At first I thought it was just a story of an autistic teenager who was bullied and then rescued by a girl he met in an online game.
My friend said, after you read it, read it.
I read it, I was stunned.
I have to say, what makes me the most adorable is the director's camera switching, he always tries to interpret the world from BEN's perspective. He does not feel the world, is rejected by people, and therefore rejects the world. To him, a man is nothing but an individual formed by the skin overlaid on the surface of skeletal muscles. I remember at first they said this about him, he was looking at you, but you couldn't feel he was looking at you. Because what he is looking at is not you, but an icy organism. Thinking of our WOWER with a smile, always trying to interpret life with WOW. But this stems from our love for WOW, not an escape from reality.
BEN rejects the world, so his every move is carried out by commands in his mind. Including walking on the street is just running the map in the game.
At first I thought BEN like this was cute and fun, but when I saw him being bullied by those sanctimonious classmates and even filming DV, that ease suddenly turned into disgust and pity. Compassion...I'm just a sympathetic bystander. Through the lens, the ugly faces, BEN's embarrassment and anger, BEN's repression and silence, BEN's self-injury... all make people tangled. But it was just a heavy repression in his heart, and there was a feeling of unwillingness to accept the cruel reality.
By the time he's been fed ecstasy...he hurts himself, he's desperate...the documentary-like structure, the NPC's words make us feel like he's about to do something, he can't take it anymore...he'll take bloody revenge. The targets are those who bully him, or himself.
Killing is actually as simple as pressing a certain key in the game. And redemption, the frequent cross, always makes people feel so difficult.
It's really hard to watch. At that time I felt that the girl was the only one who could save him. She is BEN's only traveling companion in the game, and the only person BEN can accept as a human being. Only she can free BEN from the pressure given by society and gain real freedom.
She said she would come to see him. very nice. Come and see him.
They met, and the time stood still. The director portrayed BEN's mood very carefully. Wanting to go up to recognize each other, but hesitant. Want to see her leave, but reluctant. He followed, and the camera traced her skin, eyelashes, lips. BEN looked at her and himself in the car window, breathing the air with her, he felt satisfied. Completed the wish, and logged out like a game.
I remember BEN said later that he didn't want to die because he didn't know what death was all about. Dying is not as simple as logging out of the game. The girl held him, the girl persuaded him, the girl accompanied him, and the girl guided him.
The fact is that this is not the case.
The truth of the story is already in the wrong place at the station. Maybe she didn't come, maybe they missed it... The figure that BEN traced in the car window, the girl who pulled him and persuaded him to kiss him and accompany him until the end, only he could see.
There is a long shot at the end of the movie, where BEN laughs and whispers to the air around him. We finally looked at the world from outside his perspective, only to find that everything was completely different from the beginning. We were substituted into his subjective world, and I accompanied him out of the haze with her in his fantasy.
That's the magic of this movie.
It is a very miraculous suspense that God does not come from God, and God's fake suicide in BEN, BEN's self-control, and BEN's revenge are not based on the comfort and guidance of an external element. It is a kind of self-salvation of the phantom created in the heart of a person who is autistic enough to want to commit suicide at the moment of his death.
The scene where BEN appeared before the projector gave him a long shot. The light of the projector penetrated the air behind him, like a holy light, or I would say hypocritical, like an angel's wings, plated on him A different layer of light. At that time, BEN stood on a high place, overlooking all the people. Whether it be ashamed or shameful or compassionate sympathy. His standing there was a mockery in itself. A mockery of such a formulaic memorial service. Every day such autistic children are bullied, every day someone commits suicide, every day there is such a memorial service, every day the protagonist of yesterday's memorial service is forgotten by people. And BEN used such a way to make his existence valued. He did not use sharp weapons, but deeply penetrated into the hearts of those guilty.
God's coming.
Or divine self-salvation. The cross that appeared from the beginning of the story came in the form of a human.
Die for yourself only once, like in the game, find your own body and resurrect.
It wasn't something anyone taught him, it was something BEN told himself. Suicide just represents the loser, living, either endure it or take revenge. BEN did it, and the scene where he jumped into the sea was deeply engraved in our hearts. The sea contains his past, the past him. That beautiful scene is one of my three favorite scenes in this work [the other two are the scene where he was stopped by "her" in the subway station, and the scene that appeared in front of the projector], he looks like a lot of people Leaps down the same way. Many people chose death, but he chose new life.
"She" said that every end is a new beginning.
This is true.
At the end of the story, he said to her, "As soon as you see a horse, you want to get on it, but can you tell me which horse you want to be ridden? If the horse has the right to choose..."
I think, we all understand .
【FIN】
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