It's not that I don't love, it's that I can't love

Trycia 2022-04-22 07:01:45

"Maurice's Lover" is indescribably gorgeous.

The only thing people can't match is memory. When I think everything has changed and everything has been erased by time, but when the familiar scene emerges again, I realize that it is not erased, but lost. When Clive got the ideal family, when he was respected by others, he seemed to be so sad when he saw the high-spirited Maurice wave to him downstairs under the embrace of his wife.

In the campus where the mind was bound by feudalism, Clive took Maurice's hand and told Maurice that he loved him. Maurice's expression was so green and unbelievable. What I saw was not a surprise, but a contradiction. At night, he Resolutely crawled into Clive's room, said "I love you" to him, and after a green kiss, he crawled out of the room. The platonic love started, and everything seemed to be logical, but Clive refused Maurice's further request, but Maurice was lying on Clive's body in the grass, and I saw that he was happy. Later, Maurice left the school because he didn't want to apologize to the professor. On the train before leaving, they didn't feel sad about their separation. Instead, Maurice was very happy. Maybe he couldn't be restrained by nature, and he also believed that their love would not deteriorate.

After all, the love between Clive and Maurice is so young, most of the time it is kissing. At night, Maurice untied Clive's cufflinks and went back to their respective rooms. But after a fellow Harvard friend's homosexuality was revealed, causing him to fall apart, Clive hesitated, and the excessive tension caused him to collapse at the dinner table, and a kiss that Maurice couldn't resist broke their relationship completely. Clive wanted to leave Maurice's house as soon as possible. When Maurice said goodbye, he threw off Maurice in the carriage and held his hand tightly on the blanket. In order to please, he even prepared to get married. When Maurice received a call from Clive's fiancée How did he feel when he called him to invite him to the wedding, and learned that he was not the first to know, although he declined the invitation, he still went on the wedding day. At the wedding, Scudde, the Clive's servant, seemed to see that Maurice was gay too.

After marriage, Clive still wanted to keep his Platonic love with Maurice, and left the best room in the house to Maurice.

We see that Maurice has clearly changed and matured, everything is so gentlemanly, but he still can't shake his past with Clive and even went to the doctor. But everything is in vain.
Until Scudde crawled in from the room, satisfying the empty Maurice. Then, Maurice wanted to get rid of him, but missed the appointment at the dock. Later, when Scudde gave up a great future for him, he discovered that it was Scudde who could spend his life with him. When Maurice told Clive what he thought, Clive's face showed the expression he had when he confessed to Maurice.

This kind of sadness washed out by the world is shocking. We can't blame Clive for not insisting on his love, because how many people in reality can let go of everything and wander the world with their beloved, and how many people can give up their degree for freedom like Maurice did? Perhaps Clive represents most of us in our lives.

It's not that Clive doesn't love, it's that he can't love. And Clive will eventually spend the rest of his life under the envy of others under his own ideals.

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Maurice quotes

  • Lasker-Jones: England has always been disinclined to accept human nature.

  • Maurice Hall: I'm an unspeakable of the Oscar Wilde sort.