and was frozen into a smoothie because the refrigerator was not constant temperature.
I can only drink a little when I unscrew the cap. The rest is full of pigmented smoothies. I can't drink it, so I can only thaw it bit by bit and taste it slowly. But that's the best Coke I've ever had.
One of the films that impressed me the most is Brad watching the flight attendant pull the curtain that separates the business class from the economy class. One is the final scherzo of the movie. One is to put Brad in crisis, the other is to relieve. Brad said he was alive, but he didn't seem to get out of it. Just give up resistance.
I read a film review about The Ferryman. He said that Tony Leung said that people must be greasy when they reach middle age.
Even Tony Leung in the movie can't get rid of time, so why should I care.
It is wisdom to give up.
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